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What makes a friend..
(sorry if this seems long, im not used to this kind of thing!)
Its weird, i came across the site many months ago after searching online on certain subjects and now ive come back again. The only difference is that instead of lurking around im actually going to say something and see if i dont run away again.

My question is really about whether im being a horrible friend. This impossible for me to talk to them about, mainly because i feel that if i did it, it would just seem like it was a attetion seeking thing and they would say i was ok anyway.

Out of all my friends i would only class one as a close friend (they will always listen to me and be there for me, so i feel like i could do the same with them). However, i struggle to see other friends as my close friends..they would class me as one and i tried to talk before about how i dont seem to understand concepts such as friendships and even relationships sometimes (such as, i think i feel like i need to work to make the other person happy, when shouldent you just be yourself and help each other out etc?). Ive stopped talking to quite a few people who i think valued me a load more then i did with them, espically when they seem to have problems, as if im scared and run away.

Is this a thing people have experienced before? Im trying to find out whether its just part of my personality, that im a horrible person by nature who takes and doesent give, or is it somthing like im just too scarred to open up to people?

Im sorry if no of this really makes sense, there were so many different things going though my head i just didnt know what exactly to say..

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