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my boyfriend and i had been together for almost two
years(long distance but see each other every other month) my boyfriend adores the ground i walk on,i changed his life ,he seriously warships me and always says it and calls me his wife infront of everyone (without me ever mentioning marriage), and i love him to death .. and a month ago a friend of mine in another country told me that my boyfriend had been chatting with this girl online in that same country that we both travel to every year (cause we’re originally from there) and that he had been saying all this sexual stuff to her since he found out she cheated on her fiance.. he would say how he wanted to travel there just for one day to see her , and how he loves her lips and body but she kept rejecting him so SHE told my friend about it who then told ME..i contacted the girl to make sure this whole thing was true and she even sent me their conversations online.. basically i caught him and told him i know, he admitted everything, and said he was just messing around and that he was sorry , i didnt speak to him for two weeks after that, he went crazy calling and leaving messages and emails and online chat begging me to forgive him and that everyone makes mistakes and that he was just playing around and he doesn’t care about her he only wants me only me and he’d die if i kept ignoring him ..and if anyone read his messages and emails they’d clearly see he loved me and wanted only me but i didn’t care about one word he said it was nothing to me… i eventually started talking to him again ONLY ONLINE just to unload my hurt and to make sure exactly why he would have these conversations with her.. but i can’t forgive him not one bit.. i would NEVER do anything like that to him.. i would never THINK about talking to other guys like that.. everytime i ask him why? or didn’t you think about me while talking to her? he wouldn’t know what to say he would just say he was bored and that he thinks it’s fun messing around with “hoes” since he found out she cheated on her fiance…i dont know why he would jepordize our relationship..i satisfy him sexually to the maximum and that’s one of the things he adores about me since he first met me , we’re a perfect match in bed and HE was the first to say it he always says it.. And so now we’re not really togehter , but we tell people we still are.. we haven’t seen each other yet because i told him i dont want to see him ever again i told him i dont respect him anymore he’s 21 and acted like a 13 year old boy.. but i really miss his love i miss everything about him but i never tell him.. and he’s online much more now just to talk to me he sends messages on my phoen telling me what he’s doing and where he’s going.. i still dont answer his calls ..only text messages ..and he’s always asking me 29484 questions about my day and where i go and what i bought and says sorry so quickly if he says something that bothers me..he talks to me like we’re still together and i reply in a really cold way when he mentions something sexual and i change the subject..he still shows me everything new he buys on webcam like his new boxerssssss and i just dieee (just cause he wants me to SEE HIM cause he’ll keep it on even after he shows me what he bought but i never let him see me).. i can never forgive him.. the words he said to her are still in my head and will be if i ever see him..he keeps begging me to forgive him..it’s been a month and a few days and we’re still going on like this.. im travelling to that country that we’re from and i know he’s going to travel there soon to surprise me.. am i being too hard on him? do you think he will ever do it again? he wrote me tons of messages swearing he will never do it again knowing it hurt me so much and it was just one of those moments where you do something sneaky even if it’s wrong but it didnt cause harm…but i can’t trust him.. if he said those things to her doesn’t it mean he really wants her? if he was really just playing around wouldn’t he have told me about it so we could laugh about it? do you think he’s really begging to get back with me just beucase the girl rejected him? i really need good answers im dying to be with him again and at the same time im disgusted of him because i dont understand WHYyyyy he did it.. it’s the first time any guy has ever cheated on me and this was cheating “emotionally” i guess..i can’t believe im actually posting this.. i don’t like saying this but i feel i have to let you know im a very popular smart good looking girl with a sense of humor that has tons of guys after me all the time but nooo i only want my baby who is my soulmate and i haven’t spoken to anyone for help (it’s the pride hehe) .. i need help ! .. do i slowly give in when i see him (and risk that he might hurt me again and take advantage of my kindness and get away with other stuff)? or should i never let him have me again to teach him a lesson he will never forget? (my personal choice becauase i know that would kill him !! ..but i miss him :( and it would kill me too.. i miss the smell of his hair and our play wrestling fights..i miss it so much….) . . .im so depressed but also thrilled at the effort he makes just to talk to me.. what should i dooooooo ?
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