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I don’t know where to start, endless problems that are now persistent in my life that continuously weighing me down like a paper weight.

I’m eighteen, and I’d class myself as a person whos quiet. I don’t do drugs, nether do I smoke, I want to have a good career and future ahead of me. In September I’m going on to university to study computing, and try and become a teacher. However, I’m having second thoughts, problems are forever rising! I’m lost.

These last two years whilst I’ve been at college have been downgrading on me, as where I was in school I was a motivated student never got in to trouble always kept on the rails metaphorically speaking. After getting exam results, I decided to go on to College to do what I’ve always loved, and done best “Computing”. Throughout college, it’s been a different experience, I’ve had some great new relationships with friends that previously lacked in secondary school, however the lecturers just don’t help with much, they’re loosing valuable work and then encouraging us to re-do the work when we could prioritise ourselves with other assignments. It’s been endless trouble with lecturers, not just me but the entire class. However, I’ve tred along and done as they’ve asked and I’m glad to say I’ve only three weeks left, yet I feel physically and mentally exhausted.

I can’t think clearly, I feel like I’m loosing my skills that I’ve previously harnessed from researching computing. I’m making mistakes… I just don’t feel like the person I once was. To add to the list, the other day my parents informed me that they’ve had some money problems. I think they are seriously money problems, you can just tell by the tone on there voice and the fear in their eyes. I know they’ve been worrying, trying to keep my car on the road, pay for my insurance! - I try and contribute towards the costs, my parents are already on low wages and I did have a part-time job during the last few months of school, and throughout college until the shop I worked at closed. I want to look for another job to pay my way up until university, I’ll also be elligible for university grants that I could use to partly pay my way with my parents.

Now, today I eared my parents arguing for a bit. They are also annoyed at me, and can’t get over why I’m so sharp? Although I will admit my attitude as completely changed, I’m grumpy, agressive, and snap at anything (from my parents asking if I want a cup of coffee). I’ve just locked myself in my room, trying to calm myself! I feel like I can’t go on to uni, I’m useless, tired.. don’t want to do anything no more.

I’ve achieved so much in my life, I’ve always helped friends and family with needs. Now, I just feel useless. These last few weeks I’ve just mopped around like a morbid person, no feelings, tried, just wish I could cry for hours on end not knowing what direction to go in.. should I go to uni, perhaps get a job to help my parents? I don’t know!! please help - do I need medical help? see a doctor?

thanks, all the help and advice is much appreciate. I apologise if my story is long,

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