Love help: I pretended to be somone I wasn’t, I pretended I was some - Help.com

tell him you’re genuinely sorry and you have learned your lesson and u wont do anything like that ever again…. and thats basically all you can do. if he doesn’t accept you, then you have to move on, no matter how tuff it may be

Paint Brush

I keep my paint brush with me
Wherever I may go,
In case I need to cover up
So the real me doesn’t show.
I’m so afraid to show you me,
Afraid of what you’ll do - that
You might laugh or say mean things.
I’m afraid I might lose you.

I’d like to remove all my paint coats
To show you the real, true me,
But I want you to try and understand,
I need you to accept what you see.
So if you’ll be patient and
close your eyes,
I’ll strip off all my coats real slow.
Please understand how much it hurts
To let the real me show.

Now my coats are all stripped off.
I feel naked, bare and cold,
And if you still love me with
all that you see,
You are my friend, pure as gold.
I need to save my paint brush,
though, And hold it in my hand,
I want to keep it handy
In case someone doesn’t understand.
So please protect me, my dear friend
And thanks for loving me true,
But please let me keep
my paint brush with me
Until I love me, too.

Written by ©Bettie B. Youngs

Whats the truth about you? I mean from what you wrote you just lied about your life by making him believe it was awesome. He shouldnt hate you for that…

That is my favorite poem because i feel the same way. I figured I would share it with you because you seem to relate.

Wow nice poem btw

thanks :)

I would have to agree with acousticlove up top. You can only say you are sorry, if he doesn’t accept it, then sadly he prolly doesn’t love you the same you love him. Haha, i have a girl i feel i couldn’t live without. I’m in the same bucket ;P hang in there.

I believe that I can relate just the same. But please, tell us what you said, and where you met this guy as it might help us advise you better.

Im glad they put your mom in jail because many parents go unpunished for abusing their chidren. In your situation i dont think it was bad for you to make up a story about your life. I wouldve probably done the same or not said anything at all. If he love you he should understand why you didnt tell him the truth. People just dont go around telling people their business esp if they like them and dont want them to like the worst of the worst. You probably thought he wouldnt accept you for who you were because of your family. And that is normal for you to do trust me. Not everyone and be open about these things.

Try talking to him and making him understand you. He should be there for you at such hards times because this is time you need to know that someone cares

*to think the worst of the worst

I agree with essence, the worst of times bring out the best in people who care for each other.

Didnt he see you after your surgery? Or did you have bandages on your eye? Either way he should accept you no matter what.

Ooohh so it was the burning that caused him to back away. Do you think you are ugly because of your burns? Where did she burn you? If you dont mind me asking…
He probably couldnt handle the stress because its hard to see someone you care about in so much pain. Idk i think you should work on you before wondering about someone else

Im sorry that happened to you. I didnt say he shouldve told you he hate you. If he said that then you need to move on because you dont need anymore negative things in your life, not right now at least. I was just saying he probably cant see someone he cares about in so much pain. I forgot you said he told you he hate you. I think you should just focus on healing and coming out of this a better person. I know it may hurt to let him go but it will hurt more if you try and try to get this man back. Its only going to cause you to suffer more and become more angry than you are already.

omg thats awful. look - pray pray pray. if he doesnt come back i am SUre there is someone else out there for you…but no more lies. the same thing happened to me (i was lied to about a lot of things) and it took me FOREver to get over it…it really damages trust and alienates…i am so so sorry this happened to you..mostly becaues you deserve a loving nurturing mother (not that i had one, but that is just AWWFUl)…and also a loving boyfriend….dont lose faith….i think its better to just move on and trust that there is someone good waiting for you who will want you and love you….

I completely empathize with you. I lead that same life, but those guys need to grow up and realize that we ALL have problems. By asking us not to, we might as well be stepford wives. Being yourself is much harder to explain,but happiness is key

beyonD belief wrote:
Paint Brush

I keep my paint brush with me
Wherever I may go,
In case I need to cover up
So the real me doesn’t show.
I’m so afraid to show you me,
Afraid of what you’ll do - that
You might laugh or say mean things.
I’m afraid I might lose you.

I’d like to remove all my paint coats
To show you the real, true me,
But I want you to try and understand,
I need you to accept what you see.
So if you’ll be patient and
close your eyes,
I’ll strip off all my coats real slow.
Please understand how much it hurts
To let the real me show.

Now my coats are all stripped off.
I feel naked, bare and cold,
And if you still love me with
all that you see,
You are my friend, pure as gold.
I need to save my paint brush,
though, And hold it in my hand,
I want to keep it handy
In case someone doesn’t understand.
So please protect me, my dear friend
And thanks for loving me true,
But please let me keep
my paint brush with me
Until I love me, too.

Written by ©Bettie B. Youngs

That’s a very nice poem! It says so much and it’s beautifully written.

Anyway, to mera, I’m very sorry to hear what happened to you and how you were treated. I’m sure you didn’t mean anything bad when you told those lies about yourself, family and friends. From what I’ve seen from your replies and stuff, your true self is good. It is definitely tough to get him to talk to you, is it possible for you to write a letter to pass it to him? Apologise to him, tell him that you still love him, about all the lies you told (tell him the truth), give reasons why you lied and you don’t mean to hurt him, ask him if it’s possible for him to give you another chance.

That’s my suggestion. I hope you’ll find a way. You deserve to be treated better. Good luck! *hugs*

That conversation you had with him should be enough to know that you need to move on. I know you care about him a lot but its for your own good. Everyone have that person they just dont want to get rid of but we all know we have to because they will only bring us down. You are a blessing because you survived. So be thankful that your life was spared to see another day. Embrace life for what it is and you will find someone who will love you dispite your past present or future. He will be beside you no matter what and if you do lie he will have the heart to forgive you and see the pain that you are in and look past all the lies. Because he loves you and wants you to be happy. He obviously didnt truly love you because he doesnt care about your happiness only the fact that you lied. What a waste. He served his purpose in your life now its time for you to move on.