i dont feel alive anymore.
sadly i feel like this alot.
like im just a wast of space i this world.
i really need to ust be with my true friends right now and really i cant.
its summer and there usually gone.
but i just need to know someones there.
and i am here to do something and ill feel alive again.
my best friend is moving.
my guide is about to give up hope on me.
and my love abby jus let her bf get in her pants then he dumped her.
this is very stressfull.
and i know its just going to get more confusing, this is really hard for me…
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i hope this gets better.
and im going to try to do something.
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i hate my life . i want to daie . i need love .
i dont particuarly need love.
just i need to have someone there for me.
im not good by myself…
i get scared.
and i drive myself crazy by thinking of onlu horrible stufff about myself.
Where are your friends?
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philip, florida
abby, i see tomorrow. {{thank gods!!!! i ahvent seen her since school ended.}}
katie, ill see soon if lucky.
and nicky,
is down the street.
there not far or anything..
i just feel messed up.
Are you doing drugs? On medication? What sort of mess?
no no no drugs!
i think i may have some sort of disorder though.
:[
mess? liek my head is a mess.
What are your symptoms? How are you expressing this? Are you self-harming?
Hello, I’m here:). You are not alone.
What kind of disorder, what are you thinking?
What are you going to try to do?
symtoms?
i develope habits when i get worried like i use to count how many sylibles there were in words till it was even on my middle three fingers.
i would feel the bottom of my hair and chew nails.
{{till i got braces}}
so like anxiety.
and i use to get liek tiny anxiety attacks in the 6th grade.
like total emotional breakdowns.
i was just plain depressed.
Can you maybe expand upon what your feeling so we can help? I dont like the sound of not feeling alive but what is it derived from.. loneliness… apathy? Give us the tools to help and we will do our best, its our job/.
Yeah, sounds like some sort of anxiety disorder, maybe even obsessive-compulsive. Have you ever spoken with a school counselor?
diffrent councilers… like an anger manegment one when i was in the 3rd grade.
but i think im gonna have to start going to my school counciler.
and snar,
i get the feelings from feeling lik no one understands me.
its scary feeling alone.
Hey, pretty girl!
I know how you feel. (TRUST ME)
I want you to be my new best friend.
*hugs*
Don’t worry! Over time things will get better. *SUPERSQUISHLYHUGS*
Lub you! :(
Tell mama what’s bothering you most! (When I get depressed I always make up what I’m sad about. Instead of getting to the point)
When you think, “I’m sad.” What’s the first thing that’s come to your mind that makes your heart hurt the most?
kitty. {[.is.losing. wrote:
diffrent councilers… like an anger manegment one when i was in the 3rd grade.but i think im gonna have to start going to my school counciler.and snar,i get the feelings from feeling lik no one understands me.its scary feeling alone.
We often cant feel like anyone understands us because we cant allow ourselves to be that open with others or ourselves, spill it out here.. .there is nothing attached, there is no consequence… here your troubles are free of being bogged down by real life drama and you can say what you truly feel.
well i feel like my friend is giving up on me… sorta.
like ive always been like this and ive beeen getting better.
not having so many anxiety attacks. emotional breakdowns ect.
but im still like this and i feel like im alone cause i dont even know myself and its really hard.
and alec.
my soon to be boyfriend.
he says im his first love and its really hard on me cause i feel like im not as good as he thinks i am.
and thank you. so very much. sai pie.
im like crying. i just feel happy knowing someones there.
cause your not pitying me.
*hugs*
You’re not alone! I know [almost] exactly how you feel.
It hurts, feeling like no one cares. It hurts feeling alone.
And a lot of the times you do feel like you’re better off dead.
But then somedays you’re happy right? (Jesus now I’m crying…)
And it’s wonderful because your chest doesn’t feel so heavy and it doesn’t hurt so much anymore.
Those are the days that you have to live for, sweetie. Because life is so unfair and sometimes fate that a turn for the worse. But things will get better. They’ll get better and then they’ll get worse. Life is such an unpredictable road!
But think…If there were no such challenges in life, things would be pretty boring.
(And to me boredom is a fate worse than death (or being alive when things are at their worst))
kitty. {[.is.losing. wrote:
and alec.
my soon to be boyfriend.
he says im his first love and its really hard on me cause i feel like im not as good as he thinks i am.
You shouldn’t think so little of yourself. And yes, Sai Pie, Snar, SoulRising–Kitty you should always be able to find someone here who cares.
*crys in arms*
yeah when im happy im happy but then my mind just drifts off agin and im sad again.
i really hope life gets better.
cause so far its been getting bad.
thank you.
awwww. remember, life is full of ups and downs- no matter how hard we try to find a steady place. wait it out, keep moving forward and trying new things and the good will come your way. time is no fun when you’re bummed, but soon you’ll be feeling better. feeling alive is so key, so absolutely wonderful. its my favorite. i recommend drunk skinny dipping personally
but i wish you luck. keep hope alive and good karma will find you soon enough
*hugs tight*
Don’t you worry, hun. Things will get better! We just have to stick things out until they get better.
There is a light at the end of every tunnel!
drunk skinny dipping?
sounds relaxing… i know im wierd.
i would feel like free if i did that.
ill reamember that.
theres a light at the end of the tunnel.
i love how i can achually open up on this site and im acsepted.
its sooo relieving.
Yeah! It’s a wonderful feeling to be accepted!
I know that help.com has changed my life- (For sure!)
yeah. i tryed getting on it before but i was to young. :[
cause i jsut turnned 13 this year.
whoever made this site is genius
ah iM tired. time to go to bed :]
ill talk to you tomorrow
3
hello and: Aww Kitty! I’m glad you feel like you can open up here.
But as to your original post, I know just how hard it is when stuff piles on top of each other…it’s never like you slowly realize everything that’s going on either because you’re just dealing, the amount just kinda b*tch slaps you in the face. Tis quite annoying. You know what’s relaxing though? Screaming…drive to a big field and roll down the car windows and scream til your lungs give out. Or go mosh both just equal this raw kind of exhaustion…it’s exhilaration and liberation combined into one.
kitty. {[.is.losing. wrote:
drunk skinny dipping?sounds relaxing… i know im wierd.i would feel like free if i did that.ill reamember that.theres a light at the end of the tunnel.
:) Fun fun fun. I hope you have your own pool:).
I’m sorry kitty, I made that reply 20 minutes ago and my internet connection wigged out.
I know this sounds so cliche, but it will get better, just hang in there, ok? You just have to find something your passionate about in life to keep yourself from thinking too much about it…good luck! (Don’t worry about others too much and try and focus on yourself for just a little bit) I know you can make it through this :)
i don’t feel dead anymore. you’d think i’d be happy, but death was my home. maybe we can switch places?
i cant switch right now… im goingto see abby today. and alec. something good may happern.
The worst rut you can fall into is the rut of thinking that you’re not as good as you are. Trust me, I know. If you see no good in yourself then you stop seeing good in anything. If you don’t love yourself then you’ll never be able to love anything.
I’m going to give you this advice. Find something to love about yourself. I don’t care how much you struggle, you must learn to love yourself. If you can’t find anything, give yourself reasons to be loved. And most important of all: never, ever forget that you are a good person. Even if you feel lost, alone, worthless, if at the end of the day you can look yourself in the eyes and tell yourself in all honesty that you are a good person then I can guarantee you will be able to carry on. Don’t hate yourself for what other think about you. Don’t blame yourself for things that aren’t your fault. Remember this, now and forever, to the end of your days and onwards. You are a good person.
Boyfriends are nice, but you can’t help but feel guilty when they break your heart. Then you spend the rest of your life crying over how you mistreated them. (Yes, that is a hint of bitterness, in case you missed it.)
well he didnt break my heart.
i broke his.
and this is why i have a hard time thinking im a good person
when i tend to do this to people.
and they dont deserve it.
you people should just smoke some reefer and get out in nature.
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