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I’m going to kill myself.

Right here. Right now.

Mom, Dad, Carla, I love you. I always will. Don’t blame yourselves. It’s my fault.

I’ll see you all on the other side.

Peace.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (1 minute after post)

good riddance? No but really don’t bother it just starts over again.

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retrospace18 offline Verified User (7 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
Winston Salem, NC, US | 3 months, 1 week ago (5 minutes after post)

See heres the issue. Im going to be point blank with you.

You’re calling out for help, Otherwise you woulda done it by now, and you wouldnt have left an online goodbye note, Thats completely ignorant and makes no sense.

So now that you are here, Lets talk about it, Whats the issue, Here to help , but need to know your issue.

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Mr. P offline Verified User (3 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (7 minutes after post)

Umm… don’t do it?

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nicegirl_98_3 offline Verified User (3 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (9 minutes after post)

GET HELP! Do not do this. you gotta think of what others will feel. So many unleft answers. So many many broken hearts. I have been thru this. I had a friend that killed herself. I think abotu her everyday it’s been 10 yrs. I still have nightmares and I wasnt even there. There’s r more people out there that love and care for you than what u think.
Obviously u are callin out for help. Call someone! Get help now!
I dont know who u r. But I am tellin u it would be a huge huge mistake.
I care for ya! Just think about this. It’s not smart to do. Like I said go get help, rather than do something like that!
No one nor anything is worth ur life. If ya need advice just ask, or talk to someone.
take care

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MenosGrandeLatt offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (9 minutes after post)

I know a guy that wants to kill some one…just let him do it XD just playing but seriously stop being silly.

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3 months, 1 week ago (9 minutes after post)

Do you realize that commiting suicide sends you straight to hell? That is what christians believe. Please reconsider - your mom dad and carla might not end up going to Hell so you would not see them on the other side. Call the number “above”. Don’t be a coward. Also, it is probably a chemical imbalance that can be cured by a pill for a couple of months - why end it all when you can be fixed by a doctor!!!

Hang on!

Bastetrose Lover offline Verified User (3 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (13 minutes after post)

Death isn’t the answer! you need to calm down and get professional help. call the number above. my ex boyfriend tried to commit suicide a bunch of times. suicide will only cause you aand everyone you care about WAY MORE PAIN!!

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retrospace18 offline Verified User (7 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
Winston Salem, NC, US | 3 months, 1 week ago (17 minutes after post)

Anonymous wrote:
Do you realize that commiting suicide sends you straight to hell? That is what christians believe. Also, it is probably a chemical imbalance that can be cured by a pill for a couple of months - why end it all when you can be fixed by a doctor!!!

lol @ that

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Mr. P offline Verified User (3 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (19 minutes after post)

I’m going to lock myself in a closet tomorrow if on the news I hear that some kid killed himself while “chatting on a popular advice website, ‘help.com’”.

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Bastetrose Lover offline Verified User (3 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (21 minutes after post)

Mr. P wrote:
I’m going to lock myself in a closet tomorrow if on the news I hear that some kid killed himself while “chatting on a popular advice website, ‘help.com’”.

pfft! I hear you all the way!! I’d probably be under depression that nobody could do anything to stop it either

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (33 minutes after post)

ok i hv thought about doin tht alot but there is always just tht one person tht i think bout tht keeps me from it my little sis, my bff, and my bf who all love me u may hv one special person in your life tht cares for u tht u care for so talk to them about it talking to strangers wh dont kno just makes u iratated

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Dragon_Lady offline Verified User (7 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 11 minutes after post)

I don’t think Mom, Dad, and Carla are here. But the rest of us are. Why don’t you stop for a few minutes and tell us what the problem is?

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smoogie. online Verified User (4 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 157 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 24 minutes after post)

Take a deep breathe and talk to us. I’m sure your problem can find an answer here.

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barneywest offline Verified User (4 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 25 minutes after post)

Mr. P wrote:
I’m going to lock myself in a closet tomorrow if on the news I hear that some kid killed himself while “chatting on a popular advice website, ‘help.com’”.

Suicides are not reported in the news unless there are severely special circumstances. I suppose the internet mitigates the old way of thinking, which was “If you report on a suicide as a story then you are glorifying the act which might cause an increase in suicides as some depressed folk might crave notority more than life”. Still, unless you live in a town that has less than 5000 people and also has a newspaper, your act of suicide probably wont be reported - the big exclusion being if you are a celebrity. Did you never hear the supposed survey on people who jumped off the Golden GAte Bridge and survived - 90% of them realized on the way down that everything wrong with there life was trivial in comparison to the fact that they just jumped and are about to die. In other words, severe regret.

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Mr. P offline Verified User (3 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 27 minutes after post)

Well they did a story on the kid who killed himself playing World of Warcraft. That’s similar I guess.

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barneywest offline Verified User (4 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 28 minutes after post)

Who is Carla? Talk to us…

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retrospace18 offline Verified User (7 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
Winston Salem, NC, US | 3 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 30 minutes after post)

Mr. P wrote:
Well they did a story on the kid who killed himself playing World of Warcraft. That’s similar I guess.

Thats because thats a rare circumstance, that creates follow up stories in the media.

Such as, “Online Games, taking away from our social network? Story at 8″, etc etc

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Mr. P offline Verified User (3 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 31 minutes after post)

They couldn’t do a, “Advice forums, more bad than good? Story at eleven.”?

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barneywest offline Verified User (4 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 37 minutes after post)

Mr. P wrote:
They couldn’t do a, “Advice forums, more bad than good? Story at eleven.”?

There you go. The only problem with that is an anonymous sender. I sure hope that “anonymous” has gone to bed rather than done something “stupid”. “Anonymous”, why dont you tell us what’s bothering you. We want to help. Thats why we are on the website “help.com”.

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retrospace18 offline Verified User (7 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
Winston Salem, NC, US | 3 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 38 minutes after post)

Well they could, but there isnt an already existing hype/movenment against advice forums, as is against online games.

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Mr. P offline Verified User (3 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 8 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 40 minutes after post)

Okay, I could see that. Either way if this wasn’t a joke I would still feel like a huge a******.

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barneywest offline Verified User (4 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (2 hours, 7 minutes after post)

Mr. P wrote:
Okay, I could see that. Either way if this wasn’t a joke I would still feel like a huge a******.

Why? You have done nothing wrong. “Anonymous” has not responded (yet)- it is out of our hands. In fact, it never WAS in our hands.

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shol'vah offline Verified User (7 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Anchorage, AK, US | 3 months, 1 week ago (2 hours, 13 minutes after post)

Mr. P wrote:
Well they did a story on the kid who killed himself playing World of Warcraft. That’s similar I guess.

In Korea many people have died playing Starcraft because they refused to leave their computers. But in this case, I think we are simply the witnesses to his final thoughts; but I hope I’m wrong.

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barneywest offline Verified User (4 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (2 hours, 18 minutes after post)

Anonymous wrote:
Do you realize that commiting suicide sends you straight to hell? That is what christians believe. Please reconsider - your mom dad and carla might not end up going to Hell so you would not see them on the other side. Call the number “above”. Don’t be a coward. Also, it is probably a chemical imbalance that can be cured by a pill for a couple of months - why end it all when you can be fixed by a doctor!!!

Hang on!

If there is an afterlife. If there is a heaven. If suicides make it into heaven without consequence, then why bother living life on earth at all. Just snuff yourself and be in heaven. Somehow I dont think the universe or god would allow such a “looophole”. On the other hand, if the “suicide” was due to a chemical imbalance in the brain, or some other mental disease that the subject has no control over, how can “judgement day” send them down rather than up?

Anonymous - You MUST not harm yourself. Things will get better!

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Dave1986 offline Verified User (4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (2 hours, 23 minutes after post)

barneywest wrote:
If there is an afterlife. If there is a heaven. If suicides make it into heaven without consequence, then why bother living life on earth at all. Just snuff yourself and be in heaven. Somehow I dont think the universe or god would allow such a “looophole”. On the other hand, if the “suicide” was due to a chemical imbalance in the brain, or some other mental disease that the subject has no control over, how can “judgement day” send them down rather than up? Anonymous - You MUST not harm yourself. Things will get better!

Thats awsome. Its not your fault if its a chemical inbalance right. god made you that way how can he expect that you are going to be fine lol.

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shol'vah offline Verified User (7 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Anchorage, AK, US | 3 months, 1 week ago (2 hours, 27 minutes after post)

Dave1986 wrote:
Thats awsome. Its not your fault if its a chemical inbalance right. god made you that way how can he expect that you are going to be fine lol.

Some people believe god will give you physical/mental disabilities as a test of your spirtual strength and faith.

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Dave1986 offline Verified User (4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (2 hours, 29 minutes after post)

really??? well **** I must have tons of spirt lol. They amount of physical pain i suffer every day on top of the mental stress he must love me. All this time i thought he hated me.

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shol'vah offline Verified User (7 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Anchorage, AK, US | 3 months, 1 week ago (2 hours, 30 minutes after post)

Not a theory I like but it is one that is thrown around a lot. All depends on your point of view Dave.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (2 hours, 33 minutes after post)

I know I am just playing. I really dont beleive in anything because its always to confusing. I just leave it as stuff happens and nothings perfect. Most people are able to change there life if they dont like it but its just easier to complain about it then do anything. I have been there alot myself. Really hope that this guy didnt hurt himself because there is still so much in life that can be seen and done.

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shol'vah offline Verified User (7 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Anchorage, AK, US | 3 months, 1 week ago (2 hours, 36 minutes after post)

I’m with you on that one, only I was raised religious so I can’t just shrug it off. Hopefully this guy will make it through tonight, and then who knows what the marrow will bring.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (2 hours, 43 minutes after post)

you guys think he really did it? i mean it wasnt much of a question more like an announcement… its kinda unnerving to think theres some kid sitting in front of this screen with the back of his head all over the wall… f***…

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shol'vah offline Verified User (7 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Anchorage, AK, US | 3 months, 1 week ago (2 hours, 45 minutes after post)

Realistically, yeah I think he did, but I hope I’m wrong. I really hope I’m wrong.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (2 hours, 47 minutes after post)

Hopefully its was just someone wanting attetion. Wish him a good life ether in this on or the next.

am I the only one that would not feel bad for him?

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shol'vah offline Verified User (7 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Anchorage, AK, US | 3 months, 1 week ago (2 hours, 50 minutes after post)

That Dave is a very complicated question, on the one hand I would feel bad for a life lost and the suffering caused to those close to them. On the other I would be happy he is at peace, and maybe just a little envious of that peace.

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Dave1986 offline Verified User (4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (2 hours, 50 minutes after post)

just saying that because there are probally people out there dieing because of some accident that was not there fault hanging on for dear life. or some other person starving to death because they dont have food. I hope he didnt do it but if he did at least it was his choice although the wrong one.

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shol'vah offline Verified User (7 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Anchorage, AK, US | 3 months, 1 week ago (2 hours, 51 minutes after post)

Yeah, I know what you mean and we do all have to die someday, but I would just as soon have us all die of old age in our beds.

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Dave1986 offline Verified User (4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (2 hours, 53 minutes after post)

yeah I hear that. It would be a shame to go out with your last memories of how much you hate this world.

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shol'vah offline Verified User (7 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Anchorage, AK, US | 3 months, 1 week ago (3 hours, 5 minutes after post)

Yes, yes it would.

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retrospace18 offline Verified User (7 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
Winston Salem, NC, US | 3 months, 1 week ago (3 hours, 24 minutes after post)

Dave1986 wrote:
yeah I hear that. It would be a shame to go out with your last memories of how much you hate this world.

What would it matter. Not trying to sound drag or “emo”.

But …..If there is a Heaven, I dont think Im going to be caring too much about what Earth was like. Ditto with a Hell.

And if there isnt anything, and death is exactly that, death, then it wont matter at all.

“Life is what you make of it, and its only grand if you are alive”

That kept me hanging on when I needed it most.

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