ahh god.
where do i start..? well ive been in a relationship with the person i love on and off since 2003. our story is a true tale of the cruel effects of love and confusion. the past two years have been amazing. we have grown up so much and in such little time. He left june 29th for college summer courses. for the first week, everything seemed ok. we talked on the phone about our days and he would tell me how hard the work was getting. on july 13th, he came back for a day to visit and we were so happy to see eachother, except i could tell something was different. he was quiet, content, calm. not the chris i know. im used to the ADHD, running around while talking a million miles an hour chris. i asked him if he is ok and he told me he was just under a lot of stress and said everything would be ok. i smiled and we enjoyed our night togeather until he left the next morning, on a sunday. the next day we talked as ususal and he still seemed very over wealmed and sad. i always make sure to reasure him of how amazing and smart he is because a person in love wouldnt tell the one they love any thing different. well, the next night he called after his last class and we talked and said our i love yous and i told him i would text him before i went to bed. so i did and he answerd “night hun”. exactly an hour later to my surprsie, i awoke out of a dead sleep to a text from him saying we need to talk. mind u at this point i was half a sleep and basically when i called him he sounded like a total different person, he broke up with me that night. the person ive loved and have cared about for so long, told me he didnt want a relationship and as ive tried to talk to him he has pushed me away. i am not a strong person and i have been depressed all this time. he says he will talk to me when he is ready. i have talked to his mother and she is as upset as i am. i need closeure. i need my prayer to be answered. i pray that god can let down his hand and help my ex and i get through this. he is my heart and soul. i would never give up on him but i feel as if im so weak and powerless.
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