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What is wrong with me?

I mean that in the mental sense, that is.
My dog ruins everything. Literally, materialistically.
She just chewed the cord to my two hundred dollar limited edition hair straightener.
Shouldn’t I be livid? Screaming and upset?
I tried to. I tried to be upset. But I’m not.
It’s not that I’m blessed with being non-attached to materialistic items.
It’s that I am not attached at all. Not to reality. I’m merely floating, standing, sitting on Earth.
Sympathy, empathy, emotion, are all things I lack. Things that escaped my body, soul and mind many moons ago. Yet my hands still shake.
And tears will even spring from my eyes, yet. I have no emotion.
Does this make any sense?
I want to be angry about the things she breaks. I want to be upset about something, anything, yet I cannot.

I’m aware how ‘emo’ this all sounds. But I’m desperately trying now.
My apathy has taken over.

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Nante offline Verified User (1 year, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 29 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 4 months ago (2 minutes after post)

Eh you have emotion, your just not emotional, so what, you seem confused, is that not an emotion.

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Dan TL offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
La Mirada, CA, US | 1 year, 4 months ago (4 minutes after post)

is it that you don’t care about anything thing, like if you got of your house and you’d just be like “…alright”, cause there is a word for that. My friends neighbor had that he got his car towed and all the said was “oh well, im hungry” he got kicked out of his house and all he said was “fine” things like that.

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(>'')>~~~Kyle offline Verified User (1 year, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 6 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 4 months ago (8 minutes after post)

Nante wrote:
Eh you have emotion, your just not emotional, so what, you seem confused, is that not an emotion.

I guess i kinda agree with this in a sense. But maybe it’s cause u love the dog too much to be mad at him/her ;P. Wish i could help but i don’t really know how..

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rrxapture offline Verified User (2 years, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Indianapolis, IN, US | 1 year, 4 months ago (10 minutes after post)

It’s not that. I mean, I just don’t get upset about anything.
The only thing I enjoy doing is being alone. Watching movies. Etc etc.
It’s weird. :|
But whatever.

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(>'')>~~~Kyle offline Verified User (1 year, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 6 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 4 months ago (17 minutes after post)

:D sounds like you need a friend ;P

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rrxapture offline Verified User (2 years, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Indianapolis, IN, US | 1 year, 4 months ago (23 minutes after post)

Haa. :]
Nice winkey-face.
Sadly, I don’t really like anyone.
I mean. I’m friends with almost everyone at my school [there are only about two hundred of us]. And many others.. But. I don’t really like any of them enough to .. yeah.
Not making sense. I know.

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(>'')>~~~Kyle offline Verified User (1 year, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 6 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 4 months ago (25 minutes after post)

lol. Makes sense to me. I’ve got my group of buddies i hang out with (they smoke pot ;P, but i don’t). They aren’t best buddies or nothing, but they except me hanging around them lol. haha, ;P it’s a cool face i know lol

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Marchie offline Verified User (1 year, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 4 months ago (26 minutes after post)

I think i might relate to how you feel rrxapture. I have often felt an indifference to situations in life where others have perhaps had much stronger feelings or emotions. People have often said I should care more when actually if I’m honest I don’t - which is when I’ve often asked what’s wrong with me then?

When i’ve tried to make sense of it myself people have told me that having or not having a feeling cannot be questioned or made to be something different. What you feel is what you feel. That is if you feel indifference then that is what you feel and someone cannot say you should be feeling something different. The immediate feeling you have at the precise moment in time is the feeling you have and cannot be questioned - however what led you to have that feeling can be questioned and depending on what you learn might mean you feel something different in the future if the event happens again.

Does any of this make any sense? Not sure if I’m explaining it correctly.

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(>'')>~~~Kyle offline Verified User (1 year, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 6 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 4 months ago (29 minutes after post)

:D go marchie ;P

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rrxapture offline Verified User (2 years, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Indianapolis, IN, US | 1 year, 4 months ago (32 minutes after post)

Marchie wrote:
I think i might relate to how you feel rrxapture. I have often felt an indifference to situations in life where others have perhaps had much stronger feelings or emotions. People have often said I should care more when actually if I’m honest I don’t - which is when I’ve often asked what’s wrong with me then? When i’ve tried to make sense of it myself people have told me that having or not having a feeling cannot be questioned or made to be something different. What you feel is what you feel. That is if you feel indifference then that is what you feel and someone cannot say you should be feeling something different. The immediate feeling you have at the precise moment in time is the feeling you have and cannot be questioned - however what led you to have that feeling can be questioned and depending on what you learn might mean you feel something different in the future if the event happens again. Does any of this make any sense? Not sure if I’m explaining it correctly.

It makes sense, but the only thing is; I wasn’t always like this.
I mean, I used to be the passionate puesdo-writer type, who would binge on emotion in order to write a piece or three. And now, I can’t write. I’m seemingly unable to perform any tasks I once did with ease. And it’s all due to this **** apathy. Ha.
I’m just curious to see if anyone else has gone through this, and found a quote ‘cure’.

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rrxapture offline Verified User (2 years, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Indianapolis, IN, US | 1 year, 4 months ago (32 minutes after post)

..I’m not sure what I said that deserved to be stared out.. But. Okay. :]

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tricky offline Verified User (3 years) Long Term User Shouts: 41 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 4 months ago (39 minutes after post)

ur just a s*l*t

ok you feel that :P see you have emotions ^_^

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tricky offline Verified User (3 years) Long Term User Shouts: 41 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 4 months ago (39 minutes after post)

i cant belive i wrote sl*t wrong hehehe ^_^ f*c*

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tricky offline Verified User (3 years) Long Term User Shouts: 41 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 4 months ago (41 minutes after post)

ok let’s go back to business ^_^ , what do you think ticked off ur emotions and stuff ?

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Marchie offline Verified User (1 year, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 4 months ago (43 minutes after post)

I’d liked to be able to say for sure what ‘cure’ there might be. Unfortunately I think I’m still looking myself.

Can you use what you are ‘feeling’ at this moment in your writing? The fact you have identified apathy and have questions concerning it might be a basis of writing and might help you learn about it in the process.

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rrxapture offline Verified User (2 years, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Indianapolis, IN, US | 1 year, 4 months ago (45 minutes after post)

Marchie wrote:
I’d liked to be able to say for sure what ‘cure’ there might be. Unfortunately I think I’m still looking myself. Can you use what you are ‘feeling’ at this moment in your writing? The fact you have identified apathy and have questions concerning it might be a basis of writing and might help you learn about it in the process.

Perhaps. But hey, if you find a cure, let me know.

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Marchie offline Verified User (1 year, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 4 months ago (47 minutes after post)

Will let you know for sure - if you find one before me you let me know too :)

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rrxapture offline Verified User (2 years, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Indianapolis, IN, US | 1 year, 4 months ago (52 minutes after post)

But of course. :]

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Marchie offline Verified User (1 year, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 4 months ago (55 minutes after post)

In response to you original question ‘What is wrong with me?’ - I don’t think there is anything wrong with you. To be asking the questions you have I think is normal and can be healthy part of learning about the person you are. Everyone has light and dark within them and it’s both of these things that make us who we are. Learning to understand them rather than bury them is part of becoming a more complete person I think.

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SingerInPurple offline Verified User (1 year, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 10 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 4 months ago (2 hours, 33 minutes after post)

you and me both rrxapture.

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Dragon_Lady offline Verified User (1 year, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 5 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 4 months ago (8 hours, 56 minutes after post)

post traumatic stress syndrome? Maybe see a counsellor and find out if there’s something serious going on.

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