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im 15 and ive been battling w/ depression for a year now.

my parents are divorced, and ever since then ive been kind of rebellious. my sister is 18 and shes gorgeous. people say im pretty too but shes beautiful. she has everything, a big butt, big boobs, shes talented, smart and can get any guy she wants. i feel like i cant compare to her. ever since i entered high school with her in her senior year & my freshman year, all the guys i know tell me how fine she is and how they want to get with her. ive gotten a few boyfriends buti cant last with them for longer than a month. every boy i like turns me down for someone better or with a better body. i dont know what i do wrong. im skinny and im not anorexic or anything ive always been like this and i eat all the time. i dont know why i dont gain weight. people always say i look sad because i walk around school depressed. i dont know how to hide so much feeling i have inside of me. i have no one to talk to, i dont have true friends that i cant trust. i have a bad relationship with my mother, and i could never talk tomy sister about it cause she wouldnt understand her being perfect and all. i just hate everything about myself. and i know i dont have a bad life like others do but i feel empty and broken. i have no self esteem. i dont know what to do. ive thought about suicide, but i know im not going to do it. ive even turned to drugs. i feel like i cant go on anymore. im so unperfect its like everybody can see my flaws. i cry myself to sleep sometimes because i feel so alone. i know God is there for me, but i dont know why he hasnt helped me get past this. i feel horrible, i feel like theres nothing good about me. i cant live like this anymore.

please help me

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hockeysticksgir offline Verified User (5 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Cherry Hill, NJ, US | 2 months ago (7 minutes after post)

i feel you.
my brother and i have the same
age difference… i also have
a younger brother and all my life
i watch my older brother become an
awesome soccer, hockey, student,baseball,
everything. everyone says my little brother
is so cool and cute. i hate being compared.
i have learned to control it. whenever
a guy says id hit your sister or something
gay like that say “yeah i heard my sister
wants to start dating 15 year olds” or something
funny that makes them look semi-stupid. =]
i hope i helped.

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singleeyedwonder offline Verified User (2 months) Shouts: 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 months ago (10 minutes after post)

Anon, I know what you’re going through. I’m a guy, so it’s a little different, but I have had similar problems… bouts with depression, etc.

I am also a Christian, and I know God’s there for you. Sometimes he says “no” when you ask him to help you through things… and we can’t see how it will help us. But years down the road, there may be another girl who feels upset and suicidal and won’t listen to anyone because no one understands her… and you will be the person that understands because you’ve been through it.

I hope you stick with life, y’know? You have a lot left to live for.

Let’s keep the dialogue up, though

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srood13 offline Verified User (2 months) Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months ago (12 minutes after post)

Everyone is imperfect. You’re young, don’t do anything rash. If you’ve had boy friends already then you’re way ahead of the game and will probably get your share of attention for years to come. You don’t need to live up to or even be like anyone else.

… you could always crawl into yourself. Read books all day, or take up art, sports, something other than boys and socializing. Find out who you are when you’re left all by yourself. You’ll feel bored and maybe empty for a while, but that’s when you’ll find what really captivates you.

It’s hard not to care what other people think, but you know it really doesn’t matter.

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kylegirl offline Verified User (3 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months ago (19 hours, 39 minutes after post)

i think you should try talking to your sister. if you and her are close, you might benefit from it, and you never know: she might not think her life is all that perfect. i find that a lot of people who are like that on the outsidde, feel differently on the inside. if you’ve thought about suicide, then you definitely need to talk to someone, and drugs aren’t any better. try your parents, or another trusted adult.

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lalaal offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 1 month, 3 weeks ago (5 days, 12 hours after post)

dont worry
keep smiling

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