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ok so i know i shouldnt have done it.

ive been trying to stay clean lately, away from all the drugs

but its so hard, theres nothing to do in my town.
i wont go anywhere because i have anxiety.
and the internet gets boring sometimes.

and to keep myself from like killing myself, i use drugs.

i used to cut, and got out of that.

ive smoked pot, took vicodin and zany bars, snorted coke, eaten shrooms, licked acid.

but im sick of it, i dont want to be that way.
i stopped everything for months, but i couldnt take it anymore and took vicodin.

im real smart, but i seriously cant go anywhere without being miserable, and i get bored.

it seems like the only thing i can do is drugs, just to feel better.

i need to distract myself from them, a friend that also has anxiety is now on anti-depressants, and she told me it would help, she stopped doing drugs and they make her feel great.

im thinking about getting on them, it would help me out i think.

if any of you guys have suggestions or can help me out, that would be great.

i dont need to go to rehab, so dont say that.
dont talk bad about me either,your here to help not make someone feel worse about themself.

im going to go lay down, i hope for some posts when i get back.

thanks

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2 months ago (4 minutes after post)

Good for you! I’m glad you want to change!
I take anti-depressants, but I don’t really need them. However, I advise you to try them instead of harming yourself with drugs.
And video games bore me. :D
I suggest you go out and be with nature, take a walk, exercise - that always makes me happy. :)

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Radiohead_Phreak offline Verified User (1 year, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 9 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months ago (8 minutes after post)

wow were both in the same boat however i dont use drugs but i find myself constantly bored!!!
try hanging out with different friends that get high through adrenlin. perhaps you can go mountain climbing, sky diving or hang gliding.. i personally cant out of my price range for now.. soo ill just continue to ride my bike reclkessly without a hemlet..

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chev.jame offline Verified User (4 months, 4 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 27 #
An Unknown Location | 1 month, 4 weeks ago (18 minutes after post)

You will need some help kicking the drugs. You need to see a doctor to get a full medical checkup–check for depression and things like that. No judgments, kid. You’re very talented and accomplished . . . you need some things to focus on to avoid boredom. The drugs will just mess you up, and can get you busted. How about writing a new song? I’m working on a novel right now . . . it’s keeping me sane as I wait for the immigration officials here in my adoptive land to get off their duff!

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*ALEX*_/,,/_ offline Verified User (3 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 1 month, 4 weeks ago (29 minutes after post)

mm i love special k and acid

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steff online Verified User (3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 459 #
An Unknown Location | 1 month, 4 weeks ago (32 minutes after post)

Rev, we love you here! And we only want the best for you. Looks like you already have a good, sober friend to lean on?

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*ALEX*_/,,/_ offline Verified User (3 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 1 month, 4 weeks ago (34 minutes after post)

if i take drugs its cuz i am a kids but u need to pass this this is a game for kids drugs is a pass time

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Reverend Twitch offline Verified User (2 months, 3 weeks) Shouts: 49 #
An Unknown Location | 1 month, 4 weeks ago (1 hour, 50 minutes after post)

thank you everyone :D

yes, i like video games

and i cant go out really, anxiety’s that bad

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Ell♥ offline Verified User (9 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 358 #
An Unknown Location | 1 month, 4 weeks ago (8 hours, 1 minute after post)

Ok so what sort of things do you do for fun apart from drugs?

Can you have friends round your house or go to other houses?

You could to to the docs, tell them what you’ve told us. And they could put you on something more suited to you…theres other kinds of supressants and anti-anxiety meds that may be more useful to yoursituation.

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smoogie. offline Verified User (3 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 242 #
An Unknown Location | 1 month, 4 weeks ago (13 hours, 32 minutes after post)

You have some great advice here. I hope you find the strength to go to the Doctor. I think some prescription drugs will do you the world of good. Also ask about councelling if you can. Hope you find happiness soon.

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chev.jame offline Verified User (4 months, 4 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 27 #
An Unknown Location | 1 month, 4 weeks ago (13 hours, 43 minutes after post)

Now, get off your behind and see your doctor! Don’t hold anything back. You are a beautiful person with unbounded potential and a great life ahead of you. Don’t sacrifice your life to either depression or drugs! Take that all important first step today! We’re really rooting for ya, kid!

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raulcarreon6 offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 1 month, 4 weeks ago (1 day, 22 hours after post)

yo take it from a former abuser and go outside! dont worry about that anxiety bullcrap cause once your out there it goes away! get together with some friends and have a cook out or go out to the club! even if you only go out to drink i garantee youll find some one to talk too! if this doesnt help hit me up at i> small>(email removed) /small> /i> and we will come up with more ideas for you to get over that proble! oh! if you wanna just caht you can find me there and on www.myspace.com/raulcarreon69 dont be a stranger now!

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llldenlll offline Verified User (1 month, 3 weeks) Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 1 month, 3 weeks ago (5 days after post)

Dude just find something that’d more interesting than your boring drug life. YOu are not special. There is thousands of you in the small boring towns. But if you wanna get rid of this **** you have to change all your life and the most important you have to find something that’d be a lot more exciting for you than drug attics life

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Reverend Twitch offline Verified User (2 months, 3 weeks) Shouts: 49 #
An Unknown Location | 1 month, 3 weeks ago (5 days, 5 hours after post)

im trying to, im putting all my effort to.

but i cant, there really isnt anything to do, at all.

i tell my mom this, and she just says wait until your older

i cant wait though..

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i took out all the bad influences, anything negative, i have a good job that i LOVE, and im real smart.

there really isnt anything to do, i mean..there is but nothing my anxiety will let me do.

i want help sooo bad

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❝ TJ ❞ offline Verified User (1 year, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 133 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 month, 2 weeks ago (1 week, 4 days after post)

The drugs are undoubtedly going to affect your anxiety, especially if you keep using. My advice would be to join NA. It sounds like you’ve got a pretty decent history of abuse and, with what I believe is your interest in the music scene, it’s going to be hard to stay clean on your own. There’s probably a history of addiction somewhere in your family, so this might be in your genes whether you like it or not. It’s “curable” though, in the sense that you really can stay clean and happy if your willing to work a program. You sound like a bright kid, Twitch, so try putting your creative energies into something more positive.

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ziggo929 offline Verified User (1 month, 2 weeks) Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 1 month, 2 weeks ago (1 week, 6 days after post)

Ummm with anxiety you really shouldn’t be going onto anti-depressants and really with studies most of them don’t work as well as the big corps would like you to believe. I’d say talk to a doctor about benzodiazepines, specifically a long-acting one such as Klonopin, not in a recreational dose but a small amount as needed.

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