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Love or obsession?
Long story but im devastated by it.
I met this girl like a year and a half ago. She had a boyfriend in another country, and when she was living where I live, she was with me. I did everything for her, as she was the first girl to ever let me have a taste of what it was to be with someone. Time passed, we fought.. we didnt talk for a bit more than half a year and she left to live in another country again, with her boyfriend. She broke up and came back and called me. I told her we would take things slow. We ended up dating and she became my girlfriend. She always had alot of secrets and was very moody. I would do everything to try and make things better for here since she didnt like this country. I took her out to dates, went out shopping with her (i bought everything), I would be outside her house at 5am when she would need me and I couldnt go in since she didnt have the keys and her parentes locked the door. I did so many things for this girl. Then from one day to another, things went down the drain. She started acting weird. I thought well ok, its normal things can go wrong for a while. Things never got better and we ended up talking about it and she still loves her ex, but she said she didnt want to be with him, she wanted to be with me. So I thought ok, this can work. We started fighting most of the time, she started saying things and not doing them, ever. I got tired and talked to her about it and we ended up saying we were going to fix things together. 2 days later she calls me and starts shouting at how she didnt feel like my girlfriend, how things were wrong, how I said so many things and always fought and we decided to take a break. We have talked once or twice since, because she had clothes at my house… I did so much for this girl, sacrificed so much, spent so much money, spent so much time… Her car didnt work and we dont live very close but i picked her up and took her to school everyday for a month. I just dont know what to think. Shes been my first everything and im afraid that something will never happen again. I cant even imagine myself liking someone else. Today was supposed to be our 2 “official” months together… Im just really sad all the time, i dont know what to do.. im not going to call her or anything, I can’t.. I feel like she used me for my money and time and effort, she never gave anything back. I know I should get over her and not even care anymore, and this break thing is really just a “break up”, i can feel it. Im just devastated, sad, feeling down.. I said i loved her but now im not sure, since shes acted so wrong with me maybe its just an obsession and fear of being alone forever, since i was alone always before she came around.
I know its alot to read, but just typing helped me out a bit…
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