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i am not sad at all about anything.
i used to be though. i used to be the saddest **** head out there. here’s why: i have what is known as social anxiety. and so because of that i got lonely. where did this come from? i dont know - you tell me. seriously, tell me. lol. there is a saying by the buddhist philosopher nagarjuna that we create the universe (or something along those lines). and this means that we create everything we read. so if you are reading this, you already read it before. why are you reading it again? and because i understand what this means, i did not need to go to a psychiatrist in order to cure my social anxiety. i didnt need to do anything. i was always diverting myself from what is truly here, right in front of me. do this - stare at a wall. look at things directly. dont fret about the future - its an idea, an illusion created by yourself. the reason why we create our future is because we want to get somewhere. get where? get where, people? heaven? why’d you want to do that? EMBRACE your suffering - don’t deny it like oprah or other self-righteous cunts tell you to do. be thankful that you suffer because without suffering, life would be a stupid thing to go through - we cant know happiness unless we know suffering. a book would be boring if there were no conflict. why should life be any different? so, don’t worry about the future. it’s something you created for yourself anyway. and don’t worry about the past. what has happened has happened. again, this is something you create. what is here is here and now. there’s a saying that says live your life as if you’ll die tomorrow. i say live your life as if you’ll never die. what then would you worry about? and it’s not like we actually do die… i mean, we do lose consciousness. but our bodies are still here. we decompose. we get eaten by worms. but think for a second - remember the time before you were born? well, you didn’t worry about not existing then, did you? no one cried because you didn’t exist then. so, when things change, why cry like we do?
i shall leave whoever is cool enough to read this, this zen koan -
a monk was in a monastery and didn’t understand the **** that was going on. he was always confused by what the masters were saying and he hadn’t yet become enlightened. so, he left the monastery angrily, hoping that he would see something better from the world - a new experience that will leave him enlightened. then, he stubbed his toe on a rock and yelled (mind you, sometimes it’s taught that you’re body’s an illusion in buddhism - i disagree with this, because obviously you are your body): “if my body is an illusion, why did that hurt?” he then got it all.
or i’ll leave with another koan, which i think is better -
a monk goes up to a master and asks him if a dog has buddha-nature. the master says no.
(think about this - the dog doesn’t even know it’s a dog).
look at things directly people! and you will have problems, but you’ll at least be able to accept them as they are.
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