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I’m am loosing my mind

[elaborates…]

I can’t get a job, a friend, a love life, an ounce of pride or respect, a failure at everything I’ve tried and according my mom a “disgusting heartless person, so selfish” from my dad “weak, irresponsible, a child” my other family members despise me. My whole life I’ve never had anyone to lean on when things got tough, I keep things inside me naturally. I know Im short and ugly, not good at all with people. I am officially nothing to no one. Hate the life I live passionately.

[Wakes up quietly, after 5min I hear “whats wrong with you ? your a horrible son” it doesn’t phase me, im used to it. I search for work in the paper and online at the same time am barraged harsh comments, I watch a little TV to see people with success and a future with friends with love. I turn to the phone to call a friend…maybe I can feel be like that… the same excuse “oh uh… I don’t feel good” or “yeah I have plans” Haven’t hung out with anyone for weeks.]

I can’t sleep now, just always thinking of my pathetic life and how hard I try to make things right, it never works… maybe its just not meant for me. I think about killing myself at least twice a day and what would happen around me… Nothing, I would just miss out, death doesn’t seem like a good option. Then I think, If i go over the edge why not go out with a bang. Some bold thoughts come to mind of actions that shake the lives of others in positive and negative ways… Lately I don’t even care about my mother or father anymore, they hate me so much, why should I care ?

I DESPERATELY SEEK GUIDANCE, HELP, AID, A SHOULDER TO LEAN ON… and then remember no body wants me around, im on my own, that way its always been. I despise this life. Why couldn’t i be one of the normal people that had a little bit of SOMETHING !! a true friend, a vision of success, people to support them, a lover, some reason to live, anything. IF I was homeless was dieing of cancer, but had a love life or was at least wanted by people, I would be overjoyed to be alive.

‘will this stream cease to wander my face?’

Thank you for reading. Enjoy your life you have cause, not everyone will know what its like to be loved or wanted, weather from a family member, friend or lover. For some people, every moment of being live is emotional and spiritual AGONY ! and they don’t know where to go, no one to guide them or help.

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-Kill ME !!!

I’m am losing my mind

[elaborates…]

I can’t get a job, a friend, a love life, an ounce of pride or respect, a failure at everything I’ve tried and according my mom a “disgusting heartless person, so selfish” from my dad “weak, irresponsible, a child” my other family members despise me. My whole life I’ve never had anyone to lean on when things got tough, I keep things inside me naturally. I know Im short and ugly, not good at all with people. I am officially nothing to no one. Hate the life I live passionately.

[Wakes up quietly, after 5min I hear “whats wrong with you ? your a horrible son” it doesn’t phase me, im used to it. I search for work in the paper and online at the same time am barraged harsh comments, I watch a little TV to see people with success and a future with friends with love. I turn to the phone to call a friend…maybe I can feel be like that… the same excuse “oh uh… I don’t feel good” or “yeah I have plans” Haven’t hung out with anyone for weeks.]

I can’t sleep now, just always thinking of my pathetic life and how hard I try to make things right, it never works… maybe its just not meant for me. I think about killing myself at least twice a day and what would happen around me… Nothing, I would just miss out, death doesn’t seem like a good option. Then I think, If i go over the edge why not go out with a bang. Some bold thoughts come to mind of actions that shake the lives of others in positive and negative ways… Lately I don’t even care about my mother or father anymore, they hate me so much, why should I care ?

I DESPERATELY SEEK GUIDANCE, HELP, AID, A SHOULDER TO LEAN ON… and then remember no body wants me around, im on my own, that way its always been. I despise this life. Why couldn’t i be one of the normal people that had a little bit of SOMETHING !! a true friend, a vision of success, people to support them, a lover, some reason to live, anything. IF I was homeless was dieing of cancer, but had a love life or was at least wanted by people, I would be overjoyed to be alive.

‘will this stream cease to wander my face?’

Thank you for reading. Enjoy your life you have cause, not everyone will know what its like to be loved or wanted, weather from a family member, friend or lover. For some people, every moment of being live is emotional and spiritual AGONY ! and they don’t know where to go, no one to guide them or help.

Your doomed and lost help.com user
-Kill ME !!!