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Dream Interpretation:
To the best of my memory:
And to keep things anonymous, my boyfriend is Tyler and my other crush is Kyle.
The day after Tyler said he loved me was when the dream took place.
I was walking in a large, unfamiliar and especially hilly park on a sunny/partially cloudy and neutral-temperature day when I received a phone call from him. I thought he was randomly calling back BECAUSE he loved me. I don’t know what I really expected him to say, though. As well, his phone number was different from usual. It was on a random signpost somewhere. Then I walked away from it for some reason, and I couldn’t recall the exact numbers, and I remember trying to figure them out so that I could call him back. But I never did figure them out on time. So I just called back using his home phone number I was most familiar with.
Oddly enough, I don’t remember conversing with him. I somehow found myself on Facebook. Kyle wrote on my wall, which is unusual unless I post on his wall first. He gave this awkward post asking me out to dinner with him on the same Friday night that I had planned on seeing Tyler again. I recall he implied that it would be a tad boring, as we’d be sitting in his church and reading books while eating dinner…something crazy like that.
Seeing as I had loved Kyle (somewhat) secretly for about three years now, I was awfully flattered that he had finally asked and due to my previous feelings for him, would feel awful if I turned down his request. But! I have a boyfriend, and I admitted to loving him. So I somehow met Kyle in person, in a large urban parking garage…one of those things… I told Kyle I had a boyfriend and couldn’t, nor wouldn’t, go out with him in such a case. And he understood, and walked away into another room. But still, I did love him. I followed him impulsively, and almost in tears, passionately screamed, “WAIT! You don’t understand! I’ve loved you since the seventh grade!” I thought something along the lines of, why? Why can’t I love two people at the same time? Isn’t it good to let love grow and spread to as many people as possible? But I remembered that is not what people will accept. So I had to choose one or the other. To my words, Kyle responded, “That’s just creepy.” And that was that.
I went back onto Facebook to reread his post. I also noticed that Tyler had a Facebook (though in real life, he would never get one) and left three posts on my wall. Each time I looked at his profile picture, in which he was surrounded by friends without faces, he grew a larger and slightly more unnatural smile. (HOW CREEPY IS THAT?) In all honesty, I don’t recall reading his posts and what they said. I recall Kyle had left a couple other posts that lacked much significance, and one of the pictures by them showed him with a very…unnaturally angry and childish look on his face.
I somehow ended up walking at night in a very large shopping complex with a giant Wal-Mart and McDonald’s. I walked into the McDonald’s, ordered a double hamburger, and one of the cashiers tried to rip me off by eight bucks (WTF?), but another employee had to remind him not to do so… I was just like, um, okay, I’ll have a soda and a small pack of fries with that… After that strange occurrence, I sat down at my table. I don’t recall that I was alone. I must have been accompanied, but I don’t remember who was with me. I don’t think I knew the person/people with me, but I think it was a large man with a dark complexion… Maybe it doesn’t matter, though, because speaking in the grand scheme of things, I felt as if I was alone.
And then guess who showed up – none other than Kyle, and he was apparently with his Boy Scout troop, but…he was wearing a bright blue satin party dress…and it was rather short as well. What?…okay then. I have no idea why that was so. But he has long blond hair, so maybe he looked like a girl and that would explain things quite well. But he was also dancing around and smiling, which was quite scary. I think I wanted to speak with him, but at the same time…wasn’t so sure. I mean, after seeing such a display, I was sure I didn’t love him anyway. I can’t recall whether or not I ate my meal, though I probably didn’t. I walked away, toward the door soon enough… And I’m going to point out that there were lots of little hyper kids playing with toys they got from Happy Meals. Just thought I’d throw that out there. I wonder how they stay up so late with so much energy…
I somehow ended up on a playground in the hilly park again. It was getting close to evening, and a great deal cloudier. Though I don’t recall the temperature being an issue. And there were many children running around and enjoying themselves. I was on top of the playground and to my surprise, I saw Kyle there across from me. Only he looked like…a very abnormal version of Tyler. Strange. Well, from what I recall, he told me that he thought of me as his girlfriend. And I was just confused, really. I told him that I wouldn’t go out with him, though I had earlier told him I loved him. So maybe he changed his mind when he thought he’d moved on after my rejection of him. Maybe he just really wanted for us to love each other somehow. He also told me that we should get to know each other, slowly, as friends, and he desperately told me that he would never break up with me. I sort of went along with what he said, just to appease him and to make myself feel less guilty on behalf of Kyle’s mental well-being.
The next scene I recall – I was in my bedroom, and it looked nothing like my actual bedroom. It was EXTREMELY large and spacious, made mostly of wood. And I left my lights on and stayed up until 11 or 12 one night as I was on my laptop, looking out the window to see my neighbor turning his barn lights off. He might’ve said something. I recall the sound of his voice – but to its significance, I don’t know. I remember doing a lot on the Internet… It seemed a lot like Neopets, but I don’t know for sure.
Well there you have it folks… You don’t have to help every little detail, just give me some main pointers… Do I really question the love between my boyfriend and I? That’s how it would seem. I am ignoring him to comfort another, who I should not be with.
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