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has this happend b4?

well to be honest with it sounds like your going through some depresstion. and yes you should tell your dad its important for him to know if hes at all supportive that could be just what you need. however you may say this wont happen again but judging by your post you didnt mean fort this one to happen. in my oppion if it contines talk to a therapist it helps alot.

can you think of anything, anything that brought this on.

may i ask what kinda cancer u have?

depretion is either brought on by something tramtic, or by random it doenst have to have a pourpose for being there =)

have you let yourself get worked up over a lot of things? like do you keep adding to a wall with feelings?

could it be dealing w/ the cancer? my step siter had cancer back in 95′ and it was very hard for her to deal

is your cancer curable? or treatable? and im sorry for your loss

well its not always a wise choice to keep these feelings in but i still would recommend a theripist. just tell your dad its something that would really help you out.

if that is this continues

Bodagen wrote:
well its not always a wise choice to keep these feelings in but i still would recommend a theripist. just tell your dad its something that would really help you out.

and what you tell your counslor is confidental and your dad wont find out unless you tell them

i respect your srtong will. and it means so much to me that you feel that way. dont give up hope or the will to survive. and you will beat the cancer.

im sorry i cant tell you why you did it. i wasnt there. i dont know all the lil details. but i can say that im here for you if you ever need to talk. i can garuntee that

well as i said sometimes there is no reason if you dont know why thats hat i lean towards

im available for chat ;)

im soory i couldnt help you. but i will pray for you and im here to talk.

its a step for you to grow up, you are getting older…

Cancer and chemo are major things. Be kind to yourself. Even if you are not yet really over losing your mom, that is ok. She abandoned you and that hurts, I know it does. I don’t think we really get over losing people; we just try to learn how to best move forward with our lives. What you should remember is that what people do is about them, not about you. She did not leave because of you; she had her own stuff going on. This perhaps doesn’t make it pardonable, but maybe a little more understandable.

Please don’t cut yourself. Don’t punish yourself for what you perceive are your dad’s shortcomings as a father. We do that as humans–make ourselves pay when other people let us down, perhaps because we believe on some level we must deserve it, or perhaps because we want them to feel guilty for “making” us do what we are doing to ourselves. Don’t fall into that trap. Your body needs all the energy it has to fight the cancer.

If you choose not to tell your father, find another outlet - help.com and/or a friend you can talk to, or a journal. Sometimes you will get insight from your own writings. Ask yourself, “If a friend was telling me these things (the things I feel), what would I say to comfort him or her?” Give that comfort to yourself.

Consider reading “The Greatest Miracle in the World” by Og Mandino. He was suicidal before he started writing, and because he chose to live, he wound up having an amazing life with bestselling books which have impacted millions of people. We are all connected. You cannot injure yourself without putting a dent in humanity. You are stronger than you know and I am confident you will be ok. One proof of your strength is that you have lost your mother, been going through cancer, chemo, etc., and you have only now had a bit of a breakdown. A lot of people would have crumbled at the beginning of all this.

And if someone tells you your are like your mother, don’t give it any power. Them telling you that you are like her, if you are not, does not make you like her, anymore than them saying you have a different color of eyes or hair than you do. What they think doesn’t make it so.