Ok, this is one possible interpretation of your story.
Basically, I had the same issue as you. Envy girls for their options in fashion and general appearance. But I went on a search…
It is not true that women have more choice on how to dress, for men it is only harder to find (and even harder to find good stuff). But it is out there. And I wear it.
I have skirts, I have makeup, I have a blowdryer. I am male and I feel male.
Makeup and ‘typical female fashion’ can be worn in a very masculin way.
The issue is that people don’t generally accept it, or find it difficult and with that despise it. But that does not mean it is wrong. That does not mean you shuldn’t do it. It does take some courage though.
Have a look here for an example. I don’t see anything feminin about it.
http://www.menintime.de/Web_2006/imag…
There are even heels designed especially for men. Jean Paul Gaultier has a make-up line especially for men (and he is not the only one). It really is out there.
You should remember though that in a work or school environment it is not always accepted and could cause you trouble. I know where I can wear what. I am walking on the borders but do so very gently after I earned some respect allready. Don’t push it, in the end that is for your own good. Sad, but trust me. I learned it the hard way.
If I am wrong here and that is really the desire of looking female while remaining male we might come to cross-dressing. This however comes in many shapes and sizes. If you want to know more about it, we need more info from you.
Please be careful with searching info online. A lot on this is poor info or promotion for their own agenda. There is a wide variety in the whole gender and appearance discussion. And it is one to be treated with respect and sincerity. It is a sensitive issue which is highly polarised from both sides.
About bisexual feelings. You don’t state anything about attraction towards girls and/or boys, so I can’t give any answer on that.
What I can say though is that the way we choose to look has nothing to do with our sexuality. It are two different matters.