life help: Buddha said that when the bodies emotions are all dealt with the only thing that would remain is happiness. - Help.com

three days ago I was launched into a similar state after having a mental overload. Previous to the state I was launched in, I had just begun getting in touched with many different repressed emotions that I had, and I had begun to taste true bliss and new ways of looking at life (the zenith of an intense year-long spiritual journey.)

But then, after reading way too much, I was launched into that terrible place where I felt I was about to die every moment. I was hanging on by a thread to this life, but still there were no emotions.

For the following two days there were no emotions. Music existed only in a cave.

But, that part of my brain which was being pinched, slowly began to ease a little.

I spent the entire day yesterday outside in nature on green grass, in the sun, in front of trees, by the lake. I lay there, layers and layers of being being filled with the colors and the intelligence of nature.

Still barely any trace of emotion, but hope, and tastes.

My pain began to ease.

Later I went to pick up some food, filled with the void.

Then I decided to ask myself “Where is the void?”

“What is the void?”

I realized the void as real existing entity.

I started to see the good sides of the void.

I saw that the void was a shield. I could think of old horrible memories and become healed.

I saw that the void was amazing for poetry (me wanting to be a poet.)

I saw that the void was a huge mass of potential energy.

I saw that the void, upon it becoming only a part of myself, began slowly to transform.

That night I talked to many wise and amazing spiritual people. I was pentrated by their being and their hippiness.

One tilted his head smiling at me. He is an old man with greying facial hair, a long beard. A free spirit. Almost free of time. So sincere and appreciative of every piece of life.

All different kinds of people.

I felt like a baby, no attitude, but slowly learning emotions, learning. And then, deeper into the night. I was so happy! So happy again!!

Connecting so much, so full of life. So happy to focus on whatever.

I have been so happy since. I am recovering. Writing. Feeling. Life is full. And I have learned so much from the void this year.

Your thoughts get in the way of the truth.

The subconscious is 1,000,000 times stronger than the conscious. Your reason is only your conscious mind. There is so much more than your reason.

Your heart and your instinct, they are so much more powerful. Scientifically it is proven so. And poetically it is proven so.

Read some poetry by Rilke.

Bodies emotions, physical and mental.
The true state of immorality is only a blind faith,
which indeed creates happiness.

Your fault is allowing things to happen.
You are watching and engulfing everything around you.
You believe that by understanding and evaluating you can ease your emotion,
but really, you are just excusing it and holding it in, it is slowly seeping out in the form of, “not happiness”, as blunt as that sounds.

The state of meditation Buddha talks about is more than you can simply evaluate.

The meaning of life is happiness,
or in your case, happiness is meaningless.
The meaning of life is meaningless. That sounds exciting.

Experience it.
Live it.
Things are as things will forever be, not in what they are tomorrow or yesterday, but what is now is what they are.

*leaves*

Its figurative.

The Unbearable Lightness of Being is an interesting book.

Here is an interesting poem:

The Mind of Absolute Trust

The great way isn’t difficult for those who are unattached to their preferences.

Let go of longing and aversion, and everything will be perfectly clear.

When you cling to a hairbreadth of distinction, heaven and earth are set apart.

If you want to realize the truth, don’t be for or against.

The struggle between good and evil is the primal disease of the mind.

Not grasping the deeper meaning, you just trouble your minds serenity.

As vast as infinite space, it is perfect and lacks nothing.

But because you select and reject, you can’t perceive its true nature.

Don’t get entangled in the world; don’t lose yourself in emptiness.

Be at peace in the oneness of things, and all errors will disappear by themselves.

If you don’t live the Tao, you fall into assertion or denial.

Asserting that the world is real, you are blind to its deeper reality;

denying that the world is real, you are blind to the selflessness of all things.

The more you think about these matters, the farther you are from the truth.

Step aside from all thinking, and there is nowhere you can’t go.

Returning to the root, you find the meaning;

chasing appearances, you lose there source.

At the moment of profound insight, you transcend both appearance and emptiness.

Don’t keep searching for the truth; just let go of your opinions.

For the mind in harmony with the Tao, all selfishness disappears.

With not even a trace of self-doubt, you can trust the universe completely.

All at once you are free, with nothing left to hold on to.

All is empty, brilliant, perfect in its own being.

In the world of things as they are, there is no self, no non self.

If you want to describe its essence, the best you can say is “Not-two.”

In this “Not-two” nothing is separate, and nothing in the world is excluded.

The enlightened of all times and places have entered into this truth.

In it there is no gain or loss; one instant is ten thousand years.

There is no here, no there; infinity is right before your eyes.

The tiny is as large as the vast when objective boundaries have vanished;

the vast is as small as the tiny when you don’t have external limits.

Being is an aspect of non-being; non-being is no different from being.

Until you understand this truth, you won’t see anything clearly.

One is all; all are one. When you realize this, what reason for holiness or wisdom?

The mind of absolute trust is beyond all thought, all striving,

is perfectly at peace, for in it there is no yesterday, no today, no tomorrow.