friends help: Iam 47, diagnoisis severe depression reacurrent no pshycosis, remeber depression as far back as 12. - Help.com

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I admire the way you can continue to move forward, you are a wonderful example to many. I might just put one thing out there for you to think about. I’ve been where you are (starting back to school)and learned from hindsight. Like you I waited to start school until I found work. Well, work (by the time I found some) was still hardly enough to live on, so I ended up getting school loans anyway. If I had started school when I had first decided to go back (and not waited for the work) I would have been well done with the degree and better equipped to find an even better job. Just another way to look at things.

i hope your new fiance will understand and comfort you when you need or ask for help, because you need constant attention, and when something is said to you that you did’nt want hear will trigger anxiety…your new marriage will also be in jeopardy. concentrate on you first…go to school or get that job (doing both will add more pressure) and with a new mate will only complicate both your lives. you need money first to pay for school…so work first, save your tuition, then go to school…do your research on your carreer goal on the internet, before and after work…(only a suggestion; when your home relaxing, try smokin’…it will calm you and helps with pain issues…the paranoia you feel can be controlled by you (remember this)…it also helps tone down anger). when you figure out what makes you the happiest…stay with that, work on that, reflect on that every time depression starts its’ phase. your an easy target for people to take advantage and you allow it to happen which is NOT your fault. your past is in the past…do not reflect on those negative times..take back control of your life. the depression will probably never go away, but when you see yourself in a year or two and you’ve taken control of your own life again…your needs will be less and you can begin letting people back in.

wow, i really hope you feel better and wish you luck…