Does anyone know me here?
I’m having one of those crazy moments of self-doubt and I really need to get it all sorted out. When I look at my life and the things I’m proud of, the only thing that I honestly like myself for is the way I present myself online. I feel like I’m a completely different person online. In real life, I’m completely sarcastic and cynical. I’m awkward and crazy and, oddly enough, almost constantly happy. I show no emotions to anyone outside my family. I think six people have seen me cry since I turned ten. My sister, my parents, my friend Jenna, and my aunt and uncle. That’s all I can think of. Honestly, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. And then I sit back and look at who I am online, and I wonder if I’m even noticed. If the things I say, or the things that I get off my mind here have a meaning at all. I’m crazy to think that the internet means anything, but I guess I am crazy, because it means something to me. I just have to know. What do people really think of me?
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I act different online too, I think lots of us do. We can cover up some online. I’m depressed in rl, but I can hide that online. Think of this - your online persona is important - you’re immortalizing part of yourself online :)
who are you again?
actually, to answer that, i would have to say that there is relatively little notice of anyone on help.com. we are all in our own lives seperated.
the only exception are the close and personal friends you make.
people may notice you if you talk to them, but they forget quickly.
but i know that your a good user mittens, and i havent talked to you any to konw anything otherwise.
I tend to see that people label others online. Not clique-type labels, but rather impressions they get from their posts and replies. It’s probably different with other websites, but here, we definitely have our own kinds of people. I just want to know what people think when they see my name, or my replies. Like “what a b*tch!” or “ugh, how annoying” or “teenaged angst case!”
I’m too quick to judge, and I hate that about myself. But I also know I’m not the only one. So… I guess I just want to know who I am here.
Well I don’t think I’ve ever seen any of your posts before (I’m fairly new), but from this thread I get the impression that you’re a deep thinker, which I like in people. Your thread makes me wonder about people’s online persona vs the real them. And it’s always good to make people think :)
your someone I’ve spoken with before in chat and seen occasionally
but you haven’t been in there for a while so we really didn’t get the chance to be close
You are noticed, many people like you and you are a good person, I remember that day when you first came here, we all loved you right away:D
Thanks :)
This is kind of a shallow thing to do, isn’t it? I’ve never really had a happy post. I only post when I’m upset and/or in a deeply philosophical mood. Or dead tired. Usually all of the above.
I don’t care if someone says something bad about me, either. I’ve been bitchy lately. And rather snarky. Kind of like real life, only better thought out.
The best thing about the internet is people can say whatever the hell’s on their mind, and take their time with it, too. No judgments through appearance or any of that sh*t. Just mind to mind.
At least, when people can talk in coherent sentences and spell-check a bit.
I never gave a lot of thought to what your username means, but I love summertime, and who doesn’t like mittens? So your name is comprised of two images that are warm and reassuring. I don’t know you all that well, but I remember you did a post about stuff you’ve learned in life or on the site, and I thought it was very mature.
Youre the GENius behind the SPOrk phenomena! Naaaw - thats not who you are…just one of your many talents!! I know what I know - you seem to have a good heart, an open one, and be creative and kind. but noone really knows anyone anyway do they? hehe just thought id say that. Hey - I saw a spork for sale in the store the other day - it was actually a plastic ladybug - that opened into a spork!!! Isnt that weird?! It was 10 bucks!! ANYway mittens - regardless of who you are where - I like ya sister. xx
On your profile, the little bar graph at the top with blue and green bars (showing how much you’ve posted and replied) says that the most replies you have had in a single day recently is 14. The people who seem to know each other well here, as well as possible over the internet anyway, are spending hours a day on the site and replying dozens of times. THAT’S why we seem to have memorable personalities, why we shout and reply to each other with such familiarity and why we burn out. Mas1s had 191 replies one day! I love her to death, but when she throws her monitor through a window I won’t be surprised. Some of us eat, drink and breath this place. You have a positive persona but aren’t on that much.
Mittens you know I adore you. You are definitely one of my favs. You are witty, wise, playful, intelligent, and very sweet. I remember when I first started interacting with you I thought you were an adult. I was shocked to find out your age, because you had intellectually dept and wisdom beyond your years. Sometimes I think you are just to darn smart for you own good and that this causes you to consistently over think things. You have had a lot going on with your family, yet you seem to be over all a positive person. I don’t believe for one second that the girl I talk to on here is the real person. There are a few people on here who don’t like to let down their walls or they try to act like someone they are not, but that is clearly not you. I am guessing you are actually more yourself here than you are in the other world. Maybe you need to work on bringing the Ally we know to your daily life. It is really hard at your age to have a clear perspective on who you are. I know when I look back I was just crazy out of my mind when I was your age, so I think you have be beat on having your crap together. You can’t solve all your problems in one day, nor can you be everything you want to be in your teens. Seriously, how fun would it be if you didn’t have things to fix and perfect throughout your life. Being perfect would be BORING!! I think that the trip you are going on soon will help center you more and you will be able to be yourself with friend. You are going to have such an awesome time. Remember you are a beautiful, wise, witty, passionate young lady who has the world to conquer, but you have at least 80 year to get the job done, so there is no need to hurry. Also, you give the best virtual hugs EVER! :]
*superrollingflyingwufflebearhuggles*
sansceriph wrote:
You have a positive persona but aren’t on that much.
Sans, Mittens is actually on a decent amount a time. She is on enough time that I think I have a pretty clear sense of who she is. I have interacted with her for quite sometime. You are right being on here to much is not healthy. I think when you have been around long enough to don’t have to spend as much time on here, because you have already found at least a few good people to call friends.
Hey, Mittens, you’re cool. I think that just about sums it up. And if you’re feeling bad, well, welcome to help.com! That’s why we’re here.
And aren’t we all different online? It gives us a chance to try again, to have a fresh slate. And to seem more or less crazy than in real life, because when are we really going to interact with eachother besides here? So, Mittens, I deem you cool. Stay that way.
I don’t know who you are but I like your avatar. Keep coming back I am sure to see you around.=)
Thank you, everyone, so freaking much. I was down in the dumps again today, and I logged on to find all these amazing replies. Thank you.
I don’t think I can say that enough, so thank you again.
By the way, to anyone that was wondering, my name comes from a song by The Dresden Dolls. “Anyone can see the signs, mittens in the summertime…”
It’s a song about self-harm, but I saw it as something about hiding. Besides, MittensInSummertime is a pretty cool name, right?
Thank you again. It meant a lot.
MittensInSummertime is an awesome name!
I really think what you think of yourself is more important that what anyone else thinks about you, but from what I’ve seen of you, you seem level headed and your fun, I probably don’t know you as well as some others, but so far so good… I like you.
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 4 months ago (6 days, 15 hours after post)
Mitten’s I didn’t answer your post originally, because I didn’t really know what to say. I still don’t but I’ve been invited again, so I’d give it a shot. Personally, you are NOT invisible. I have taken note of your posts and / or replies on several occasions. But don’t look to me for your reward… or to Fizz or Charlie (although both are pretty dang good)… look to yourself. Remember, those that do not go within, will ultimately go without.
Bright blessings ~ Richard
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