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I am 22 years old and very depressed, i have been signed

off work for the past 2 months because of my depression and was suspossed to start back today but i cant, i woke up at 5 and the closer and closer it got going to work the more and more panicked i got, and i havent gone in.
I hate me, and my life! Everything i have done in my life i wish to change, i do not feel in control, i feel like everything is happening around me and i cannot do anything about it untill my life starts again.
I do not know what career i want. I have no friends and not enough confidence to make any friends. I am angry all the time but i cannot comfront people i take everything out on my boyfriend (Who is very supportive and caring), i shout at my boyfriend all the time and want him out of my life even though i know how much i love him and i dont want to be without him. I am always tired and sleep loads. I have no confidence, so sepned all my time in my flat, i have to talk myself into leaving the falt even just to go to the shop (Across the road from me) I have had depression for at least 5 years, i hvae taken an overdose before and all i want to do at the moment is take loads of tablets and slice my wrists so the pain can go away, i wont hurt me or anyone else anymore, but i cant bring myself to do it because of my pets. i have been to the doctors and they just put me on depression tablets, which make me even more sleepy. i just want to make it all go away, i want to be confident, and happy and live the life i dream of, i dont know where to start, or what to do, where to get help from.

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An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (55 minutes after post)

Hi , im new to this so bare with me.
About 2yrs ago i was signed off with depression and was off work for nearly a year. I not only was prscribed drugs but my Dr sent me to see a Cognitive Behavioural Psychotherapist. Between the 2 of them they really helped me understand what the hell was going with my life. I was 38 at the time and i to couldnt get up and go to work , in fact i would walk out claiming to be sick just to get away.

Tablets wont always help you on there own so please try to see someone.

I suffered from the same things as u are and also took these out on my wife , not in any physicial sense but psychologically.

Try to go to the shop even if u dont want to buy anything , i know that may sound odd but its the doing thats important.

Go back to the Dr and get signed off , u need more time and get him or her to refer you , i know the idea of seeing someone and telling a stranger all yr probs seems weird but it does help and usually there no couch involved lol.

U really need more time.

Hope this helps.

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muffin40 offline Verified User (6 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (58 minutes after post)

Did i really just say talking to a stranger may seem weird! Haha what an idiot lol.

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ASGii199 offline Verified User (5 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (9 hours, 10 minutes after post)

You are aware and realize that something isn’t right and that means that you do have some control over your life. You are frustrated because you can’t seem to make the changes that you want and you don’t seem to want to change or take control, after all, that would be scary if you really controlled your life. I know about pain that makes you want to end it, but truly god doesn’t want you to end it. The problem is, god won’t make the changes for you either. That is why you are here, on this planet, at this time, on this earth. This is the time for YOU to learn how to control your life and make the changes you wish so you can be happier and live a better and truly satisfying and wonderful life. Start slowly, bit by bit. First thing is to understand that you can’t do it all by yourself. You don’t have the tools or the knowledge to suddenly make the changes so yes, you should ask for professional help. It will feel really good to know that you are helping yourself and asking for help from someone who has helped others and can probably help you to help yourself.

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