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I think i might be a manic depressant.

I’m pretty sure my mom at some point, if not still, suffers from depression and i think its hereditary. Most of the time im the happiest person you ever met, heck most of my friends think thats the only emotion that i have but sometimes i just cant hold it all together. It seems as though even the smallest of things can set it off. There’s this little voice inside my head (his name is lance) that always seems to bring me down and scenes of my own death wont stop running through my mind; it goes so far back that i remember being like nine years old riding in the back of my dads truck and wondering what it would be like to throw myself out. I’m pretty positive i wont ever actully do it because for some odd reason i remeber my mother telling me when i was really young tht the one thing you can do that god wont forgive you for is taking your own life, i dont remember the details of the conversation but that part has saved me throughout my life. I kinda want to get help but i dont want the world to see the monster behind the mask. EVeryone sees me as a person who is always clam and happy so if they really knew they wouldnt see me as the same person and i dont want to be that person that everone pitys because of their insanity. Ive been good for quite a while now but thats the problem because once i feel like ive overcome it, it all comes flooding back. i know its going to happen pretty soon probably in the next week because i can feel it building up, rattling the cage and longing for release. I eventually passes but im sick of it coming in the first place…….i dont know what to do. ps sorry for making it so long but i had a lot on my mind. this only being about 10% of it.

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heather* offline Verified User (10 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (12 minutes after post)

For one, you’re not a monster. You just have a bit of an issue. Well, maybe if you talk to someone you trust when you get these ideas it’ll help. Maybe you just have a curiousity for what it’d be like. A little odd, but I think a lot of people do it at times. But anyway, in my opinion you should talk to someone about it and try to work things out.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (15 minutes after post)

before i start i apologise in advance for the length!

i know the feeling! i think im manic depressive, with me the depression comes on for no reason at all! usually, i think about cutting (which i have nearly done) and i think about klling myself but i know io wont because i love my friends and family too much to hurt them like that! isnt there the whole thing with doctors of doctor patient confidentiality? if there is, i suggest going to a doctor! and you’d be surprised how supportive friends and family can be, i havent told any of my family though my mum knows i get depressed! my friends have been really good to me! are you close to your friends?
sorry again for the length!

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (2 hours after post)

Hello. First i’d like to say thankyou for your honesty. I know the feeling of throwing yourself out of a moving car, I have had that quite often in my passed. Second I would like to suggest that you go to your Doctor, I don’t think your at the manic stage yet but it would help you to speak with a professional. Please take heed, and Good luck.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (11 hours, 28 minutes after post)

I’d love to know how old you are. This is very fixable you know and you shouldnt be living waiting on another episode of it. It’s a chemical imbalance that is all and although everyone in the world talks to themselves in their thoughts yours are just a bit more loud and naughty. You know that you cant go on like this as you will not enjoy the ‘up’ times when you are feeling well because you are just waiting on the ‘down’ times coming.

Thing is with maybe a bit of medication and definitely talking to a professional you can turn Lance around and make him work with you. Your Mum was right when she said that taking your life is a sin but not just against God buy against the future you could have if you let some help in.

I know you dont want to say something is wrong but, you know what, something is wrong. Who would you trust the most to speak to about this? Talking to someone is the start and ifif is right no-one will know unless you tell them.

Come on there is a big world out there waiting for you to have fun. Let us try and help you enjoy it. - Regards Mas

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