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Hi Nothing but frustration ,bad luck and depression in my life.

I had a heart attack a little over 2 years ago and my life has spiraled down hill ever since. I have been trying to find employment and because of all the meds I am on , not much luck . I am 56, should be enjoying life, but instead , i am beginning to despise it. Some times I wish the heart attack was fatal to end this nightmare. I have been trying take a positive attitude , but its very hard when you see everything you own and worked so hard for the past 30 years disappear. I have lost a major asset in the past 6 months , a 40 acre tree farm which was my retirement land that I worked so hard on for over 11 years only to lose it to very unsympathetic lender, that really wanted the prime property for themselves. this was due to lack of income to pay for it . I made a very bad business judgement and lost all my savings and my farm in the process . Since then nothing but more bad luck. I am trying to save my home , had to refi to pay off POS of farm which was scammed from me by private lender and broker . Couldn’t afford to take legal action at the moment , but pending . Have major project in the works , but received a bogus check from investor that also took its toll on my finances . My gas was shut off , my phone service very soon as well as hydro , I just got behind on one mortgage payment , but late fees and NSF fees will do me in . My wife for 35 yrs has been working too many hours , but can’t make enough to make ends meet . This has created major personal problems for us both . I can’t blame her at all and don’t know why she is still keeping me around Everything I do or attempt seems to fail in a major way.MY home is in major need of repaair . My torn pool liner needs to be replaced or pool filled in, couldn’t afford chemicals or hydro anyways. My leased car should be painted lemon yellow , has cost me major repairs , but now can’t drive , cant afford insurance.lost job opportunity last year because of car break down. Have tried a number of computer jobs , gotten nowhere . Need dental work just lost a lowrer tooth , very noticeable . Look like a Jerry Springer contestant. Now The side effects of my meds . very fatigued, achy, all the time. Have applied for Taxi driving Job , went for license , need letter of employment fee $100 and training now I have faith and have constantly preyed and seem like no one is listening. I have also recently lost good friends ,both human and my long time compaion , my dog who needed vet assistance but could not afford , very heartbreaking to me, it hurts very much . All these years we have done nothing but good for people , always helping out and now Ican’t even help my own situation . I have just scaped the surface of my dilema and almost in tears writing this , But I truly feel I have had enough and can’t take anymore that life has handed me . It des me good to get it off my chest and cry out. Life has so much to offer , but i am missing the ride.

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