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Don’t!

=[ You can get help from many places, not just here. Aren’t there phone lines in Canada you can ring? You really need to talk to someone now, get help and rest.

There will be people who you can talk to and who can help, I’m sure they’re not as far away as you think.

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you still here?

talk for a bit first

come on sweetheart

What the **** do you mean no one helps you amon!? How long did I spend talking to you before? We actually got somewhere, you were in a good place, the only reason you’re depressed again is because of what that girl said on your other post, forget her, you’re not listening to the right people.

help us out dance, can you share any ifo?

I didn’t actually read most of what his reasons and stuff were in his last post, they were too long =P I just kept talking to him, hes obviously insecure, I gathered that much, and I’d convinced him not to hurt himself for the next 48 hours, which I promised him I wouldn’t do either (like as in me hurt myself). After that we were just talking like normal and he was fine till some girl starting saying that suicide was selfish and stuff and he got defensive.

Amon, can you please tell me your age?

Im going to sit here and wait mate, I know I can help you

Sorry im late to reply but im really hoping you havent done anything ….If you dont feel anyone here can help you then phone a helpline or talk to a realtive or friend if you can or maybe give us another go…..suicide will definatly NOT help you or anyone else….Write down whats wrong and maybe make a change to your life….you know like move home, get a new job or find a hobby that keeps you concentrated..it would give you something to focus on and maybe even a reason to live. Just remeber if people on here have tried to help, its a bit insulting to say they havent…its diffcult to know how to help someone else or we can do is try.

No no no no no, please, don’t so this. Please, please, please. If you die, how will that change anything? If you live, you can make the world a better place and atone for your sins.

Please, please. At least wait until you’ve TRIED atoning for your sins before you die.

Or just don’t die at all?

I could have told you that, if you had asked.

Get yourself to a hospital. You’re going to need a stomach pump. Most likely they’ll make you drink charcoal so you’ll spit up.

Please don’t try again. Consider the fact you lived a sign you should stick around.

No, no. Come on. This is bad. Don’t do this. I know it’s supposed to be try try again but I don’t think they meant it like this.

Even people set up for execution understand when God is telling you who deserves to live. A person who survives the electric chair twice gets a full presidential pardon.

Stay with us.

No, please stop hurting yourself.

Don’t do this. There is no “I should suffer.” There is only “I should overcome.”

Your suffering is that you must live with your sins.

Thusly, you’ve already been forgiven.

It’s better than dying, but hurting yourself is no good either.

Better then dying?

Don’t think like that, in terms of less or more. It’s too fragile.

Dying can represent the ending of your sins or the start of new suffering.

Living can represent the start of new sins and the end of old suffering.

Depends on what you believe.

Goood. See? You can live without sin. you just proposed it yourself.

And by trying to live without sin you are A. Living (always a good thing) and B. Making up for past mistakes.

There you go you solved your own problem I knew I had faith in you.

Some people consider suicide a sin.
Amon, you have got to give life another chance.

Please do. We like having you around.

‘Sall good. I rather find I like you. You’re smart and awfully clever. And you’re good at helping people, but I don’t know if you realize that.

Stick around, ‘k?

Yep. And that why we’re here. To hold your hand as you go along. Most of us have transgressed through what you’re going through now, so we sympathize.

No matter what, I’ll stick by you, ok? Only a pack of rabid hyenas could fend me off.

N-o-p-e.

Because if that’s pitiful, my parents are so done for. Lol.

Nothing is bad in moderation. (No I’m not saying go and get hammered, amonkhan. that would be bad.) and your body probably recognizes that drinking calms you down and thusly craves it.

Just take a deep breath. go buy like a huge pack of skittles instead and binge. Sweet stuff has no ill effects other then like seven million calories. I prefer chocolate icing, myself. I find I’m rather addicted.

It’s ok. Keep telling yourself that.

Amonkhan…how are you doing today? You still around? Please tell me you’re doing better!

OK NO.

Sorry I hate it when people say “I’m fat.” I’m a dancer and thusly constantly surrounded by people who say “I’m fat” while looking like a malnourished twig.

You’re probably normal body weight, I bet. How old are you, how tall are you, and how much do you weigh? If you want I can tell you just how healthy you are.

The drinking thing: it’s good you understand that it’s bad. It’s better then being ok with it. It’s the first step forward. Drink something else like coke zero- no calories. Sometimes it’s just the action of drinking that helps.

And eat. Eating goood. Especially after you’ve thrown up blood. your stomach needs to heal. Please eat, seriously, before you faint of starvation.

And by the way, I would like to say that I’m not comfortable with my weight either. Supposedly I’m not fat either. so there. We’ll be fat-but-not-fat buddies.

But you’re not fat.

You’re actually right in the average.

Umm *pulls up facts* Height 6′1″ - Healthy Weight Based on Height is in Between 152 pounds and 192 pounds.

So you’re golden, I think.

And because you know you might have a drinking problem, you’ve taken the first step into /not/ having a problem.

And eating is good. Eating makes your tummy happy.

That’s good. Try eating things that make you happy. Like chocolate chips with whipped cream in a smiley face. I was denied eating that this morning, so you can do it for me.

(Lol that was the most depressing part of my day. Lack of chocolate chip pancakes.)

Glad to see your suicide attempt didn’t work Amon…I also can’t help but say I told you so about the pills making you violently ill. I’ve been reading your other responses and you sound like a friend of mine, he can’t eat either, hes not fat or anything, and hes losing weight really quickly cos he keeps throwing up everything and hes just told me he was coughing up blood this morning. I’m not sure what to do, what are you trying? And what’s some advice that other people haver given you?

Keep food in your room, I have a draw full of food for when I’m stoned and can’t be bothered walking to the kitchen =D

Yeah I tried telling him that. He usually takes food up to his room before he gets stoned so he doesn’t have to walk down to the kitchen.

Why do you think eating is good- how do I convince him that it is?

Eating IS good. Eating is very very good. Lol.

Amonkhan, my friend does what you do. She just…doesn’t eat. It’s not like she’s adverse to it or anything, she just doesn’t like to. So instead she drinks a lot of protein shakes and stuff so she doesn’t die an early vitamin-less death.

Dance, try convincing him by eating yourself (lol that came out weird but I don’t know how else to phrase it). When you’re around him, scrounge for chips, then offer him some. Tell him you don’t want anymore. Do things like that.

Hes a boy so naturally he eats more than me anyway, when we’re together he does eat. Lol he keeps feeding me when I tell him I don’t want anymore chips or something, its annoying but cute. The tricky thing is trying to get him to eat breakfast and lunch, and to not throw up his dinner.

Amon are you still there?

Aww, thats so sweet that he feeds you. but its probably not a good thing that he throws up what he eats. Has he talked to a doctor?

C’mon, amon. I know you have skillz of the helping sort.

Yeah, hes had blood tests done which say hes fine.

Its not that he doesn’t want to eat, he just feels sick when he does which discourages him from eating because he doesn’t want to get sick…

I see. Actually I think I’ve had that problem. I ate anyway and it kind of made me miserable. I had no idea what was wrong with me.

I DID get over though, even though I’ve had lapses. Tell him he’ll make it out.

and lol amon I told you you had helping skillz.

Oh noes! Indigo must retire to bed now, it’s 11:11 pm where I am. Good luck to both of you, see you in…awhile, since tomorrow I have school. *moans* Aaand I didn’t do my homework so it should be FUN.

See you later, ‘k?

Good night Indigo, Sweet dreams =D

Lol, thanks.

Its interesting how this was put under “dead help”, they should be more positive and call it “life help”.

DEAD sounds more depressing.

You’re not a loser. How am I so lucky?

You don’t know anything about me, how can you say I’m a cool person?
You’re not wasting my time, I like talking to you.
I think you should stop putting so much effort into killing yourself and put that effort into living instead.

Aargh hurry up mods!

I’m super curious about what you wrote but its still awaiting approval…

dancefloordestroyer wrote:
You don’t know anything about me, how can you say I’m a cool person? You’re not wasting my time, I like talking to you. I think you should stop putting so much effort into killing yourself and put that effort into living instead.

After I said that…

You’re cool too, I wish I could be as poetic as you

You’re not allowed to put yourself down anymore. If you do I’m ignoring the post…

What are you up to?

That just makes me more curious… tell me!

I hope you aren’t. That would be extremely disappointing.

Do you go to school?

Can you do me a favour?

Go see one of your school councellors. They can help you, I know they seem lame but even if they can’t do anything themselves they can get you more help.

What about your gp?

Your doctor

Like who do you go to see for colds and flus and things like that?

OK, well go find one!

I have to go do some study! I’ll check back later I promise =D

ok you want help, well you came to the right place, we are all here for you.

lol charm do you know that from experiance? I had to ask

Lol Indigo is baaaack. *screams erupt everywhere.*

What’s up, Amon? You’re still with me, right? RIGHT!!??!

Amon, I have read all the posts on this thread and everybody that has posted has your well-being on their mind. I’m here for the same reason. I’ve looked at your profile, and I think you’re a cool guy. Feel free to talk to me any time you want, about anything, and I’ll help you out to the best of my abilities. I’ll be your friend. :]

i currently dont have your well being on my mind. the truth is, a lot of people dont get help, cause there isnt really enough true people that help to go around… despite many good intentions. the only way that you can really get help is just to help others.

because when you help others, you make friends, and friends (sometimes even “online friends”) are what will in turn help you the most.

If you feel that drinking is a prolem then you should look in a phone book or look up on the internet about A.A. (acholics anynomus)Its where you go to these meetings and people talk about how doing drugs and achol hurt them and things that they did to hurt other people and them selves. They do book talks (the 12 steps and other books on A.A.)and they take little steps toward being non iterested in achol. And if you feel weird about going because of you age it dosent matter all ages are perfecty fine to go. You go certian times a week and it really helps people get sober. I know because my mom is in it and she has been doing great! I hope i helped ya,
Cass

people have tried, repeatedly to help you.
there is much advice in this post,
and all these also.
http://help.com/post/170577-im-going-…
http://help.com/post/170650-from-the-…
http://help.com/post/170225-as-some-p…

you will not take the advice or help offered. dont say were not trying, its you who is making post after post threatening suicide, then never taking the help and advice offered.

Actually, I think Amon was ok, if you go back and read it, courtybubble, but thanks for the advice.

Lol, Amon, we’ve made it into the popular post thing.

mmm. seems to be a pattern.

what sort of pattern?

I wish we could all come visit!! We’d have so much fun!
The other place I’ve ever found good friends is at church. I don’t know what other people do!

Indigo_Rain wrote:
what sort of pattern?

makes a post, threatens suicide, gets some attention, feels better, doesnt take any of the advice given, makes another post. and so on and so forth.

Lol I’d visit Amon.

Courtybubble, that’s a little bit mean…sometimes its hard to get over depression. And the distance between the posts gets longer and longer and he gets better and better, yeah?

We ALL should have like a huge “Help” bash in some random location like antartica. It’d be amazing ’cause then it’d be like “No way, Indigo, you ARE short!”

no, its not mean, its an observation, and confirmed by people who have been trying to help.
im well aware of how bad depression can get, i suffer from it badly myself.
this is not just depression though, this is trying to get attention and make someone else solve his problems when all he needs to do is take some of the mammoth amounts of advice already offered.

ps, if we choose antarctica y’all can stay at mine if you have long layovers, im right on the way ;)

*shrugs.* I guess we all need different things.

And Lol, I’ll hold you to that since I’m nowhere near antarctica.

I’m up for Antarctica! And we already know Adam wants to go there!

Lol *starts packing*. Now, where did I put my super-heavy parka? oh that’s right, I don’t have one.

Lol, I’ll just have to use love to keep me warm.

Just don’t give up hope, man.

It’s totally a girly book, but one of my faves is called The Blue Castle. It takes place in about the 1920’s? and it’s about a girl whose family hates her and she has no friends and she just is unloved by the world. Then one day she finds out she’s dying and decides to change her life and LIVE while she can and she makes drastic changes and ends up so happy! It really encourages me. I don’t expect you to read it but if you want to….The Blue Castle by L.M. Montgomery.

Dooon’t say that Amon, come on. We’ve been over this. Dying est baaad.

I feel like a sheep. Baaa.d. Lol finals are making me loopy.

You’re doing great, Amon, stick on the happy side.

Lol, The Shining. if you haven’t read it, you’re not missing anything. My favorite part is when the shrubbery comes alive and eats a little kid. I laughed but then realized it was supposed to be scary.

But see, something to look forwards to, Amon. And btw, you’ve been eating, right?

It’s not that long. I just think it’s a really sweet story and makes you realize YOU CAN DO ANYTHING.

Whales!

Did you listen to the song I sent you? Simon?

Lol I love whales.

Read The Phantom TollBooth. Or Alice in Wonderland, the actual author’s one, not Disney’s.

I liked them as a kid and I like them now. (Lol, I know, I’m still a kid, but whatever.)

C’mon…you won’t give Stephenie Meyer another try??

Thaaat’s all really the books I can recall off the top of my head. *wide eyes*. Lol, shakespear, maybe?

Lol I have 1 bookshelf. and then walls. Walls with books balanced so precariously that I’m always certain that one of these day’s I’ll be squashed by a book-alanche.

Lleeets seee do you like books about animals? any favorite genre?

My favorite love story (besides Twilight) is A Walk To Remember by Nicholas Sparks. It’s way better than the movie!!

steff wrote:
My favorite love story (besides Twilight) is A Walk To Remember by Nicholas Sparks. It’s way better than the movie!!

I have never seen the movie for A Walk to Remember, but the book is fantastic! ♥

The Sight and Firebringer by David clemet-davies. Lol one’s about a wolf and the other’s about a deer. both have to do with fate and whatnot and are strangley addicting and alot more well written then most animal-main-character stories.

What about the Chronicals of Narnia? Great fantasy books!

I love those books! And the movies! :D

Oooh. making this hard are you.
Lol.
Harry potter.

I just read The Host by Stephenie Meyer…it’s soooo weird but very thought provoking and it makes you examine who you are and question life and existance. I think you would really appreciate it.

I am so jealous of you how did you get that book *glare*

I wannnt it soo bad, but its all like “lol i sold out, you lose.”

steff wrote:
I just read The Host by Stephenie Meyer…it’s soooo weird but very thought provoking and it makes you examine who you are and question life and existance. I think you would really appreciate it.

hey, I’m on Chapter 13 of The Host!!
:D

Lol *offers empty soap bottle* stay chill, amon. what happened?

ew. I hate school people. They’re mean. And cynical. And annoying.

Lol that was the fastest shower i ever took it was 20 minutes long.

Indigo_Rain wrote:
ew. I hate school people. They’re mean. And cynical. And annoying.

Lol that was the fastest shower i ever took it was 20 minutes long.

I agree about school people. :(

Amon? you still there? Or am i talking to myself (and yet i’m perfectly fine with the idea of talking to myself lol)

oh no that stinks. but then I’m a girl so there’s like a time rift or something that makes it run longer.

why only 2 minutes?

Lol I love dancing. but for some reason i FAIL, like, epically, at ddr.

Ohmy its thundering. scaaary i’ll get zapped oh weellls.

My brother’s friend is like insane at ddr. maybe i fail since we don’t have one and i only play when he brings it over?

Lol or maybe i just fail. here, i’ll dance mentally with you *does some crazy footwork*

*falls and shanks self on some random object*

lol story of my LIFE

I don’t know what we’re talking about anymore but I noticed some mentioning of books: If anyone hasn’t said it already read the Catcher in the Rye, and Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close. I’m not a fan of reading but those two books are bloody awesome.

…what, ate a skittle? I LUV skittles. I’m like addicted or something.

What then? Please say something benign like m&ms, lol.

Indigo_Rain wrote:
…what, ate a skittle? I LUV skittles. I’m like addicted or something.

Skittles are the best thing EVER! haha.

I know! Right!

Btw, my computer HATES this post. it’s like “gasp something that takes effort to load” *scream die*

YES IT DOES

since i said so. *hands on hips* lol i is my mom

dancefloordestroyer wrote:
I don’t know what we’re talking about anymore but I noticed some mentioning of books: If anyone hasn’t said it already read the Catcher in the Rye, and Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close. I’m not a fan of reading but those two books are bloody awesome.

Yeah, I’ve actually thought that Amon could be very Holden Caulfield-esque!

You should move to the Moors!! (like in The Secret Garden) LOL…all my dreams are literary!

If you haven’t read it…you should!! You could be just like Dickon!!

It’s also a story of a girl who nobody loves but she learns to love life!!

of course they are! a hobbit hole in the Moors…

hmmm, am I being pushy again? lol

Aw man. Just trying to live vicariously!