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Felicity

I know I have been gone and I am not myself lately.

IT was really bad and returning has not been so ok. Miss all of you. I’m in a bad mood today :( . I fixed my email, but I did ask someone to help because I didn’t know when I’d return. I’m sorry if you felt violated, that was not my intention nor was it the intention of the friend I requested. I was trying to be certain all of you were loved in my absence. I’ll write this better on email but the general idea:
1. when I saw my parents again, my brother’s weights fell on me -ouch!
2. I stopped eating during stress
3. I’m moving my data under another name to stop stalkers, but will tell all of you
4. I miss everyone, but I have been sooo testy lately :(
5. I’m moved but I’m avoiding freaks - no one here. It’s just been taking a while to get back to feeling safe again.

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9mmWolf 4 #
An Unknown Location | 4 years, 11 months ago (7 minutes after post)

I’m new here nice to meet you. When I’m “testy” I smile for no reason whatsoever. It helps. Sometimes.

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thep 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 4 years, 11 months ago (8 minutes after post)

Nice to see you back here again. Glad you have managed to sort things out. Hope you are going to stick around.

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An Unknown Location | 4 years, 11 months ago (13 minutes after post)

Oh nikko (hugs)

I’m so sorry things are tough!

Remeber, you have your friends here! And we were all here waiting for you. Go glad your back sweetie. Chin up, and remember-were here for you anytime. lotsa love xxxxx

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An Unknown Location | 4 years, 11 months ago (13 minutes after post)

remember**

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Felicity edited this post 4 years, 11 months ago. Read the previous text »

I know I have been gone and I am not myself lately. IT was really bad and returning has not been so ok. Miss all of you. I’m in a bad mood today :( . I fixed my email, but I did ask someone to help because I didn’t know when I’d return. I’m sorry if you felt violated, that was not my intention nor was it the intention of the friend I requested. I was trying to be certain all of you were loved in my absence. I’ll write this better on email but the general idea:
1. when I saw my parent’s again, my brother’s weights fell on me -ouch!
2. I stopped eating durning stress
3. I’m moving my data under another name to stop stalkers, but will tell all of you
4. I miss everyone, but I have been soo testy lately :(

5. I’m moved but I’m avoiding freaks - no one here. IT’s just been talking a while to get back to feeling safe again.

Help me with: thinking about ‘ ending it All’?

Felicity 2 #
An Unknown Location | 4 years, 11 months ago (2 hours, 22 minutes after post)

Oh Honey,You should have invited me.oh well i found it.Did you get my e-mail?anyway I missed you.Im sorry I didnt talk more when you were online.Keep me posted and I swear next time I see you on messenger we will talk,I promise :)((BIG BEAR HUGS)) for YOU!

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☆lilies☆ 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 4 years, 11 months ago (10 hours, 3 minutes after post)

I’m still on. Talk to me when you are ready. Miss your ‘eps-eps’ in yahoo. :)

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I left 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 4 years, 11 months ago (16 hours, 26 minutes after post)

Yeah, yahoo is being a brat since I’ve moved. Will get it up today though :)

I left invited 55 users to read this post 4 years, 11 months ago.

I left 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 4 years, 11 months ago (17 hours, 3 minutes after post)

HI Cody :) Felicity, I invited people, so you were right, as ususal. All of you are so great, I was just well, what a nightmare..but it’s over now :) Can it be funny yet ? :)

☆lilies☆ 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 4 years, 11 months ago (17 hours, 13 minutes after post)

We are just here Nikko. :)

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fletcher 1 #
AU | 4 years, 11 months ago (17 hours, 46 minutes after post)

I am soo glad that you’re okay. Missed you. Maybe you deserve some rest.. I’ll pay for the holiday? >.O

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I left 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 4 years, 11 months ago (17 hours, 52 minutes after post)

LOL, well when messenger gets a clue, we can all laugh until our faces hurt :). Missed you too.

I left edited this post 4 years, 11 months ago. Read the previous text »

I know I have been gone and I am not myself lately. IT was really bad and returning has not been so ok. Miss all of you. I’m in a bad mood today :( . I fixed my email, but I did ask someone to help because I didn’t know when I’d return. I’m sorry if you felt violated, that was not my intention nor was it the intention of the friend I requested. I was trying to be certain all of you were loved in my absence. I’ll write this better on email but the general idea:
1. when I saw my parent’s again, my brother’s weights fell on me -ouch!
2. I stopped eating durning stress
3. I’m moving my data under another name to stop stalkers, but will tell all of you
4. I miss everyone, but I have been soo testy lately :(

5. I’m moved but I’m avoiding freaks - no one here. IT’s just been taking a while to get back to feeling safe again.

Setto. 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 4 years, 11 months ago (18 hours, 42 minutes after post)

*big hugs*

Glad to see you back, hope you’re doing a bit better.
heeeeey drop me an email when you have a few minutes spare, missed chit chatting!

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molotok 3 #
G�vle, 03, SE | 4 years, 11 months ago (21 hours, 29 minutes after post)

Hugs for you, Nikko!
I’ll mail you.

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Ditzy 4 #
Ventura, CA, US | 4 years, 11 months ago (22 hours, 3 minutes after post)

~squidges~ glad to see you back. Hope things get better soon.

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OliveOil 3 #
An Undisclosed Location | 4 years, 11 months ago (1 day, 1 hour after post)

Glad to see you back Nikko! Yes… sometimes during those hard times I often wonder to myself the same thing… “can it just be funny yet?” LOL! Hope you are feeling better.

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barbyman 1 #
An Unknown Location | 4 years, 11 months ago (1 day, 3 hours after post)

yes nikko welcome back….

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I left 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 4 years, 11 months ago (2 days, 1 hour after post)

The weight thing: bet I can make you laugh :)
OH, when I saw my parents again (definately wearing my ‘bad idea jeans’ then - after all, we did sue each other, …twice, but I wanted to see my brother :( whatever).
So, I was down in the basement talking to a friend of mine in LA. I was on her timezone and I was pacing while I talked in the dark..um, marvelous display of intelligence :) I tripped over the weights, they fell on me..good thing nothing was broken, I’m 5ft7 and barely 100 lbs - OUCH!. Anyway, When I got up, I kept tripping over them in the dark..nice. Then she and I were laughing so much I could barely get up. :) I saw the light at the top of the stairs ans slowly made my way there. Miss Vickihoderism and our jokes, because that was a surefire way to get a “dumbass” card :)

Felicity 2 #
An Unknown Location | 4 years, 11 months ago (2 days, 1 hour after post)

Made me laugh :D,- glad your Ok

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I left 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 4 years, 11 months ago (2 days, 1 hour after post)

thanks, will be catching up with you soon. HEhe, yeah, that was so much a ‘thinning the herd’ moment :0

☆lilies☆ 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 4 years, 11 months ago (2 days, 2 hours after post)

There are many lessons to learn each day.

Lesson of the century: never talk in the dark.

lol

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molotok 3 #
G�vle, 03, SE | 4 years, 11 months ago (2 days, 6 hours after post)

Hehe, I remember your toaster burning as well… You are funny. :-)

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An Undisclosed Location | 4 years, 10 months ago (4 days, 1 hour after post)

Great to see you’re back:] lol sorry about the weights thing

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An Undisclosed Location | 4 years, 10 months ago (4 days, 2 hours after post)

I’ll email you. Haven’t really gotten the chance to before, but it seems like you need a good laugh, hehe my specialty! ttyl
**hugs**

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☆lilies☆ 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 4 years, 10 months ago (4 days, 10 hours after post)

Tan tarraannnnn! i’ll talk to you tonight, girl! :)

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I left 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 4 years, 10 months ago (5 days, 4 hours after post)

Well, soon I’m off to email, IF my shouts are done. Well, moving was funny too. A friend of mine went to storage to get my things. OH man, you should have seen how the movers packed it! He now calls it the “Wall O’Shi* ” hehe
I was around the corner and a freaking Christmas tree fell on him. HUH?? Well, my parents stored with me for a while - lovely hehe, but WTF? Can I say WTF and not be rude? Well, anyway, the silly tree came tumbilng down on him. I did manage to keep a straight face though…and gave it to goodwill :)

So later we are on the porch talking. Both of us had a bad freak-out day. Anyway he’s a game guy/good friend so he was asking me about the people I know from that and conferences. Eventually he asked me if I had heard of the book “Art of War” . I remarked, yes, who hasn’t. I have it and it likely fell on you.
Funny guy, he replied “well, that isn’t saying much for me as I wouldn’t know ‘The Art of War’ ” if it hit me on the head :)

jordi.alons 1 #
An Unknown Location | 3 years, 8 months ago (1 year, 2 months after post)

I am not used to this website, I know “nikko” (also known as “I left” “Too hurt”) loved you all, and I wanted to tell you she passed away this weekend (September 20th 2009). She was a great mind, with great talent and an amazing sensitivity for art unsually combined with great computer skills on computer graphics and web development.
I am really moved by her lost and by not having been able to do more to help her, on her months of depression and loneliness.
I want to thank you all for keeping her hope up for more than two years, but at the end, she was not able to get over it, and sadly passed away this weekend. We will always miss her funny comments, her amazing smile and her personality. She didn’t deserve to pass away being still so young. I got the news this morning, when I am away from my country for a business meetings, and could not expose my part of the meeting after this piece of news. It’s one of the saddests days in my life.

Anonymous #
3 years ago (1 year, 10 months after post)

so wait, you are nikko? and you got a stalker, so you faked your own death online, changed your name, and moved. correct? if so i wanna hear the whole story sounds very interesting, may even make a good book (=

☆lilies☆ 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 years ago (1 year, 10 months after post)

Anon, who are you? what are you up to?

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Abstract?? 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 years ago (1 year, 10 months after post)

☆lilies☆ wrote:
Anon, who are you? what are you up to?

idk someone posted a question about what really happened to nikko, so im trying to find out. i just went back and looked at all these posts and thats what seems to have happened. is there something wrong with my other post? im going to bed but its abstract.

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jordi.alons 1 #
An Unknown Location | 3 years ago (1 year, 10 months after post)

Lilies, my email still the same. I lost yours.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 7 months ago (3 years, 3 months after post)

i need help, i am only twelve and i keep taking pills i dont need. i have been just so depressed latley, i dont think i can handly it anymore. i stopped eating right a few months ago and lost almost 31 pounds. i remember i was happy and i loved everyone. i am not me anymore. i dont think i will ever be.

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