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I’m just having the worst day ever. I can’t take this anymore. i just want to die. My boyfriend broke up with me last night and my best friend in the whole world committed suicide today.

oh wow im really sorry:[

thanks :( they wree the 2 most important poeple in my life though. I just don’t know how I’m going to live without them. I just feel like nobody cares for me anymore.. I just think everyting would be better if I ended my life now.

it wont be trust me!
just believe me.

i have to get off but dont do anything to hurt yourself!

Don’t take it in all at once, compartmentalize.

Okay thanks for caring!
And I don’t know. I can’t promise anything…

Red_Sky- How can I NOT take it all in at once?? I’m all alone now. I have no one to turn to.

I usually dont feel this intensely but this may be one of the times in your life that you seek advice from a professional. If a person that is close to you kills themselves, you cant help but experience one of the most extreme feelings that youll ever feel. Please consider seeking help. School? Church? I don’t know how old you are so I am constrained.

Seriously I know it sounds weird…for lack of a better word, but one thing at a time.

And ending it all…it doens’t make anything better, not for you, not for those around you.

Anonymous wrote:
thanks :( they wree the 2 most important poeple in my life though. I just don’t know how I’m going to live without them. I just feel like nobody cares for me anymore.. I just think everyting would be better if I ended my life now.

Okay hun, do you think your friend would want that for you? I do second Script though. We only advise, unfortunatly, I believe face to face in this cercumstance would be better for you. All I can tell you right now, is to let it all out. Im not telling you to just sit and cry, but to remember the time you have had with them and let all your emotions out. It will make you feel better at the moment, killing yourself wont, for it is the ultamite end, and you cant get better from that.

scriptease- I am 16 years old. I’m an atheist so the church thing wouldnt work all that well. And the school. I odn’t connect with any of the counsellors. Thanks though! I think I’m really stuck this time

Red_Sky- I’ve never been good at taking one thing at a time. Everything seems to happen to me in bucnhes. Like last year my Uncle raped me and my Mom died right when i was going to tell her. My whole life is like this. I can’t take it anymore.

WashuChan- Thanks but I really think that this is the best thing for me. This way I’ll be with my friend agaain and everything will be okay. It’s the only way I’ll ever be happy again….

Dieing is never the best thing hun, what of everyone who is living? I dont do church well either (bad experence) but I try my best to continue to live. Honey, what would your living friends do without you?

those were suggestions. a launching pad for you to “brain storm” an appropriate source. It is very hard to deal with a friend that kills themselves, since we would all feel a bit of inappropriate guilt,,,, “could we have been more helpful”.. you a a bit quick to dismiss ideas. slow down. this is alot to actually deal with.

That’s the thing… her and my bf were my only real friends. I’m kinda an outcast… and they were the only people who truley understand me.. my bf said its better if were not friends anymore. I dont know why he broke up with me but he seemed pretty hurt about doing it. But he won’t even talk to me now. I tried to call him but he just says he has to go and hangs up..

I really feel like it was my fault though. I knew hse was depressed… I tried to talk toher about it but she just pushed me away… I should’ve just kept on trying. Shown her that I was there for her anytime.

Its not your fault Anon, please dont think it is. Her death is not your fault, there are many Should haves, but how many Could haves are there? Your bf, now theres something weird about that. I wish I could put my finger on it though. Honey, please try life some more. Its gets better with time. I hate time, but it heals many things. Death only takes..

Wow, that’s so much.

Stop, you cannot blame yourself for your friends death. If someone really wants to end their life their life, they can’t hear anything.

And please don’t take your life, I know it sounds small in the grand scheme of things, but it’s the one thing that’s truly yours and something people can’t take away from you. Don’t end it early.

I hate time too. I hate life. I hate everything at the moment. I just don’t know what to do. I’m not close with my dad or brother… they gang up on me a lot and boss me around. my mom died last year and all the people I love are gone now. I actually am totally alone. I would even try talking to my school counsellor even though I dont like her but its summer =( I just don’t know how I’m gonna go on like this…. I have no one to turn to. No shoulder to cry on. All day/night I’ve just been sititng. locked up in my room crying. My dad and brother can both hear me but they don’t care if I’m feeling like this.

I can’t help but blame myself though. I really think I couldve stopped her. Helped her. I don’t care. It’s the only thing I have and it’s worthless. So whats the point? No one loves me and I’m just scared of being alone….

My boyfriend broke up with me last night and my best friend in the whole world committed suicide today. .. my mom died last year … This is too much. I dont think I’ve ever heard anyone having this much to go through. The probability that you will have to deal with this much ever again is .. well .. you wont. I’m sorry that I cant be here with you longer. But I really dont feel that i know what is going on.

We are here to help that get better, the alone. Honey, please. If you need to talk about this keep talking to us, thats what we do! I wish I could be there to help you, i really do. This is something a teen should not be going through.

I hate time too, takes to **** long. But there is nothing to blame yourself for, your friend needed help as well, but couldnt get it in time, its not your fault.

Was your friend and your BF friends too? Its probibly hitting him hard too.

I go through this kind of stuff all the time. My life is a total mess. Bad things happen to me all the time and i seem to attract really bad people….
That’s okay. Thanks for trying to help!

Thanks! I know.. it’s not my fault but I can’t help but feel it is… my friends best friends mom even blames me for it. I used to be suicidal and she thinks she got the idea from me. And yeah. It was the 3 of us… we were inseperable. That’s why I’m so confused to why he doesn’t even wanna be friend anymore.. and I’m so alone now. I want them both back more than anything in the world.

Hes hurting too then. just (I know…) give him time. Its the only thing hun I can help with. I wish I could help you more! ::hugs Anon:: I will be here for you to talk with for a little while longer, Its 12:30am here, I got to go to bed soon sweety. Please dont take it the wrong way okay? I do want to help. Your friends mom needs to worry about her, not you. Its not right that she blamed you for what happened. Its not your fault, dont let anyone, anyone, tell you it is. You did not hurt your friend.

Everything WashuChan is saying is true. And trust Scrip about the whole you’ll never have to deal with this amount of pain again. Not like this at least.

I know night time is probably the worst, it’s so dark and gives people way too much time to think, but until you can fall asleep find something to distract yourself with and if you can’t there’s always someone here willing to talk.

Always! :D Ill be on tommarow night too, and the night after that.

Yeah. I’ve tried calling him… last night after we broke up and today after what happened. He just keeps making up excuses that he has to go. Thanks! It’s okay if you have to go. I won’t take it the wrong way!! I know! I’ve always liked her mom and I thought she always liked me but I guess I was wrong. She actually came to my house today screaming at me telling meit was all my fault and I had no idea what she was talking about. Then she told me she was dead. I was shocked but she thought i was just pretending to be. That I told her to do it. I didn’t though. I would NEVER do anything like that. I’m suicidal so I know what it’s like and someone’s told me to go kill myself because the worldwould be a better place without me. I know how it feels. And I would never say that to her.

Red_Sky- What can I do to distract myself though?? Any ideas?

Well I paint and play cello, those are my releases, have you ever heard of flow? In psych basically all it means is an activity that has your focus one hundred percent and all other things just kind of fall to the way side. It’s an activity that requires both concentration and certain amount of you being relaxed, so that all you can think about is the task at hand, got anything like that?

OH! I use an ipod to sleep with, do you have a radio that takes headphones and a pair, or an mp3 player?

Blast them. Stick them in your ears and blast it. When I feel so totally bad, thats what I do. I close my eyes and just listen to the diferent sounds then the feeling of my ear drums vibrating.

Just not so loud to kill your ears. You still need them. :D

Not at all…. =( I’m not a very artistic person and nothing can really capture my interest. I spent all my time with my friends… but that can’t happen now.
Yeah I guess I could try that… i have an ipod. But I just can’t quit crying…. ack. i hate this. I’m sorry this is such a depressing post.. =S i seriously apoligize

No no no, dont apoligize. Its not you that made all this pain in your life. But try the ipod. it should work well. You can still cry with the ipod on, so it will release some tesion too. Oh, hun, please be well tonight. Im gonna check on you tommarow. k?

Alright. I’ll definetely try it! I’ll do just about anything at this point.
Thanks so much for helping me out (everyone!) I really appreciate it.
I’ll try hard not to hurt myself at alll tonight. Really hard. Thanks again everyone!

Come back and let us know you’re okay!!

Yea! I want you to be safe and soon, happy. Okay? Just lay there with it blasting. Put the timer on though, so you dont kill it overnight. go though Extras- clocks- in a clock- sleep timer- pick one. okay? Good night Anon, please be safe.

Thanks! I’ll definetely come back tomorrow to tell you guys how I’m doing. I really appreciate your help!!!

always here to help. Shout me anytime hun okay? I will check you tommarow, so you have to be alive okay? night honey. please be safe.

hey im back if you are still on.
if yoou need to talk…

Anonymous wrote:
Red_Sky- How can I NOT take it all in at once?? I’m all alone now. I have no one to turn to.

you have us!

Anon, Im so checking in now! You doing okay? Did you sleep at all last night?

Keep your head up. ANY time you feel suicidal, just tell yourself its not worth it. You know how you felt when your Best Friend committed suicide, Do you really want the people in your life to feel the same?

Counseling WOULD be best, but if not possible try to branch out. Old friends, new Friends, anyone you can really talk to. Distract yourself with a collection, a hobby, hell even a computer game or SOMETHING. I mean, it may not sound like the best idea, but aNYTHING to keep yourself

Sorry if i repeated anything, I’m doin this in a bit of a hurry. Ill check back later.

Anon, sweety, are you here yet? I hope your okay.