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Depression sucks.

My entire Life I’ve dealt with enormous amounts of depression, sometimes it becoming more severe than many people imagine. I have Anxiety Disorder, and am on Zoloft, an antidepressant. I’m also on lorazepam (or however you spell it), a sedative for my panic attacks.

Some of you may wonder why I feel the need to post this random jargain about my personal life. You see the thing is, My entire life i have been an analytical jealous contorl freak. Lately, though, its been a lot worse. I cut myself deeply with a small bowie knife, I’ve been suicidal and freaking out over the tiniest things, and I can’t really handle it anymore.

This isn’t a plea for help, this isn’t a “Save me, I’m drowning in my own self pity!” post or anything, I just wanted to introduce myself and my reasons for being here properly, and I wanted to let anyone who may be in need of someone to talk to that I am here. And I could really use someone to sorta rely on. I was very awkward as a young child, and that label has stuck with me for as long as I can remember. Its hard for me to branch out in real life, despite how hard I try. I’d like to make some new friends on here if possible, and I would like to meet as many people as I can. Feel free to message me and talk to me. I’m more than happy to be here. :)

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HelpBot 1 #
San Francisco, CA, US | 1 year, 5 months ago (0 minutes after post)

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BaseballCraver 17 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (2 minutes after post)

How’d I know the suicide bot was gonna showup for this one? SOOO helpful he is….

katiekins 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (8 minutes after post)

well idk if you have a gf but you seem kinda cute;]

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Cell 63 #
Winnipeg, MB, CA | 1 year, 5 months ago (9 minutes after post)

Hi. I hear you. I struggle with depression, too. I’ll add you to my friends list.

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katiekins 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (10 minutes after post)

btw i have depression too and it really does suck.

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Cell 63 #
Winnipeg, MB, CA | 1 year, 5 months ago (11 minutes after post)

I took Zoloft for 2 or 3 years, too.

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BaseballCraver 17 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (13 minutes after post)

Single :)

Full story, in case you are wonderin, is i had a mental breakdown in seventh grade. I’ve been homeschooled ever since. Last year I went to the alternative school, and everyone there HATED me. Also, I took paxil for a year, and I came very near suicide. I was bedridden for hours on end, doing nothin but cryin.

And so far, answer seems to be Zoloft. :)

Cell 63 #
Winnipeg, MB, CA | 1 year, 5 months ago (14 minutes after post)

I tried Paxil, that made me feel so panicked and irrational. I quit that right away.

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Cell 63 #
Winnipeg, MB, CA | 1 year, 5 months ago (15 minutes after post)

I tried many different kinds after Zoloft because it always gave me a stomach ace all day long and I didn’t dream anymore. I finally found that Serazone worked for me best.

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katiekins 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (15 minutes after post)

thats good:]
yeah im on abilify and effexor and it does the trick for me.
but it took for ever and a short stay in a mental hospital:[

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Cell 63 #
Winnipeg, MB, CA | 1 year, 5 months ago (16 minutes after post)

I liked effexor but it made me too sick physically.

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BaseballCraver 17 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (23 minutes after post)

Yeah I think it all depends on your physical being. My mother AND Grandmother both had success on Zoloft. However, I recently raised the medication dose and I’m heading on a downward slope. Also, unfortunately, I cut myself for the first time the other night. Not a distraction, not a dashionable cutting, a what the **** is wrong with me why can’t i do it cut. I tried to get the courage to finish it, but i got pissed and took it out on my arms instead.

Wow, I don’t think I’ve opened up like this to anyone in a long time…

jayp 0 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (28 minutes after post)

i think i might have an anxiety disorder. i freak and hyperventalate over the tinyiest things. i get very depressed too. so i gues i can rly understand what ur goin through except i havent gotten help, i havent told my parents or doctor and its just getting worst. i cut myself a couple months ago in like february. and vowed id never do it again,i know its wrong. but 2 weeks ago i did it again. and i might do it again. i just cant stop

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BaseballCraver 17 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (30 minutes after post)

Seek professional help man. I’ve heard mental disabilites like ours referred to as back problems. People can’t see it, and it seems to become very convenient and thay act like you have control of it. Eventually, everyone gets tired of hearing it, which is whats happenin to me. Seek medication and counselling man, nothing is worse than leaving something life threatening unchecked. honestly, would you leave someone you cared for tied up in a room swarmed with killer bees or something? I should hope not. Your parents would probably feel the saem way.

jayp 0 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (32 minutes after post)

but like idk how to tell my parents. theyll prolly think im crazy….heck i think im goin crazy. idk wats goin on with me. like how does a 13 yr old tell her parents that shes crazy?

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katiekins 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (34 minutes after post)

well i guess it was easier for me bc my mom has depression, but just look up some stuff and tell them you dont feel normal and they should understand.

jayp wrote:
but like idk how to tell my parents. theyll prolly think im crazy….heck i think im goin crazy. idk wats goin on with me. like how does a 13 yr old tell her parents that shes crazy?

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BaseballCraver 17 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (36 minutes after post)

My mom had it too, therefore I had herbal medication early on. Trust me, just confront them about it and say this is what I have, and according to people on the internet with the same prtoblem this is what i need to do. If they don’t buy it, show them the spot you cut on. Tell them you’ve been wanting to do it more. If they refuse to help, they aren’t really all that strong parents themselves, and you’ll be forced to do your own treatment such as herbals or meditational releases. Seriously though, talk ot your parents.

jayp 0 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (39 minutes after post)

my mom saw my first scars one day, i told her it was from “shaving”. she believed it because she didnt really see it up close. they were rly deep and i dnt think the scars will ever go away.

but yea i guess your right, ill try to like bring it up somehow

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BaseballCraver 17 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (12 hours, 24 minutes after post)

The only thing I really have in my box is meditation. I can’t talk to my mother anymore, because she suffers from severe anxiety. Any time I tell her about it, she gets all worried and I don’t have any free time for a month. Even watchin TV, she busts in and starts givin me the third degree. She used to be someone I could turn to, but not so much anymore.

Well ty xD Not even my dog, my friend Nicole’s. BUDDY!

Oh thats something I forgot. Honestly, I don’t believe I’d be hear without my chocolate labrador Sammy. When I was going through my breakdown and really heavily suicidal, he and his fatass would sit on my chest and not move until I stopped hypervenilating and crying. Most the time, though, I’d only stop cuz I wouldnt be able to breath. lol

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angel♥ 9 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (23 hours, 44 minutes after post)

BaseballCraver wrote:
Oh thats something I forgot. Honestly, I don’t believe I’d be hear without my chocolate labrador Sammy. When I was going through my breakdown and really heavily suicidal, he and his fatass would sit on my chest and not move until I stopped hypervenilating and crying. Most the time, though, I’d only stop cuz I wouldnt be able to breath. lol

aww thats so cute about your dog! yea my dogs one of the only people/animals i can turn to! theyre just there whenever you need them you know? even though they cant talk they just seem to be a big comfort. im gonna add you as a friend, you seem cool =) haha

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katiekins 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (1 day, 22 hours after post)

omg!
when i was like super depressed i had a cat who helped me out!
it sounds so weird but i dont think i would be here without him.

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angel♥ 9 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (1 day, 23 hours after post)

katelyn! i know EXACTLY what you mean! its the same with my dog!

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katiekins 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 5 months ago (2 days after post)

im not a freak bahahah

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