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i really dont know whats exactly wrong.like ive just

been totally acting different lately and everyones noticed so i know its not just me.im sorry im probably gonna just rant through this .im way quiter then usual and just its like i dont react ,someone will tell me something and theyll be all eager and ill have an expressionless face !u c (im not being vain!)i love my personality and everyone i know does 2 and say its unique but its kinda like im lost,distant or something.theres been so much on my mind and its like my minds protecting me and not letting me really upset myself more.its not working and i feel more lost then ever !!aswell im more easily hurt and i find it hard to talk about problems like this for example ,iv been debating wether or not to write this 4 like a month and im not even sure what i want to write.im just not me.i feel im missing out but not sure what that is exactly.a big hurt 4 me is not being able to be with the girl iv loved since like last april which was as soon as my eyes looked deep into her green dreamy eyes!im fall more in love every day,i know im young but i dot think there should be a certain age before u can have that depth of ,love,trust ,care and stability with someone!the prob is shes not in my country now,i promise one day ill go to her and let her know everything and even if she turns me down ill be happy knowing she knows and that shes happy.
i think i need a proper relationship now but i feel like im betraying her even though she has no idea about anything! i just need someone right now and i dont think theres anyone that i cud trust here!any idea whats wrong with me ?alot of things have been goin on 4 ages to upset me and recently things to .i hav friends to talk to but i find it hard to be vulnerable and i dont tell my parents things because i dont want to hurt them or them to blame themselves,i love them to much to cauze them pain! im sorry this is an awkward post but if i knew exeactly what was going on i wouldnt have to seek advice here! : )
all help appreciated!

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An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (17 minutes after post)

im so scared and worried because im feeling things like i did when i went through like self muyilation stage from depression . im looking at a knife i used right now and it still has blood stains.i just need to cry and . . and i dunno!

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An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (31 minutes after post)

its just i thought i got past alot of this.what happened u,what wrong like y do u wanna cry?can i help?

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An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (41 minutes after post)

welcome .well i know alot of assholes if u wanna beat da shitt outta dem 4 me?:)

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An Unknown Location | 2 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 6 minutes after post)

wow, this is pretty serious, it has gotten to the point where you are cutting urself.

This is just a suggestion, and it is your choice whether u want to lisen to me or not, but if you dont want to hurt your parents you must take action now. The more you wait, the more problems will accumulate, and you will soon become suicidal if you havent already. If you ever do think about suicide, just remeber, that your parents,a dn all loved ones will be extremly hurt, and you wouldn`t be there to tell them it isnt your fault. Please get help. Although i do not know you, i still worry for you. I do not know your problems in particular, so i cannot give you detailed advice, but if things are this serious, you really should see a professional.

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An Unknown Location | 2 months ago (1 week after post)

Listen hun, I know you have strong feelings for someone, and I would be a complete hypocrite if I told you “there’s plenty of fish in the sea” and that whole shabang. But perhaps you just need some time to yourself, a day to get this girl out of your head. And even though you were never in a relationship with her, don’t rush into a relationship because in the end it would only be a rebound, and you could end up hurting someone else in the process. My advice is just to lay low. Talk to your friends, as hard as that may be to do. If they don’t know exactly what’s going on, then all their efforts to help you will be useless. I know how I would feel if I lost someone very dear to me, I have many a times, but the best thing that I’ve come up with is to just surround myself with friends, blare music, and just get whoever I lost out of my system. You also have to make sure you are happy with yourself. You say you have a great personality, but how do you feel about yourself as a whole? You won’t get to a happy place until you learn to completely love yourself. I’m still working on it, but I hope to be there one day soon. But everyday I learn to love myself a little bit more, and in turn I become that much happier.

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