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Well, I am 6 months pregnant and I have my own apartment,

and my boyfriend is in a halfway house(a facility where he leaves for work but gets support for drug and alcohol addiction) I never see him, and we hardly talk, more then we are actually allowed, but still hardly. I lvoe him very much I do but it isn’t the first time that he is away, such as in jail or rehab or a halfway house. We have had relationship problem, like most, but it has been very drama filled. It has gotten better he has been honest and he has been trying, very hard and I know he has. I go to school, for which the one i attend now i will graduate from next month, and I will be attending another in september. I am 19 by the way and my boyfriend is 21. We have plans to get married in January. We can hardly afford our bills because I got fired from my job and I only get unemployment now. If we had normal bills it wouldn’t be bad we, well I mean I would be able to make ends meet. I pay for everything with money I’ve had saved up because when he is gone normally I work alot .The last time he was gone I worked 3 jobs, and saved all the money we have now, but that money is specifily set aside for rent, electricity, and propane. I have enought to cover those 3 until January. Otherwise we have mad bills, creditcard bills, surcharges, probation, car insurance, gas, school, food, internet(for school), and the phone. The surcharges really get me cuz thats an extra $200 a month and then both sets of car insurance. I pay his and I already paid off mine because he can’t pay all of his bills while he is there at the half way house. It’s a lot of rules and a lot of bills. I just can’t afford everything, and he isn’t allowed to help out because they automatically take his money and put it in an account he can not touch. On top of everything I am just sad and lonely and bored. I use to cut all the time, and I’ve done some other seriously sillyt hings. I do want the baby and I do want to be with him and I am happy about the life we have started with each other and how much we really do have, but at the same time I feel so overwhelmed and angry. I start crying and I just hate everything. He tried to help as much as he can, but it just isn’t enough. I know everyone’s advice is, get professional help, well I don’t have the money for that. I vent and I feel good for a couple days, but thats getting old. It helps less and less every time. I’m in a rut, I don’t want to loose my relationship with him because I am just unhappy with some little things here and there. I am sure things will be great, and bareable when he is home and the baby is here and when some of our debt is paid off. We always make things work, we do, but I just feel like ****. I just want to die.

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