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im 15 and ive been battling w/ depression for a year now.
my parents are divorced, and ever since then ive been kind of rebellious. my sister is 18 and shes gorgeous. people say im pretty too but shes beautiful. she has everything, a big butt, big boobs, shes talented, smart and can get any guy she wants. i feel like i cant compare to her. ever since i entered high school with her in her senior year & my freshman year, all the guys i know tell me how fine she is and how they want to get with her. ive gotten a few boyfriends buti cant last with them for longer than a month. every boy i like turns me down for someone better or with a better body. i dont know what i do wrong. im skinny and im not anorexic or anything ive always been like this and i eat all the time. i dont know why i dont gain weight. people always say i look sad because i walk around school depressed. i dont know how to hide so much feeling i have inside of me. i have no one to talk to, i dont have true friends that i cant trust. i have a bad relationship with my mother, and i could never talk tomy sister about it cause she wouldnt understand her being perfect and all. i just hate everything about myself. and i know i dont have a bad life like others do but i feel empty and broken. i have no self esteem. i dont know what to do. ive thought about suicide, but i know im not going to do it. ive even turned to drugs. i feel like i cant go on anymore. im so unperfect its like everybody can see my flaws. i cry myself to sleep sometimes because i feel so alone. i know God is there for me, but i dont know why he hasnt helped me get past this. i feel horrible, i feel like theres nothing good about me. i cant live like this anymore.
please help me
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