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Oh man, more drama…

So I tell better stories when I have a character list.

Me = me
Lysander = my crush
Hermia = my close girl friend, and also Lysander’s best friend. She likes Lysander too.

So school’s over, and summer’s here. And since March, I have had a very big crush on Lysander. At first, he didn’t know about it, and I tried subtly flirting. Eventually, towards the end of the school year, we had talks, and confessions. I found out that he used to like me too (I think he still does) and at one point, he was going to ask me to be his girlfriend, but some things got in the way, and we kinda just drifted apart. But then we drifted back together, and now we’re close friends.

But then, we had a school dance towards the end of the year, and Hermia and Lysander went together as friends (or so I thought). Lysander thought of it as friends, but Hermia thought of it as more. I will admit that I was jealous, but I got over it. The next day though, Hermia confesses that she likes Lysander as more than a friend… and she told him.

The day after Hermia told Lysander, Lysander and I hung out, and we talked it out. He admitted of having a small “thing” for Hermia, but he never really thought of liking her more than a friend. And I confessed, and actually said the words, “I like you,” to Lysander. That’s also when he confessed to me that he used to like me (I’m not sure he still does, but I think so). But Lysander doesn’t want to hurt Hermia’s feelings because they’re best friends. But he also said he didn’t want to hurt either of us. Although he did promise me, “Okay, whatever happens, in the end, I still wanna be friends with Hermia, and I still wanna be friends with you.”

The night before the last day of school, I was talking to Hermia. And she admitted of being jealous of me. Her reason was because I didn’t have to worry about losing my best friend, and also, it’s hard to keep feelings for “best friend” and “crush” separate. And I admitted of being jealous of her because, like she said, she’s his best friend, and they do things that only best friends do, and I’m jealous of the connection they have. I said, “To him, I’m probably just some other girl.” And then, Hermia surprised me by saying, “No, not really.” I had planned on asking her about that, but I didn’t get to it. But Hermia did tell me that Lysander likes me more than her.

But after graduation a few days ago, there was a party at one of my friend’s houses, and I think Lysander and Hermia were there (I wasn’t there because I had to go on a trip). And they kinda… kissed. I haven’t talked to Lysander since and I’m talking to Hermia right now. She keeps apologizing and asking if I’m okay with it, and I keep saying I’m fine.

In a way, I’m fine because you can’t hide your feelings, and Hermia can’t hide hers either, so I’m fine with that. But at the same time, I’m not okay, because I like Lysander… A LOT… a lot, and even though we weren’t “together” it still hurt. I felt like I was kinda… betrayed (not really, but yeah). And I think that was Lysander’s first kiss… I wasn’t sure… but yeah…

And my other friend, (who’s not involved in this, but is a close friend of mine and Hermia’s) says that Lysander is just confused right now.

I really hope that made sense, because I really need someone to tell me what to do right now. I’m not sure what to do with either Lysander or Hermia.

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