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I just got married a month ago.

I think my husband only married me because he gave me an STD.
He is a nice guy who is very responsible.
I think he is trying his best and fighting very hard to love me.
But I cannot help thinking that he only married me because I got the disease from him.
His ex-girlfriends still call him from time to time and I am losing my self-esteem every day.
I have been always a good girl.
I’ve never slept around or did anything stupid.
But I feel like I am being punished for life.

I want to hurt myself and I did try to but myself to death a few days ago.
I was too much of coward to actually kill myself.

I don’t know what I am living for. I want to kill myself, but I want to do it without much pain. I just want to die in my sleep.
Any ideas?

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bookworm16 offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 80 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months ago (1 minute after post)

I can’t give you ideas for hurting yourself … but have you tried talking to your husband about this?

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jun_b offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (3 minutes after post)

He thinks I am a muppet. He said I just need to figure it out.
But I don’t know what he means by that.

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live.enjoylife offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 31 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months ago (4 minutes after post)

i say TALK about it with him. two of you seek counseling. if thats true then you can get out of the marriage and move on, start new, feel better and you wont have wasted too much more.

sorry that sounds so hurtful and also - HAVe to address it so you can fix it or move on.

why kill yourself? if he wont go to counseling or talk, then DO get out. who wants a life with someone like that who you cant talk to?

this is a good thing to know now, up front, not 3 kids later, way deep into it.

you’ll be ok girl - see a minister or counselor and bring him.

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live.enjoylife offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 31 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months ago (5 minutes after post)

muppet schmuppet.
he needs to grow up and address concerns of your marriage.
or else the muppet can find a new wife.

you could be right. maybe he does want out. if so better to know now….dont be scared - i know it sux but better to know the truth - move on - you’ll find someone to love you even if this guy sux at it.

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bookworm16 offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 80 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months ago (5 minutes after post)

Hmmm … no, I’m not sure what he means by that either. I think you just need to sit down with him and make him listen, tell him everything. Don’t let something that happened, which may or may not have caused your marriage, break up your marriage.

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Winter.Rain offline Verified User (3 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months ago (7 minutes after post)

Muppet = being manipulated or having someones had up your ***?
I know this doesn’t help, though If he was responsible, how did he get the STD.
If you feel this way now I’d say start lookin to get out of the marriage and find someone that really cares. Your gut instincts are usually correct.
Take care.

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jun_b offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (11 minutes after post)

I will be a divorced girl in my 20s with an STD.
I am afraid that no one will ever love me.

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phuckit! offline Verified User (3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 73 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (12 minutes after post)

it’s better than being an unhappy married girl to a jerk of a guy with an std

hmmmm which one

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live.enjoylife offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 31 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months ago (18 minutes after post)

no no NO girl!
dont define yourself that way!!!
TWO of the coolest guys I’ve ever met married people with STD’s.

dont say /think that — not true.

if already you feel so crushed/defeated - gotta focus on changing that. you are worthy and lovable…..i say same as winter rain….try to address or just get out. it IS better than living in loveless cold marriage.

so waht we all make mistakes..no point in staying in them….
you are NOt your std….

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steff offline Verified User (4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 107 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (25 minutes after post)

I’m sorry sorry sweetie. It doesn’t matter that you have the STD, you are a lovable person. We all are! Please just know that, even though you’re going through a rough time right now, that there are always better days ahead! Why is it that you think your husband doesn’t really love you? Have you told him it upsets you when he talks to his ex-girlfriends? Maybe he just doesn’t know you’re questioning the relationship. But if he really doesn’t care you deserve so much better. And please don’t harm yourself.

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3 months ago (5 hours, 6 minutes after post)

Don’t be afraid of what might happen if you talk to your husband about it. He has no right to treat you that way and still talking to other girls. My husband was the same way, talking to other girls and he cheated on me so many times. Don’t try to hurt yourself. And if you talk to him and doesn’t want to listen you don’t have to be living that way, no one has to live that way.,. Take care of yourself.

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