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I need help.

A week ago, I ODed on codeine without filtering the paracetamol out properly, then drank a lot at a party last night, and I got incredibly sick from drinking a lot less than I normally would. This has worried me. I think my liver’s shot.

I feel like **** in general. All I ever think about is getting new drugs to make everything fade into the background. If I could, I would live on X.

I can’t live in this world right now without substances to stop me going insane.

My ex keeps phoning and making me feel guilty for leaving him. The person I’m in love with will never know because I don’t have the self esteem to take any rejection and, therefore, am not going to tell him.

My life is a web of ******* secrets and lies and I hate it. I want ******* out.

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miskat 95 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 months, 3 weeks ago (9 minutes after post)

First of all, visit your doctor, make sure your physical health is ok.

Second, two things here:

1) You can’t do without drugs or alcohol
2) The thing with your ex should stop, as it is like having 2 relations at once and I assume you are mongamous.

Tell us a bit more if you will.

What makes you uses drugs and the likes?
What happened in your last relation?

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nothin #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 3 weeks ago (17 minutes after post)

I use drugs when I feel like it. Which, lately, happens to be all the **** time. I’ll take anything offered as a general rule, but I only really buy pot and occasionally pills.

I am monogamous, but single at the moment. I want to stop talking to the ex, but he says he’ll hurt himself if I don’t speak to him.

In my last relationship, my ex was controlling, manipulative and didn’t let me go out with anyone except him. I didn’t see my friends for two years. He also didn’t let me smoke weed or do any drugs, which I suppose is not as bad. He had a temper. It took me ages to work up the courage to dump him.

I hope that helps.

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mcollar 1 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 3 weeks ago (35 minutes after post)

That’s emotional blackmail and his problem not yours. Stop contact with that person.

Come out to the person you like, either subtly or directly.

And wean yourself off. Like yourself. Respect yourself. Start accomplishing things.

nottryingtobenuissan #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 3 weeks ago (1 day, 16 hours after post)

alcohol and drugs are not only addictive, they are deadly. they dont only take your life, but the lives of those you love and those who love you. if you dont stop it, you’re heading to a disaster.
i tell you this not becoz i wanna scare you, but becoz i love you and i want you to live freely.
i’ve been there before when i dealt with my own addiction.
you might think that you can’t stop this addiction and that could possibly true, you can’t. but god can. the problem is that deep inside you feel a huge discontent about your life, about your problems and think that everything is helpless and hopeless.
look, jesus died for your sins to forgive you and and rose again to free you from every addiction, guilt, failures, sins, mistakes, and bad past you have.
you are so greatly loved that god would call himself as your father. he’ll keep you and make you secure, comfort when you are sad and help when you’re in need. he’ll be there and he loves you unconditionally. he is able to free me and he can free you if you would come humbly and ask him to come to your heart, be your lord and savior.
i’ll pray for you like every good friend will do. remember, i care and god cares and he listens.

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smoogie. 104 #
An Unknown Location | 2 months, 3 weeks ago (2 days, 3 hours after post)

Learn how to love yourself. Don’t allow this person to blackmail you anymore. Go and get some professonal help through your doctor and stop taking the drug’s before you start to get addicted.

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