I’m Really Confused…
Tonight I feel really weird, and I don’t know why. Okay, my parents and my bro were watching a movie and I didn’t really want to so I was in my room and then Camp Rock came on (YAY!) so of course I watched that haha! Well, I loved the movie, and then after it ended, my mom came in and made sure i was alright, then she went to bed, then my brother came in and made sure i was alright, and then he left and my dad came in and made sure i was alright. I didnt really know why they would check on me just because i didnt want to watch a movie, but, yeah :P then around…11:30 or so, im still up, listening to music, and I start feeling alone and weird and I feel like i need someone to talk to but i dont know what to talk about. I know there is a lot going on like: I might switch schools and I REALLY dont want to, but at the same time I kinda do! And i really dont wanna leave the school ive been going to for the last 6 years because i would miss ALL my friends AND because this year, I liked someone and i have never felt this way about anyone else and he told me he likes me too soo… dont really want to leave that behind ;), and I’m really confused about that and dont know which decision to make… and I dont know what just happened but im sitting in bed on my laptop and I just start feeling lonley and scared and like i need someone there with me and it just came out of nowhere and I dont know why! So, I tried getting it off my mind and I started looking up songs on iTunes to buy, and then it started working and i was singing along to Jonas Brothers songs (haha ;D) and then i was sorta finished with that because i looked up every song i would wanna buy from a couple of different artists, and then i just sorta got bored and started feeling lonley and all those things AGAIN! [I sorta feel like talking to 1 of the jonas brothers actually, knowing how comfortable and happy they would make me lol] But I hate this feeling and i have no idea why i just started feeling it and I am just SO confused right now!!! :( I just got up and was about to walk out of my room to my livingroom so i could be around someone and talk, but then i just stood looking at myself in the mirror and started crying and I HAVE NO IDEA WHY!!! Then i realized everyone is asleep so i sat back down, and then started writting this! But I feel so lonley, and afraid, and like i need someone here with me to talk to!
Please help? :(
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