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It’s not your fault if you didn’t do anything unhealthy during the pregnancy. Still births can happen for many reasons, and sometimes they don’t even know why. Was your baby full term? No you shouldn’t die. Your baby wouldn’t have wanted that.
it died inside of me when i was in labour i was the full 9 months pregnant.
its my fault i want to be with my baby!
I know, I know. Share your pain with us. I know there’s nothing worse in the world than coming out of the hospital without your baby.
what am i supposed to do! all i feel is pain .. even the tears hurt now .. i have no one
Why do you think it was your fault?
i dont know i must have done something wronge to cause this it doesnt just happen to anyone .. it happens to me !!!
You have no one? No husband?
Babies aren’t still born through any fault of yours.
It definately wasn’t a result of anything you did.
Some babies just cant cope with the birth and its too hard for them.
no husband no family just me and my dead baby .. =[
I’m very sorry to hear that you lost your baby. I don’t believe that this was in any way your fault. This sort of thing does happen I’m afraid, but you can’t stop living because of it. It must be tough, and you need to mourn the loss. It’s perfectly natural to feel this way. But just hold on and keep going.
i dont know i must have done something wronge to cause this it doesnt just happen to anyone .. it happens to me !!!
It happened to me too. It’s not your fault. I know it takes a long time to get over this. I blamed myself too for a LONG time. Because you’re the baby’s mama and feel that you should have protected him, and saved him. But this was beyond your control. The baby knew you loved him/her because he lived inside you for 9 months and felt the love in your heart.
It’s going to hurt for a long time, but the pain will lessen as time goes on. You can make it through this.
how will i make it through with no one thoug..??
i just want to be held and loved
My baby was breech, and my cervix closed around his neck and strangled him to death. I carried unimaginable guilt for years that my own body killed my baby. Your body didn’t betray you that way. It was less your fault than mine was my fault - and mine wasn’t my fault.
how will i make it through with no one thoug..??i just want to be held and loved
And you deserve to be held and loved.
It may not mean much, but we are here for you. And anytime you want to come on here and talk, you are welcome. If I’d have known about this place when it happened to me I would have come here. I couldn’t talk to anyone about it, my husband couldn’t talk about it and my mom would break down if I talked to her. Talking about it helps. Come to this site and talk about it whenever you want/need.
I got this from a website:
Stillbirth is a relatively common, but often random, occurrence. The mean stillbirth rate in the United States is approximately 1 in 115 births, which is roughly 26,000 stillbirths each year, or on an average one every 20 minutes.
Theres nothing you could of done. It doesn’t make you a bad person and you haven’t done anything to contribulte towards this.
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i know what it feels like to leave a hospital empty. I also know what it feels like to want to be with your baby…I have often thought of that. but sometimes birth is too traumatic for the baby. I know what it means to say goodbye before you get a chance to say hello. You are not alone.
We love you guys. You did nothing wrong. Things do happen.
umh… what really is the cause of stillborn? if there is someone who has the time to share their story they can email me @ i> small>(email removed) /small> /i>, im actually doing a report on still borns and i want to create a story from a real parent who experienced it, thanks alot if you can make time to share you stories with me, thanks alot and om very sorry to hear what happened
My baby was stillborn, I was 8 months pregnant. I always thought I was my fault to cause my son seemed to ball up in one side of and I went to the doctor and asked for a Ultrasound and they said No cause it cost too much and I did not have the money, and I always felt like I should of begged for one until they gave me one.
Oct 10, 2008 was the date of the 1 year my son died and I look back and know he wants me to live and everything happens for a reason.
it wasn’t your fault what so ever, your child loves you and wants what is best for you, and dying isn’t it.
hold your head up high and smile cause your little baby loves you.
i had a stillborn too. a lil girl named Cali. her brithday/deathen is in 2 days. im having a really hard time dealing with this. im 20 years old. and all i want is my baby girl in my arms! i misss her soo much!!!
My baby girl Khianna was stillborn in April 2009 on my sisters birthday which makes it harder! We’ve had a post mortem done and it was her cord that was coiled 3 times and was very de-hydrated! But at first i blamed myself for my baby’s death but thankfully i have a great partner and family who have been there for me throughout it all! I miss my daughter more and more everyday! I blow her kisses everynight and tell her i love her (Sounds silly) but its my way! Also there is a website www.gonetoosoon.org where you can set up a memorial for your loved one and light candles for them along with a message! Hope you all hold your heads high for your babies sake and for being great parents xx
My husband and I just lost our baby this Friday. her name was Isabella Grace, she was beautiful. I don’t know how to get over this. I love her so much. I got to hold her and kiss her but I’ll never get to watch her grow up
my baby was still born 2 months ago, im very upset but im trying to remember that its not my fault. She was gawjuss and i named her Daisie, i held her for 1 hour and then she passed away. it was very unexpected as the pregnancy and birth went fine. i still cant believe it and i just wanna be with her! my boyfriend is sooo supportive but i cant seem to get over this, what makes it worse is that my first pregnancy ended in a miscarriage at 9 weeks and i am only 18 xx :((( xx
My son Connor was stillborn at 39 weeks gestation… it was very shocking as my pregnancy went pretty well… A week before exactly his heart was beating very strong then a week later I went to the ob for a regular checkup and there was no heartbeat.. They are saying a knot in the cord or the cord got suppresed. It is a horrible thing for parents to have to go through.. going home from the hospital with no baby I actually had to go to the funeral home right from the hosptial to make arrangments. This happened November 26th 2009. Its been 4 months since I was able to hold my little angel Connor. My husband and I were able to be with him for 24 hours which is 24 hours I will never forget and will cherish forever… But I miss him so so so much and wish this was all a bad nightmare and one day I am going to wake up and Connor will be here but I know in reality that its not. He was not ill at all It was a total accident. I hope everyone is ok and dealing with their losses the best way they can.
our son was still born on 10.5.10 he and i where both healthy until 36wks, my partner and i both belive it was the ecv,turning of a breech baby that caused his death,i complaned many times about being unwell and baby not moving and alot of unbearable pain but i just got told it was normal and to take a panadole and go to bed. Our lil boy fought for his life for four weeks,and hurts me to know he would of been in alot of pain as his skull was damaged from we belive the ecv. It hurts me so much as he was crying for help and i tryed so hard to get it but no one would listen, the labour was very tramatic as i found out he was dead the morning they finally took me in after alot of me convincing them something was wrong,he was born perfect except for his head. Id just like to say if i was fully informed of all the risks involved in the ecv i WOULD NOT HAVE DONE IT!!! and our little boy would be with us right now in our arms. The breech birth was nothing, i have 2 boys who where normal head down and the only difference was the labour pains. But i did and belived everything the doctors said and put my full trust in them,but now i wish i could do it all again and go with my mother instinks. we miss our boy and we are all hurting more than we ever imagined.
My son was stillborn 4 months ago at 36 weeks gestation. I miss him so much. There has been no reason for his death - only that they estimate it took a period of 4 - 6 weeks for him to die. I hurt every day. I miss him every day. My angel. My son.
i lost my son khai on 8/12/2010 i was 8 months pregnant.i got sick the saturday before and called my doctor at 2am he told me you prgenanwomen and your cravingsif your whole stomach isn’t cramping than your not in labor,try to go back to sleep instead of saying come in so i can check you.i went to the hospital on my own at 6am that morning and the same doctor told me im sorry our baby boy has expired.how do i live with myself?i hurt so bad cry so much and feel like my life is over.i have a 12 year old daughter that i hae to stay strong for but i can’t even be stong for myself im soooooooooooooooooooo lost.
This was not your fault.
Yes it did happen to you, and it does not happen to everyone, but it COULD happen to anyone.
When a stillbirth happens, most of the time, nature is just taking it’s course.
This is a tragedy, but by killing yourself, you will only make your loved ones feel even more what you are feeling now.
I understand what you feel. If it will help you, normally as far as doctors can tell, stillbirths happen when there is something wrong with the fetus, but this does not mean you caused it.
I am so sorry for your loss. It sounds like you need help from a professional grief counsellor. A support group may help you as well, because then you will know that you are not alone, and there are many mothers and fathers out there feeling the same way.
You know what your guilt tells me? That you are a sweet and caring person, who would have shed her blood for her baby. You would have been a wonderful mother.
I do research on these types of things, and I can tell you right now, that it is NOT YOUR FAULT!
As for being with your baby, your baby will always be with you, and would not want you to die. Would you want your mother to die, even if you were gone? No. So stay with us, have more kids, and your baby will be waiting for you when your time has come.
You are not alone, and my final word is, you were not at fault, and I advise you to get some professional help. They do wonders to help grief.
we lost l our baby boy,jack,2 weeks ago,stillborn I was 37weeks,the pain is unreal,i have 4 other kids its so hard to keep going knowing my baby is by himself,people keep telling me its not my fault but no one can tell me why it hapend to me,i love you baby jack,mammy n daddy n sisters n brother john boy will never forget you,ever,night,night
i wish i ate better i lost my daughter i didnt care what i ate i was craving i was full 9 months pregnant and it was my first child i was gonna get induced then the next dat they told me she died i was crying holding my stomach knowing she was still there inside of me then it was time for me to be in labor i was crying shouting i almost died when i was in labor cause i was only a young person and i was 15 years old when i lost my beautiful daughter i never heard her cry i never saw her smile back at me i never saw her open her beautiful eyes i was having a hard time ….sometimes i ask the lord to help me hweal from this terrible loss of my own….i pray every night for her to be in a beautiful place in heaven
precious destiny genesis harper born december 12 2010 -december 12 2010
my baby boy name was brandon he passed away in my womb i was 9 mounths and 2 days over due, he has only been gone now 4 11 weeks but it feels like a life time, i feel my heart braking everyday everytime i wake up im ok for the 1st couple of seconds untill it all comes flooding back and my heart brakes all over again, i feel so alone my patner does not want 2 talk about him because he says its too hard, and it seems that everybody eles has 4gotten about him, i miss him dearly and i wish i could just hold him in my arms again, leaving him at the hospital was the worst part of it all, i gave birth too him and got 2 hold him and be with him 4 just 1 hour i wish i could just have more time with him. peoeple tell me that everything happens 4 a reason and that god has a purpose, but for what reason, and how can people tell em about god their is no god, i have neaver done anything wrong i have always been kind too people so y am i being punished so much, i losed my dad two years ago too it just seems like everybody i love im losing. i need help i cant take this pain anymore i need my little boy.
3 months ago, my baby girl died. Ryleigh Jane. Im so sorry ANYONE has to feel this jind of totall heartbreak. I ache fir all of you and your tiny beauties.
.Ryleigh Jane my tiny beauty.
RIP Georgeous. 6/17/11
I lost my child when I was 14 and am 18 and my life has been nothin but hell
i lost my boy in october 2011 he was born on my due date. i went to hospital 2 days befotre and they told me he had no hearbeat i gave birth to him 2 days later i was lookin forward to him so much i crave to hold him today. My husband blamed me for his death n it kills me everyday i jusr want my baby back i dnt no wot to do me n my husband hav split up i feel lost n alone but he never understood that. i need hlp
I am 22 weeks pregnant I have just known that my baby boy has got hypoplastic left heart syndrom they give me three options terminate my pregnancy let him die after birth what they called care compassion. Or get on with three surgeries if he will make it the doctor think that my baby has severe defect in his heart 65% will not live more than one week when he will born I feel I lost him before I enjoyed feeling his kiks inside my womb.
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