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F***** everything.
Yes, I’m pissed off. No, I’m not looking for responses, just to vent some anger if that’s OK. Vent about what you ask? My own personal battles that few people want to hear about. If I wanted to clarify things I probably couldn’t, regardless of whether I wanted to or not. I don’t know what is going on with me these day. All I can think about anytime I get some time to myself is a close friend of mine that killed himself recently. I haven’t been the same since. I am unable to think about other things, I am unable to have a good time, I am all messed up because of this. F***** it all.
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Really? **** YOU. You are an absolute **** that deserves to die. No, I am not suicidal.I could have been though and your one comment could have pushed me over the edge. I hope bad things happen to you and your family you absolute **** stain. Get AIDS and die, yours truly, anon
I know how you feel. I have had several people that I have known kill themselves.
What your going through is normal, really. You have to be strong and go on with your life and do something good. Learn from other peoples mistakes. Life is hard and try to have faith.
What is the matter with you people??? grow up!
You just need some time to heal, but you may have to wait awhile because this isn’t something that you can just get over overnight. After you recover, this will make you stronger.
It has really f****d me up. Literally, I close my eyes and I have the image of him hanging in my head. My sleep patterns have been severely messed with and it has been affecting my day to day life. How am I just supposed to power through that and get on with things? This is not the first person that I have known that has decided to go down this route, he is the first that has affected me in such a way though.
Like I said, it will probably be like this for a while, tragety is apart of life. The main reason we recieve tragety is to help us advance in life.
grieving is a process, it just takes time…i know that seems like generic advice, but its the truth.
True. I just am not used to dealing with this kind of thing. I have known this guy since I was tiny, he has had a huge impact on my life whether he knew it or not. I know grieving is natural, I have been through my fair share of hardship to do with death but none has affected me in this kind of way. I mean, my father died when I was 12. I have grown used to this fact, I have come to accept it and am not looking for sympathy. My point is that not even my father’s death affected me as much as this death. To be perfectly honest this guy was a close friend of my brother, not even a close friend of mine. Why on Earth is it affecting me this much?
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Really? **** YOU. You are an absolute **** that deserves to die. No, I am not suicidal.I could have been though and your one comment could have pushed me over the edge. I hope bad things happen to you and your family you absolute **** stain. Get AIDS and die, yours truly, anon
Why are talking like that?
wallyANON17 wrote:
oookay, SO many people are gunna get banned if they dont shut up…
The only people I see in the wrong are the person that made the first reply to this post and myself, who retaliated to this reply. Other than that everyone has been great :)
True. I just got annoyed, I know it was stupid of me.
You don’t need to worry about little things like swearing. But it seems like you are calmed down now, which is good. As long as you know that suicide is the wrong answer, I’m sure most people here are relieved. Every religion in the world, no matter how bizarre, states that suicide is the worst possible path, and I’m sure the history of the whole world can’t be wrong.
I had a brother-in-law commit suicide with a revolver a couple of months ago. I’m still trying to sort out things. We went hunting together a LOT. He was a good guy. I have gone through some trying times and I think I know what he was going through. He saw suicide as a way to relieve pressure, relieve pain . . . and he had just suffered another blow to his self-esteem (a car accident). He left behind a grieving widow who didn’t understand why he killed himself, and he left two adopted children. His death created even more problems for his family. It was so sad, so very sad. I can tell you that suicide is NOT the answer. No matter how rough life gets, you can get forgiveness from God and you can get your life back on track. As long as you’re breathing and your heart is beating and you have brain activity, you’ve still got some positive choices you can make! Remember–suicide is a PERMANENT solution to TEMPORARY problems!
chev.jame invited 5 users to read this post 1 year, 4 months ago.
I had a friend kill himself nearly 20 years ago, and I still haven’t gotten over it. :( I understand exactly how you feel -the hurt, the anger, the disappointment, the self-doubts….
The only relief I get is realizing that depression caused something in his brain to break. His internal pain overwhelmed his ability to cope.
Thanks for everybodys contribution. It’s greatly appreciated. And musicman and chev.jame, don’t worry I’m not suicidal :)
I’m so sorry, I know that is hard, my Dad killed himself. It does get easier to deal with on a daily basis, I know it doesn’t seem like it though. I mean it stays with you, but you can start living with it eventually.
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