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Not sure what your problem may be, but i am here to talk if you want.
Hmmm…. this would be the place that I know of…. why not give it a shot? :)
Sorry I don’t know of another place… maybe someone else does though!
So whats going on?
I guess you could say paranoia, but i was told that if you could say to yourself ‘i’m going mad’ then you wernt actually mad atall….
there just stuff that keeps bugging me, its really hard to explain, so many coincidences between things, so many things that make everything feel like its all planned and controlled…
are you having truble with friends and a boyfriend? I have a hug problem right now also. It seems that the people who i thought i mattered to are ******** on me.
sorry to hear that but no, its nothing like that atall, its all about my parents and my general life really….
well…. Tell me about it.
oh, jesus, i dont really know how to say it in a way that makes sense….
Talk to us, let it out, here’s as good a place as any.
please bare with me a minuet…
Paranoia and what else?
What stuff is specicfically bugging you?
We can try to help you as best we can without judging you with immature attitudes like other sites.
and if you did know how to say it in a way that made sense what might you be saying?
oh great, i thougt this would be easy to say, i cant actually belive how hard this is to write down, its not exactly serious or dangerous….
ok, so i’ll start with the fact that just before i was born my mum was hit by lighting. slightly odd, i survived, end off….
your probably thinking what the hell is this guy going to say next…
what are you going to say next?
Just say it dude
and if your tongue were to untangle how would you word it all?
one thing that i would advise you to do is to go to a dream expert. I know that sounds crazy but they could probably help you. if they have no down to earth explination about it, then go to a psycic. I know that sounds even crazier, but aybe your psycic, too, hee hee. I believe in all of that babble bull. I had a dream that i had broken my cheek bone, and the next day i got into a car accident……… and broke my cheek bone. Sometimes i think that something kind of gives us a heads up about what might be coming our way. Call me crazy, but if you do then you better call yourself crazy too hee hee.
so any way, whilst living with this phenomenon i noticed a certain somthing to do with numbers that surround me. this is where my ‘123 post’ comes in.
this number keeps coming back to me, there are loads of things about me that contain this number.
anyway, going back to the dreams, based on info from a woman west of the atlantic i took a dive into the bible to see what god had to say about stuff like this…
she told me to look at the book of Daniel, and to see what it said about his dreams and the like…
i was shocked to read that he had visions of the end of the world. i was kind of worried as i have had this recurring dream that seemed to depict an apocolyptic scene…
but what i also seem to notice is that there is the following pattern: A fictional event happens, such as a suicide on a tv drama, i then dream about it thinking the dream is an effect of the fictional event but then shorty afterwards a sucide occurs in a way more similar to my dream than the fictional event…
ahh, this is all too hard to type….
but yea, theres much more. i’ll give you an example… i can only explain it as if there are cameras watching my every move, its asif everybody who knows me knows everything there is to know about me…
the example, rather small scale, but i had hidden a stash of alcohol at the back of my wardrobe, nobody knew about it other than me…. so i go upstairs and minutes later my mum is there with this alcohol that i had hidden and she is pouring it down the sink and shouting at me! i mean HTF did she find it so quickly!?!
i have to apologise this all seems so rediculous and petite, and nne of it is probably making sense… its just so hard to explain….
for what reason did you stash alcohol at the back of your wardrobe?
thats not the point, it was for a party, i’m not a alcoholic if thats what your thinking lol…
no, its just an example of a time where sombody seemed to know somthing about me without actually learing of it, the best way i can describe it is as if there are cameras and microphones around me all the time, as if i am being spied on…
basically its as if as everything is a controlled test, everything is part of a system that has been planned, just that it seems to only be me that is the subject…
I am hearing someone who is struggling to understand what is going on for him. Synchronicity happening in many ways.
Having precognitive dreams and not being able to make sense of it all.
The number 123 appearing to have some significance
it just seems to ridicualous to be real, its like a TV drama where most of it is stuff that would never happen..
I know what you mean I have experienced feeling that I am being toyed with, as if people from above were using me to see how I would deal with different situations. And yes it does seem ridiculous but there is a lot of stuff we have no idea about and so I stay very open.
Well, it’s hard to say if you’re just being paranoid or you do perhaps have some psychic ability that is spooking you a bit right now. Still, with paranoia, once someone feels that way they tend to see things they expect to see…. sort of like you will find what you’re looking for because you’re expecting it to happen a certain way…therefore you notice things that fit the pattern you’re aiming to prove…
Did you ask your Mom how she knew about the alcohol is the closet???
how far apart?
no, see, thats where it hits a wall. she would never understand, and i would not want to tell her the things that all this involves….
well, its not tearing me that far apart just yet but i can see it leading to a worse state of mind, i dont want this to be like this, i didnt want all of these things to link together…
i’ll give you a link to a blog i did about 123…
ignore the stuff mentioning 6 and tweleve, i can rule that out completly, it was just a false alarm….
the best thing i can say is that rather than me search for all of these ‘coincidences’, i mind my own buisness to be then suddenly interupted by someone who in essance shoves another great ‘coincidence’ in front of me, completly against my will, as if i need to know about it, as if it has significance….
oh and in the blog, i covered up the part about me being bi, just incase anyone i know read it… i just said that it was someone i met on holiday. And yes, i know, i shouldnt try and hide things but its difficult atm…
If you can see it leading to a worse state of mind then it will. What sort of state of mind would you like it to lead to? Then focus on that and see what changes.
Clearly something of significance is attemtping to be acknowledged here. The universe has a way of shoving things in front of us until we get the message - so ask what is the message or the learning that is here for you.
and if all these things linked together then what?
i dunno! thats what the whole thing is about really, why? why is this like it is?
what i would want is some sort of conformation about whether all this is just my imagination or whether it is actually real, that there is somthing trying to happen. the worst outcome would be for me to find that there was nothing atall, then would feel so useless, i don’t know what i’d do… thats what intreagues me so much, the fact that if it were to arise that all this were just coincidence, i would feel like there was no point to doing anything…
It is more than coincidence - there is something trying to happen. It is called synchronicity.
I had forgotten but earlier in the day I had found myself picking a book out of my wardrobe bookshelf entitled ‘Let the numbers guide you’ The spiritual science of numerology by Shiv Chara Singh. This book has been there for quite a few years and this was the first time I had picked it up and read any of it.
There was a couple of pages I was guided to read about the numbers of my birth month, Jan, and the 8th month. I then did a process to clear some blocks I had become aware of that were stopping me from moving forward with a specific goal I have. After which I found myself on this website for the first time and having this conversation with you.
So what would it be like if you knew there is a point to doing anything?
So what goals and dreams do you have that maybe you have pushed away believing they were impossible for you?
Have you heard of the Mayan calendar? It talks about the end of the world in 2012. This could be taken literally or that there is an end to a certain way of life as we know it and a new one beginning. As the human race is evolving more and more I see it as the latter.
Everything is a matter of perception - eg a glass of water than has been filled to the half way mark. Do you see it as half empty or half full?
firstly, the glass thing depends on whether it is begin filled or emptied, if its beeing filled it goes past half full, if its being emptied it goes past half empty…
as for that synchronicity, ive looked into it and yes it does make sense to me. What i keep getting worked up about is all this stuff to do with ‘confimation bias’. In my view somthing is either evidence or not evidence, rather than evidence or counter-evidence; does that make sense? Is it right for me to think that? becuase to me that makes sense but ive never heard it put that way by anyone else…
If i knew there was a point to it all then that would be great, there would be reason for me to continue looking into this, its just becuase it feels so important/real to me but no for aparent reason, as if i am yet to find out what it leads to…
and yes, ive heard alot about the 2012 doomsday, i am very interested in it. Whats more is that soon after hearing about all of this i ended up being part of a trip to centeral america in 2009 where we will be visiting some of the ruins… is this synchronicity or not? i find it hard to work out…
as for the dreams and goals, i dont really have any, i’m a student still at school and i havnt really thought about it much. If i were to what would this mean?
and i hate to say it, i really do, and i dont like this idea but it is as is i am special for some reason. As i said i really hate this idea, but you know when in some films and stuff there is a character who is for some reason involved in somthing completly without them knowing and against there will, it feels liek that…
OMG, you said that thing about that book….
well the last time i was talking online about this was to that american woman i mentioned earlier, we met whilst playing online scrabble and some how i ended up asking her about what the bible thinks about precognitive dreaming as i was interested at the time, anyway we were talking about it till 2am and she told me to look at various things in the bible, most of which were in the book of Luke. Luke happens to be my best friend but thats not important. anyway, she mentioned that we met for a reason as earlier that day she had been reading about stuff to do with precognition!
is this synchronicity yet again? does it usually repeat itself or am i just jumping to conclusions here??
‘as for the dreams and goals, i dont really have any, i’m a student still at school’
Just because you are a student still at school doesnt mean you cant have dreams or goals. Very often as a young child something touches our heart and we think ‘Oh I would love to do that’ but then immediately dismiss it because of what we believe about ourselves or what others say or what happens at school etc and so we push it away and forget about it.
I got in touch with a huge desire as a child to be able write like Enid Blyton but believed I was not able to because I found writing stories, and later on at college essays, a complete nightmare and extremely hard work. So completely forgot about my wish as a 7 year old.
The universe has been pushing me to write a book these last 7-8yrs and after lots of clearing of beliefs and other things that stooped me having access to words and language, I am now in the process of writing one. With many others in the pipeline. I have learnt to stop resisting and go with the flow.
‘and i havnt really thought about it much. If i were to what would this mean?’
It would mean that you just might get in touch with whatever it is that makes you feel you are a character who for some reason is involved in something completely without you knowing and against your will.
Everyone of us is special and here for a reason but we fight it and try to deny it. So what is it that you are specially here for I wonder?
And well done for allowing yourself to explore the possibilities, most people run away or hide. Pretend it can’t be true and then wonder why they are ill or have accidents or life seems so very hard and nothing ever seems to go right or the way they want it etc.
We are in the Game of Life and within that we live a life of games. When we wake up to what game is being played and how we are playing it we can then do something about it.
I actually run a workshop called ‘Life of Games’ workshop.
It just came together at the beginning of this year and I have run it monthly (up in London and in Gloucester), each month having a different theme to it. It brings together my passion for playing games, puzzles and jigsaws, helping people to learn (I use to be a teacher - maths, the most magical subject ever) and some techniques and skills of what I am now trained in. It is fun and people have had some massive shifts in their awareness of what is stopping them achieving their goals and then being able to take action and achieve them.
Just read what you said about your trip in 2009 - that is fantastic and I would say yes very synchronistic. That’s awesome
Gloucester? in gloucestershire? thats were i was born…. i now live a few miles away in a town called Stroud…
and yea, i kind of like that idea of a game, but i have a more stronger feeling towards the idea that rather than being a game, that can be played based on previous action, it is a book with chapters, pages, a predetermined plot and even a blurb on the back. What could even be possible is that there is a seaqual, an idea of a second somthing-or-other where you have some sort of realisation or moment of change…. well thats my attempt at philosiphy anyway…
as for a life goal, i kind of like the idea of being a film director -or the person who thinks up the idea behind the story… dunno how i’d get to become that, my mind might change though…
and what i mean is (about being special -and yes i still hate saying that) that it feels like i’m supposed to do somthing, the only problem is i don’t know what. ANd i guess i supose everyone could say that about themselves and it would be true but i dont see many people who are in my situation with all these numbers, people and events…
oh, and thanks for keeping up with all this so far, i dunno how much more i’m gonna waffle on about…
What a great idea the book is. I like your point about a game being played on previous action - has set me thinking.
Your ideas for a life goal sounds brilliant. So hold on to the vision and the possibility and let it take shape - the how is not for you to know just focus on the what and the universe will take care of the rest. And yes it might change or it might become more detailed. Like what is the predetermined plot? What would the blurb on the back be saying? Who would the book be for? and what would its purpose be?
Yes to your query about Gloucester - actually its Brockworth. I know Stroud very well, have friends who live there. mmmmm intriguing.
And so if you did see other people in your situation with all these numbers, people and events I wonder what you might see now? I also wonder what you might hear that you havent heard before - you appear to be very visual and sometines that can stop you hearing other people because they are more auditory or kinesthetic and so use those types of words. For example someone might say to you I think this what do you think? and you would reply I see it as this. Result is the person would end up asking you again because they dont see it they are thining it. Does that make sense? So theremay be people around you who you are not hearing who are actually in a very similar or even same situation as yourself. They just describe it using different words.
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alright, well thanks for your ears (that is a right thing to say?), youve helped me alot, not completly in the way that i had hoped but what you said was very useful and very interesting. cheers!
c ya in another life.
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HELP I need to talk to random people!
i dunno if anyone else has this kind of episode but atm ive got so much i need to talk outloud to someone but the problem is is that there is nobody i know in person that i would willingly say all of this stuff to, its kind of private…
does anyone know of any places online that are available for people like me to waffle on about stuff that probably isnt that important, somewhere were there are people who do actually listen and try to help…
ok, so this probably sounds really odd asking this on help.com, i mean youd think i would have just tried to talk here. but its not really the same…
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