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its not so much that im addicted anymore i just dont understand what has brought on these urges and im afraid of starting again.
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thank you nickycole36 ill try that.
two questions… what could the urges be from, and what would they not be from?
and i concur, cherries are very addictive, (trying new fruits is too) but otherwise, i’ve delt with things like that (thoughts i don’t want to think about) i systematically trained my brain not to think about it (and no not with shock therapy, same principle though) i would 1# tell myself, “no im not going to think about that”, (out loud or in your head is fine either way), then #2 i would race through different random thoughts, (sometimes object i could see around me) , like ‘trees, fishing, that cartoon i saw, that song thats really upbeat’ , trying to either be vague, irrelevant, or uplifting. and then i would take one of those thoughts and just run with it,,, ‘trees are almost always green, but that cuz they photosynthesize, but i wonder how the ones that aren’t green do it, or would that even matter, how do they get those collors anyway’ and i’ve already lost those thoughts and am onto something positive… in a while i didn’t have to tell myself “no don’t think about that” i would just start straying off on the random tangent of thought, and soon enough, i hardly needed to do it, or not at all, becuase i was thinking those thoughts less…
i can’t say i’d recommend avoiding many of the things you don’t want to think about, becuase alot of them can be really important… but in this case, where the thought is of you cutting yourself, i would say an addiction is apparent (to cutting), and time helps most when dealing with addictions… so avoiding thinking about it, and thinking about something better than letting yourself dwell on it, and works when you don’t have anything else you can do to escape (in class, work, grounded, dinner, with company, whenever)
I’m sorry you’re having a hard time at it. It’s a good thing that you are trying to calm yourself down though. Could it be that only the first urge was brought on by something substantial, like added stress or an unexpected thing in your life? Maybe your distress at having the urge again and worrying about it is all that’s causing the rest of the urges. If that could be the case, the knowledge alone might help relax yourself.
You have come a long way and have gone through hard times to get where you are now. Rather than considering what would happen if you fell back and lost all that, rather focus on the confidence beaing the urges so far has given you. You know you can do this, you’ve done it already. You were able to stop when you were at the highest point of the addiction, you will definitely be able to resist now. And even if you were to have a relapse that wouldn’t mean the end of the world, just a reminder of where you came from. If you beat it once you can beat it twice. Trust yourself and have confidence - we sure do!
Self-cutting happens for a lot of reasons. If you don’t know why you do it, you need to find out. If you can’t, then you need to do as previously suggested and do what you can to avoid even having immediate access to cutting implements, if at all possible..
I used to cut myself, too. Did it for three years. Then a friend who I trusted completely told me to stop, and I did what he told me to do. Over time, even the urges I once had stopped knocking at the door.
well its a good thought to know they will eventually stop. all these suggestions are really good and thank you so much.
I used to do that too, but, I just do whatever possible to take my mind off of it.
Watch a funny movie, read, anything. lol.
i use to cut too and i have stopped for a few months now i have the need to just to calm down i am keeping myself back but keep trying to keep away
i think thats prob. like any other addiction, because of withdrawl you want some, “just one last hit”, i guess you should try and bussy yourself so that you become distracted, since you are fully aware that you feel an urge to do it and that it is bad, you can be logical about it, and try to stand firm and say NO, try to bussy yourself, i think that can help
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no offense but i cant personally hide them cause then i know where they are no matter what. i dont have razors anymore but if your desperate enough you can use anything.
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ive never thought of wrapping your wrists in duct tape thats a good idea except ive used every part of my body if only i could wrap myself up like a mummy haha. i harm myself to feel better though sometimes i do it to cause pain or to punish myself but usually just to feel better or feel something. i hope you find a way out depression does suck no one deserves it.
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oh will it not allow you to say what you wrote or did it just not come up??
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oh ok how long have you not felt anything just curious
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thats sad. dont you feel something when you hurt yourself though. personally id rather feel sad then feel nothing its like your already dead just awake and walking but nothing more pretty much in other words zombie.
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i think its sad cause your blocking out hope which is the only thing i live on now you’ve given up on happiness. i dont know how long someone can go about not feeling anything though if your content then i guess its alright i used to be like that though my anger is horrific ive made a lot of progress though i bet you could too if you wanted or if feeling nothing ends up not working out anymmore.
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i think you are by not facing it your hiding but its painful its understandable. you could always give it a try someday you could always go back to being numb if thats where you feel safe and its too unbearable to come out of hiding but its not much of a life if you dont at least give it a chance.
you said it was easy to be numb if it was easy you can always go back but maybe giving it your best go one more time cant hurt you might be able to beat sadness and find some happiness.
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start remembering your past maybe open up those painful memories then you can feel something again it will be painful feelings but its feeling.
i wanted to die and almost commited suicide i had a plan and everything. i was miserable didnt want to wake up and didnt want to sleep because then i would have to wake up. had to fake i was ok so i wouldnt be sent away for depression to some physc ward. i still have issues but im proud to say that i know how to find happiness again its taken six months and i mean obviously i still have problems and i still want to hurt myself which caused some my negetive feelings but i got through anger, agony, misery, and depression at its lowest for me without help from a friend, realitive or professinal i was completely alone i fought cause happiness was worth the pain in the end. i can help you if youd like.
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haha im ok i dont need help from this post anymore i was gonna close it up i already decided hurting myself now isnt worth the months of fighting it would just be a waste. also it would just cause months or years of unhappiness if i start again why waste that time getting over something all over again, since ive come this far already i might as well keep going plus i dont think i could stop again if i started i dont have the strength to pull out of something like that its so addicting for me.
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i think you should think about that memory you try to forget. think about it long and hard. my mind is what causes me pain thoughts haunt me and open up some dreadful feelings. you probably dont want that but you have to wake up and you cant wake up happy just yet someday but your depression is what your hiding from you have to face it one way or another.
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i do too. remember though its not going to be easy you will want to hide again because thats where you feel safe but you have to remember hiding is just bringing you back right where you started if you keep facing this depression keep fighting then your one step closer to happiness but your never going to get that unless you try.
im going to go to bed but id like to know if you try it out and if it works i dont mind talking on this post whatever works. i wish you the best of luck. lifes hard but you only live it once might as well make the best of it as you can dont want to regret the risks you never took. always have hope.
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i know how you feel Leslie63 i use to cut myself to i use to think whats so unhealthy about it whatever makes you feel better but it doesnt make you feel better my cousin found out i cut myself and what he told me to do is instead of hurting myself punch his arm or a punching bag until the urge of hurting yourself goes away
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