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A FRIEND’S EXISTENCE.

© 1996, Wayne Lee
Will you remember all the days
when I was there with you,
remembering my smile and my laughter?

Or will you forget
and dwell in the lost instead,
mourning for your friend’s farewell?

A portrait of my existence
lies deep within your heart,
cherishing the memories we once shared.

Or will you decide
nothing is worth keeping,
losing the special dream you once held?

Love will never die.
Love is deep inside.
Friendships are forever.
Remember my love for you.

I am always there,
watching over you.
To give inspiration
and strength when you may fail
in a world of fears.

Will you continue to dream
and breathe the wonders of life,
striving to be who you want to be?

Or will you succumb
to the defeats in life,
failing to never overcome?
Dreams will never die.
Strength is deep inside.
Friendships are forever.
Remember my faith in you.

I am always there,
believing in you.
To give encouragement
and love when you may fail
in a world of fears.
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I’ve been thinking a lot about friendship lately real and internet.

It’s always sad to lose a friend, no matter where you know them from.

I’ve had many friends come and go from my life, some I realize that I have been glad to see them go because they were not true friends and I long since got over the pain of the loss.

Others I miss with all of my heart and I will always consider them friends though I haven’t a clue where in the world they are or what is going on in their lives.

I’ve had internet friends over the years that I’ve had fallings out with or had them just fade away, some I still email with periodically. I think back and remember the hours of laughter that we shared. Some of those friends are lost in cyber space and maybe I’ll never hear. Some have broken my heart and I still hurt for the loss and the pain. I wonder how it could have been that way, to talk to someone daily for two years and then suddenly have them turn their back on you for reasons that you don’t understand and they wouldn’t explain.

I full well acknowledge that some friendships that I have lost have been because of me, because of who I am and that I will not bend on somethings especially when I consider it a matter of right and wrong. I also acknowledge that I have lost friendships just from losing my temper and saying things in a not so pretty way. Oh those times I don’t believe what I said was wrong, but it is how I said it that was truly wrong.

Really, I do have a point to make.

I’ve been coming to this site for over a year and I’ve had friendships end, I can honestly say beyond a reasonable doubt that only one of those friendships ended because I made that choice, because I realized that person was not who they claimed to be and I wanted no part of them, but even though I was choosing to separate from them, I remained kind and respectful, I learned on the internet some years ago, that you can’t always be completely blunt, that sometimes you just have to stuff your own personal feelings, because things get lost in translation and being completely blunt can be more trouble then it’s worth.

The other friends I lost on this site, I really don’t hold myself responsible for losing, they made the choice and I don’t believe that I deserved that choice. I’m not perfect and I will never say that I am, but I pretty much know when I’m wrong and I don’t like that feeling. By that I don’t mean wrong as in accurate, I mean I know when I’m being a butt, most of the time that’s when I’m angry and have lost control of myself, which is rare when I am on the internet these days. Oh sure there are times I get mad that I don’t lose my cool, but I think if you have ever seen me lose it, you’d know the difference, I get ugly and mean…I tend to go for the jugular when I am really ticked and I don’t show mercy, that’s something I don’t take pride in and I try to abstain from that, I make a major effort not to lose my temper.

To those people that have chose to end our friendship I would say, I am still your friend and if you needed me to be there for you I still would be there for you to the best of my ability. You ended our friendship….I did not.

To the friends I lost that just up and decided to leave the website, I would say….I am sorry to see you go, wish we’d exchanged email first.

To those that feel I ignore them, I’m sorry I don’t mean to, there just aren’t enough hours in the day, give me a shout and I won’t ignore you.

I am open to friendship, I don’t need to know you to talk to you or try to help you if I can. I try to be a good friend, so long as it doesn’t interfere with my principles. At the end of the day, I have to live with me, not you.

Maybe I’ve said to much, not sure, just saying how I feel. Saying, I miss some friendships and saying I don’t understand why.

Why did one friend end our friendship because I was comforting another friend when they knew they had accidently hurt our other friend. They didn’t mean to hurt the friend and that is why I offered comfort. So why did the friend that was hurt by the other end our friendship? I did nothing wrong.

Another friendship lost because the person said something about me that wasn’t true, they thought it was, when I tried to talk to them about it in private, that didn’t work and they chose just to end the friendship. To me that doesn’t make sense. I didn’t do anything wrong.

Another friendship lost because we disagreed, it was quite a shock to see they had removed me from their friends list, quite a shock in deed. Why is friendship lost because we don’t see eye to eye about everything?

Well, that’s just life I suppose.

Friendships come and go.

It’s sad, but true.

You can’t replace friends that you have lost, but you can cherish the ones that you have and you can make new friends along the way.

A FRIEND’S EXISTENCE.
© 1996, Wayne Lee

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I’ve been thinking a lot about friendship lately real and internet.

It’s always sad to lose a friend, no matter where you know them from.

I’ve had many friends come and go from my life, some I realize that I have been glad to see them go because they were not true friends and I long since got over the pain of the loss.

Others I miss with all of my heart and I will always consider them friends though I haven’t a clue where in the world they are or what is going on in their lives.

I’ve had internet friends over the years that I’ve had fallings out with or had them just fade away, some I still email with periodically. I think back and remember the hours of laughter that we shared. Some of those friends are lost in cyber space and maybe I’ll never hear. Some have broken my heart and I still hurt for the loss and the pain. I wonder how it could have been that way, to talk to someone daily for two years and then suddenly have them turn their back on you for reasons that you don’t understand and they wouldn’t explain.

I full well acknowledge that some friendships that I have lost have been because of me, because of who I am and that I will not bend on somethings especially when I consider it a matter of right and wrong. I also acknowledge that I have lost friendships just from losing my temper and saying things in a not so pretty way. Oh those times I don’t believe what I said was wrong, but it is how I said it that was truly wrong.

Really, I do have a point to make.

I’ve been coming to this site for over a year and I’ve had friendships end, I can honestly say beyond a reasonable doubt that only one of those friendships ended because I made that choice, because I realized that person was not who they claimed to be and I wanted no part of them, but even though I was choosing to separate from them, I remained kind and respectful, I learned on the internet some years ago, that you can’t always be completely blunt, that sometimes you just have to stuff your own personal feelings, because things get lost in translation and being completely blunt can be more trouble then it’s worth.

The other friends I lost on this site, I really don’t hold myself responsible for losing, they made the choice and I don’t believe that I deserved that choice. I’m not perfect and I will never say that I am, but I pretty much know when I’m wrong and I don’t like that feeling. By that I don’t mean wrong as in accurate, I mean I know when I’m being a butt, most of the time that’s when I’m angry and have lost control of myself, which is rare when I am on the internet these days. Oh sure there are times I get mad that I don’t lose my cool, but I think if you have ever seen me lose it, you’d know the difference, I get ugly and mean…I tend to go for the jugular when I am really ticked and I don’t show mercy, that’s something I don’t take pride in and I try to abstain from that, I make a major effort not to lose my temper.

To those people that have chose to end our friendship I would say, I am still your friend and if you needed me to be there for you I still would be there for you to the best of my ability. You ended our friendship….I did not.

To the friends I lost that just up and decided to leave the website, I would say….I am sorry to see you go, wish we’d exchanged email first.

To those that feel I ignore them, I’m sorry I don’t mean to, there just aren’t enough hours in the day, give me a shout and I won’t ignore you.

I am open to friendship, I don’t need to know you to talk to you or try to help you if I can. I try to be a good friend, so long as it doesn’t interfere with my principles. At the end of the day, I have to live with me, not you.

Maybe I’ve said to much, not sure, just saying how I feel. Saying, I miss some friendships and saying I don’t understand why.

Why did one friend end our friendship because I was comforting another friend when they knew they had accidently hurt our other friend. They didn’t mean to hurt the friend and that is why I offered comfort. So why did the friend that was hurt by the other end our friendship? I did nothing wrong.

Another friendship lost because the person said something about me that wasn’t true, they thought it was, when I tried to talk to them about it in private, that didn’t work and they chose just to end the friendship. To me that doesn’t make sense. I didn’t do anything wrong.

Another friendship lost because we disagreed, it was quite a shock to see they had removed me from their friends list, quite a shock in deed. Why is friendship lost because we don’t see eye to eye about everything?

Well, that’s just life I suppose.

Friendships come and go.

It’s sad, but true.

You can’t replace friends that you have lost, but you can cherish the ones that you have and you can make new friends along the way.