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I feel you man. I feel the same in many ways. I wish I knew the answer for surviving in this shallow, cruel world.

Ok.
First off you shouldn’t need a girl to complete you. A love should add to who you are, not make you a whole person. You need to be a whole person for a relationship to work.
Second of all, if you want to keep saying how smart you are in a post, spelling without errors and correct punctuation would go a long way.

i really relate to your feelings above, you are not alone in this. acknowledging your true feelings is a great start (as opposed to finding other peoples posts to criticize, mentioning no names). another would be to find out what is causing them. sometimes that is too painful to face and our minds keep the reasons hidden from us, protectively. therapy is often a good safe place to work through these emotions, or at least be heard in a non-judgmental space.

it sounds like you could use an outlet right now. i hate when people tell me to exercise when i feel like a** but it can be a really good one because you are in control of what is going on, at least in that space, and can use your aggressions to push you forward. or listening/singing to some really intense music really loud. sometimes just crying your face off under covers or in a bathtub can help. whatever gives relief, just let it out. it can be helpful to speak with people you trust about whats happening inside you.

whatever it is that is making you feel so much pain that you desire an exit is exactly the intensity that can cause you to do great things in your lifetime. dont give up on yourself. you will surprise yourself with the strength and insight that all of this pain can bring.

You have no idea the kind of pain you would cause everyone you leave behind. My son committed suicide almost three months ago and my entire life has changed. I have never known such immeasurable grief, and everyday, I look for a reason to finish the day. It hurts to breathe without him alive. It is not only your life; you will take others with you.

Sometimes living for others is enough. But let me suggest something: don’t look for yourself in another person. If you are comfortable in your own space, no one can take that away from you. Read “The Greatest Miracle in the World” by Og Mandino. Read “Stillness Speaks” by Eckhart Tolle. Make a list of your needs; what can you control and what can’t you control? Are you eating foods that make your body feel good? Are you exercising? Drinking enough water? Avoiding alcohol? (it is a depressant). Are you learning something? At the end of each day, can you say that you did everything you possibly could to be happy that day? Not everything will work, but if you can answer “yes” at the end of each day, you’re on your way to a successful and happy life.