life help: my dad died n me n my mom dont get on anymore n i moved out and i live with my aunty but wherever i go i bringin trouble and i mess things up. - Help.com

I’m sorry to hear what has happened and what is continuing to happen to you. I can’t say much because I have never been close to that situation… As you said yourself you think you’d truly be happy in foster care so that is still in option. If you don’t know how there is nothing wrong with asking questions and trying to figure out this. It’s a big decision so before you make it make sure you have lots of information you can use to benefit your choice. I’m very sorry to hear about your Father and that you and your Mother don’t get along to well. I hope you Aunty is taking very good care of you because what you need right now is family and I hope you can find peace with her. Maybe you can ask your Aunty for some work or to try and find some work and live with her? I think if you watch your back where you go and think twice about doing things you may see a change in some of the things you say you “bringin trouble and mess things up.” You’ve got a lot heading for you, it sounds like you are young. Try to live out there and make the best of it and see what happens.

That’s a heavy burden and I’m sorry you have to carry all of that on your shoulders. I myself used to cut, and lots. Again I can’t relate to you with your father, but I can relate to a lot of the things you are going through. I believe even if your with people that haven’t gone through the same things as you, that doesn’t make you an outcast. Sure it may feel that way, but unfortunate things have happened in your life and it’s not others responsibilities to judge you based on that. I know how you feel with not wanting to be the person you are. I really do. I used to wish at times I never existed, never breathed the air of this life I have. But I can’t change that and I am here. And you are you, that will never change. You are who you are, no one else is like you in the entire world and what I mean by that is that you are special. You are your own person, I am my own person. Not someone to be judged. I hope you can find a love for yourself because that is a great love. A hard one to grasp, but once taken, things become much easier. It’s natural to feel like the outcast, or weird, especially as a 15 year old. But open your eyes and see that you have a lot coming your way and you have much potential to live. Even though things may be hard now, you never know when they might just turn around and head the right way. The way I used to see it was the worse my life became, all I could think about is “well if this is rock-bottom, I guess theres only one place to go, right back up.” So maybe give it a little more time and some thought about what you really want to do and see what happens. =]