Another bad day.
jeez i dont know whats wrong with me. i just go through these days and i just randomly feel like a peice of ****. small things affect me sometimes.. but i really dont know what it is today. just one of those days i feel like giving up ya know? (and not in a suicidal way). im just sick of feeling like this all the time and i dont know how im ever gonna have a good life. i try to believe i will but im starting to think im wrong.. ive tried everything.
im only 15 but it seems like im missing out on SO much and almost totally skipping out ym teenage years. this sucks.
sorry. just needed to let that all out =S
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would you mind if I talk with references to my faith? (I ask because I like this site, and don’t wanna get banned…)
ahh. this sounds like me at your age! so hear me out. i know what you mean. you see everyone going out and having fun, always busy and doing all these fun things but you just seem to float by without anything exciting or good coming your way. you have to take the initiative. when i lost my friend mike, i started “living for the day”. i go out and do as i please. i’ve never been happier. i still have my share of bad days but being a free spirit and doing things in the moment is such a thrill. be safe about it of course, but make a plan and be spontaneous. you can start right now actually. make a list of all the things you want to do- big and small. talk to your friends and start planning some things like road trips, picture taking escapades … there’s so many ideas out there.
also look to the little things in life that will cheer any day up (:
ah, thank you.
Well, how is your relationship with Christ?
optimismiles- i know! i hate it! but the thing is i have high anxiety so its really hard for me to do a lot of stuff… and i live quite a ways away from all my friends and since i do distance ed i dont really meet anyone.. i just feel so stuck right now…. i try so hard to push myself but sometimes i just cant =S thanks though!!! its nice to know im not alone!
jabbox- well its pretty good i guess!
define pretty good, how often do you talk with him? (I’m not trying to be holier than thou, I mess up and forget about him at times as well.)
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well. i dunno. i kinda believe off an on. im not a really religious person but i do pray sometimes. but things just keep getting worse and worse and for a while i just gave up.. im starting to believe in him a bit more but its just so hard. i try to pray as much as i can now though
Hi hun,I’m concerned about the anxiety attacks.I know what its like with and how good it can feel without them.When you have one do you try and remember what you were doing or thinking of at the time?If its repetitive thoughts,I may be able to help
no its not repetetive thoughts.. thats my problem =(
ive been on 2 different meds and seem sooo many doctors/physchiatrists but none of them seem to help me at all and no one can figure it out. i just feel like im stuck in a hole and no matter how hard i try to get out, i keep falling and i dont know what to do anymore…
well, I should ask this, first.
Have you ever actually asked him to be your savior? (just asking so we’re on the same page)
but see the thing is i try. i try SO hard and i do soo good for a while and then i fall back a bit and get so discouraged and dont know how to stop that…any ideas? =S
life is all ups and downs, so look at your expectations while keeping that in mind. you never truely reach a point where everything is going well. right now all you can do is think and look into what you want in life, then do everything you can to reach those goals. if you’re nervous about going out and doing something you were invited to, or wanted to do, make yourself do it. no matter how hard. i used to get soo nervous to go out, i’d make excuses not to. finally, i got sick of missing out and made myself go, literally made myself get ready and drag myself out of the door.
i’m so happy i did.
keep that in mind.
i kept the “i’ve got nothing to lose” attitude, which helps tons.
We can’t stop it.we need to let it take its course,not get over but get through .
aww thats so great that you got yourself to do that!
i try to do that. like so hard but i just freak myself out.. just thinking the “what if” and i know that’s just about the worst thing ican do but i don’t know how to stop. I just want to be prepared in case anything DOES happen but then i make them happen i guess… i dunno how to explain it. but ill try hard.
thanks guysss
I feel you.
I don’t feel fit to give you advice on the subject though because I gave up and did something really risky the other night. But I’m sure that it can be better, and that you’ll get there.
~squidge~
ya, that ‘what if’.Thats on my negative word list.Its useless.We cant predict the future
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no i havnt… i just used to pray so much and then gave up..
well theres the problem.
Unless you are born again, your sin will separate you from God,
think about it tonight, this decision is extremely important. It may be the single most important decision you will ever make.
make your decision, but don’t take too long, theres no such thing as a guaranteed breath.
We cant be prepared for what ‘might’ happen.if we let our minds go there its just a waste of time and energy,going around in circles.Know what i mean?
We cant be prepared for’Life’ it has to be lived.one day at a time,its spontaneous .If it werent we would be bored and never have the good surprises come to us.
Wow, smart thing you just said Felicity.. I need to hear that. o.o
..Thankyou
welcome
Whats up with you fletcher?its been a while
Yeah it has.
Not too much, I slipped a little again and felt suicidal, I had a suicide attempt Monday night that just resulted in light-headedness, almost passing out, almost throwing up a couple of times, sleepiness and lethargy for the entire day afterwards. Just started on antidepressants for the first time since its an option I haven’t tried yet. I don’t know how I’m feeling today.. numb. =P
How are you?
Actually its rude to have a discussion over angel_devil09’s post so if you want to answer it should probably be via shouting. o.o
~gives angel_devil09 a squidge~
Haha, how did i know helpbot was gonna show up when you said “not in a suicidal way” ;P. Hmmm…i guess i don’t know what i can say since i don’t have anxiety, but i know what you mean about feeling like you are wasting your teenage years away. I’ve never had a girlfriend and practically still too scared to talk to girls :S lol. So i guess that’s how i feel like im missing out on my teenage years :) But i know you aren’t a shy person :D. You just need a hug
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darn, my heart didn’t turn out :( that stinks. It gets rid of extra spaces haha, i tried
lol fletcher its fine i dont care :P
kyle- i know! lmfao helpbot’s shows up at the weirdest times eh? yeaa thats kinda how im feeling.. i mean i live a bit away from all my friends so its hard to like hang out often and everything.. but ya ive never had a boyfriend so i know what you mean lol. hm… well no i wouldnt call myself shy lol. around certain people i dont know im kinda quiet but other than that.. never quiet. ever. lol i talk a lot :P
awww well i know you tred so thats all that counts ;) haha thanks!
felicity- i kinda believe in god. but not like fully. i dunno its weird. like im definetely not a devoted christian but i still believe a bit.. i dont think i do enough to pray anymore though.. but thanks! =D
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…\/… there we go, i hope that one turned out for ya :D. cause lets face it, i’d do about anything for you lol. Haha, yeah i’m shy most of the time, but put me around my best bud (who’s hardly a friend anymore) and i’ll talk about anything. Hmmm…i think i’m gonna go place a post. Brb *zoom
awww haha still didnt quite work :P but oh well i know what its supposed to be ;)
youd do anything for me? :O thats so sweet! =D hahaha id do anything for you too!! :P hahaa and i like shy guys. most of the othre guys i know are waaaaaay to full of themselves :P haha its so annoying.
Haha, sounds like you need to spend a good old day at the dietz house in lincoln near where i live. I’m so used to going up and playing on the drums, and the employees are so used to seeing me around 12:30 on every saturday, they always great me when i walk in. It’s a very awesome place, and all the people are friendly ;D.
Yay!, she likes shy me :D
that sounds so awesome! dammn i wish i lived there! haha
ya! well shy guys are always better ;)
You sound just like me, which makes me sad because i know how bad it su*ks to want to be happy just for one day and not have a worry at all. The little things make me upset too. My peers dont understand because they can just brush things off and forget about it. But im not capable of doing that. Its like my brain is trapped and i have no where to go to release all this tention within me.
I think if you continue to recite quotes you will be alright now. Once you graduate high school try to get into a university and work on yourself there, while continuing to read positive quotes (you will need them to keep you motivated because its hard believe me).
You will have more freedom to do as you please. There should be counselors on campus and advisors (thats if you live in the states), which i hope you do. Because there are a lot of people on college campuses who are more than willing to help people. We just have to take the initiative to seek their help, which i am doing right now :).
awwh yeah. its so hard sometimes you know? im getting a lot better now.. working through it easier but it still gets tough. but thatll always happen i guess.
thanks so much for your advice =) i really appreciate it!
no i dont live in the states though, i live in canada. why do you hope i live in the states? haha
Oh i was thinking you were probably either from the states or the UK and the UK doesnt provide students with advisors like they do here on campus.
I would laugh too if someone said i hoped you lived in the states lol. But thats the only reason why i said that. Im getting a lot better too :D and yes i know it gets tough. It seems like the more you try to improve yourself the more obstacles get thrown at you. I dont know if that is fate testing you or making you into a stronger person. But i do know it su*ks whenever something test me.
oh lol okay that makes sense then. i just got confused haha!
im glad youre getting a lot better :) do you have anxiety too? or stress, depression etc? exactly! yeah! you know.. as much as i hate having anxiety and depression and everything else i dont regret it at all cause i know in the long run it’ll make me a much stronger person. i feel like i know a lot more about life than any of my friends do. i mean theyre all totally carefree. pretty much normal teens with all the partying and dirnking and stuff but i feel like i need to do something more with my life than that, even though im still in highschool. its weird lol.
No its not weird you know why because i was just like you and still am. In high school i didnt do what the regular teens did because i never cared for them. And now that i am in college im the same way. All they want to do is drink, smoke, and go to the club, oh and have s*x. Whenever i do go to the club i enjoy myself but its just not me… I felt like i was more mature than all my peers because they were carefree.
I really think i have depression im just not sure because i never seeked professional help for it. But if i could diagnose myself i would say i was clinically depressed
