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I am very confused.
This weekend i was feeling extremely depressed. After my boyfriend left i got even more depressed. I cried a little yesterday and today I started arguing with my mom and sister and they made me cry even more. Im 19, sophmore in college, and i feel worthless. I dont know how to deal with these feelings. Sometimes i will be jealous, sometimes i feel like nobody cares about me. Sometimes i want attention. Lately i been feeling like my family and friends dont want anything to do with me. I dont have much of a social life because i work two jobs. Even when im not working i dont do anything, i basically have no friends anymore. i feel stupid. i dont kno wwhat to do, i want help but i feel as if i shouldnt be acting this way. I think im really depressed but then there is a part of me that feels like i dont deserve the help because im just overreacting and there is nothing wrong with me. i’ve been getting like this for a long time now, ever since i was younger i used to have crying spells. i would cry and just couldnt stop. sometimes over the stupidest reasons. I dont know what to do, i want to get rid of the feeling sometiems i want to drink or get high but then i wont do it because ill come to my senses. Is it just me? I feel like im stupid, that what i say is rediculous and people dont listen because im redicolous. I dont know what to do im so desperate im writing onthis site! So what my question is, is that does anyone else get like this? is it just a faze or is it serious? im afraid to speak with the people i know because i think they will think im crazy or just stupid, that im overreacting and looking for attenion, which in a way i know i am looking for attenton. Please help i dont want to freak anyone out especially my bf i dont want him to think im stupid.
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