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If I don’t start writing I’ll write nothing… *deep sigh* I feel worse then I ever have on drugs or as a drunk… You know when you watch someone sleep, and you think to yourself “I wonder are they already in tomorrow”… and then you stay awake all night and you feel as if you’re still in yesterday, and everyone around you seems more in place then you, they’re really *in* today… I don’t know how long ago the yesterday I’m still in was, but I wish I had remembered that day… You know when you get a headache so bad it makes you want to smash your head and let the pain out, you can’t think straight and are consumed by this head-wrecking feeling that makes you angry confused and sad… I have the feeling yet I have no headache… My body aches with an energy that is determined to do something, but my mind is too distorted to really *do* anything, or to figure out what that thing is… As I walked to the store about an hour ago, I was struck by how out of place I felt, I was reminded of times when I would wait for the bus to work in the early morning and I’d see drunks still out from the night before, they were still in yesterday, and it was apparent to all of us in today… it must be strange to see me meandering about looking lost and confused, I hope at least my presence shakes the foundation of the observer’s own sense of now… I’m tired but I’m hours from sleep, time passes faster then it ever has, I can’t say for sure if I am, or am not, having fun…. There was a low fog sitting atop the mountain I noticed on my walk down to the store, the asian guy in the store was listening to some asian love ballad he played through his phone, I liked it, those speakers are impressive… I got 40 smokes, seems like only an hour or two ago I was down there buying smokes, that was 3 days ago I think, I crossed the roads looking straight ahead, I really don’t give a **** if you hit me with your car, just do me a favor and don’t brake… I bought an iced tea, it was refreshing, reminded me how it’s the little things in life that are always there to give you comfort… The fog had lifted from the mountain as I walked back, I had hoped this was some cosmic symbolism that perhaps I could think clearer now… no dice… I sat under a tree briefly feeling awkward and uncomfortable, there was a time in my life where I could plant myself anywhere and sit comfortably feeling at home… But I felt like a teenager at a kids birthday party, bugs seem to be strangely attracted to me these days, natures nano-probes, lil *******, I kill a bug every hour or two in my room… where I am now, **** I hate it here, the only effect of geographical location on my sense of well being is the novelty of a new place, that is sure to wear off and leave me feeling out of place and uncomfortable…. I’m tired of writing, and I hope for your sake you didn’t read this ****.

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Don’t read this.

If I don’t start writing I’ll write nothing… *deep sigh* I feel worse then I ever have on drugs or as a drunk… You know when you watch someone sleep, and you think to yourself “I wonder are they already in tomorrow”… and then you stay awake all night and you feel as if you’re still in yesterday, and everyone around you seems more in place then you, they’re really *in* today… I don’t know how long ago the yesterday I’m still in was, but I wish I had remembered that day… You know when you get a headache so bad it makes you want to smash your head and let the pain out, you can’t think straight and are consumed by this head-wrecking feeling that makes you angry confused and sad… I have the feeling yet I have no headache… My body aches with an energy that is determined to do something, but my mind is too distorted to really *do* anything, or to figure out what that thing is… As I walked to the store about an hour ago, I was struck by how out of place I felt, I was reminded of times when I would wait for the bus to work in the early morning and I’d see drunks still out from the night before, they were still in yesterday, and it was apparent to all of us in today… it must be strange to see me meandering about looking lost and confused, I hope at least my presence shakes the foundation of the observer’s own sense of now… I’m tired but I’m hours from sleep, time passes faster then it ever has, I can’t say for sure if I am, or am not, having fun…. There was a low fog sitting atop the mountain I noticed on my walk down to the store, the asian guy in the store was listening to some asian love ballad he played through his phone, I liked it, those speakers are impressive… I got 40 smokes, seems like only an hour or two ago I was down there buying smokes, that was 3 days ago I think, I crossed the roads looking straight ahead, I really don’t give a **** if you hit me with your car, just do me a favor and don’t brake… I bought an iced tea, it was refreshing, reminded me how it’s the little things in life that are always there to give you comfort… The fog had lifted from the mountain as I walked back, I had hoped this was some cosmic symbolism that perhaps I could think clearer now… no dice… I sat under a tree briefly feeling awkward and uncomfortable, there was a time in my life where I could plant myself anywhere and sit comfortably feeling at home… But I felt like a teenager at a kids birthday party, bugs seem to be strangely attracted to me these days, natures nano-probes, lil *******, I kill a bug every hour or two in my room… where I am now, **** I hate it here, the only effect of geographical location on my sense of well being is the novelty of a new place, that is sure to wear off and leave me feeling out of place and uncomfortable…. I’m tired of writing, and I hope for your sake you didn’t read this ****.

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Cannonball Girl offline Verified User (2 years, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
Susanville, CA, US | 1 year, 3 months ago (4 minutes after post)

well i totally did.
and it was slightly amazing

just so you know

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Ballinteer, 07, IE | 1 year, 3 months ago (8 minutes after post)

Thank you

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Susanville, CA, US | 1 year, 3 months ago (11 minutes after post)

no prob

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (13 minutes after post)

I have to admit I’m very impressed by your writing skills -fourthings-.

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Ballinteer, 07, IE | 1 year, 3 months ago (15 minutes after post)

That’s very nice of you to say Chameleon, thank you.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (18 minutes after post)

You’re welcome. I actually wished it would have kept going. I wanted to find out what happened to “the guy”. To tell you the truth if it was the beginning of a book, I would read it all - and I HATE reading books. lol

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Ballinteer, 07, IE | 1 year, 3 months ago (19 minutes after post)

lol, the guy? What guy? That is just me writing what’s in my head and what I just did and thought :p

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (21 minutes after post)

I know but to me, the reader, it was “the guy” in the story.
It’s really a great feat to get me interested enough in reading something to make me want to read more instead of me wanting it to hurry up and end. That post you wrote was like a great beginning of a book, it “hooked” me and made me want to find out more about “the guy”. :P

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Ballinteer, 07, IE | 1 year, 3 months ago (22 minutes after post)

Oh lol sorry :p well this is the continuation really, after I got home I wrote the post, and here I am replying to you now :]

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (28 minutes after post)

But look at how you explained your thought processes in the post, how you described your surroundings like the fog on the mountains and mentioned “trivial” things like the music the store man was playing, which all made me, the reader, feel more immersed in the story - as if I’m “seeing it” for myself.
You really do have a talent for writing.
I never hand out fake compliments, hell it’s hard enough for me to compliment you so you better take this to heart! :P

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Ballinteer, 07, IE | 1 year, 3 months ago (30 minutes after post)

Thank you, I appreciate it, I used to write allot of posts like this. Maybe I should write something, eventually I’ll have to write stories to the games/animations I make.

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Ballinteer, 07, IE | 1 year, 3 months ago (32 minutes after post)

Thanx Chameleon you made me feel allot better C:

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (37 minutes after post)

Why waste your talents on posts or games? You should try to get published. I don’t mean a whole big book, just short stories at first in writer’s magazines and such.
There’s lots of ways to get published now. Even purely online books/stories. So a whole big book might not be a bad idea for you if it’s online. I know some a$$hole that got himself published, I can ask how he did it and get the info to you. His book SUUUUCKS but he is advertising it all over the web and making fake testimonials for it so it’s selling on Amazon I guess. I forget the details of it all but I can ask if you’re interested in such a thing.
Or maybe I’m way off base on what you want to do with your writing.

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Ballinteer, 07, IE | 1 year, 3 months ago (42 minutes after post)

No I would love to do that, I enjoy writing, any creative outlet for me is a good one. I have experience in web design so that might help. If it’s not too much trouble then yes please do see if you can get me some info. I’ll google around and see what I can find out, I have many short outlines for stories and I wrote my dreams down for 2 years or so, got some great stories from those. Thanx again, really is very much appreciated :]

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (45 minutes after post)

No problem. I’ll shout you when I get any info on how he did it. I’ll try to find something out tomorrow. If it slips my mind and you don’t get a shout from me tomorrow, shout me.

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Ballinteer, 07, IE | 1 year, 3 months ago (46 minutes after post)

Coolies, thank you C:

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Ballinteer, 07, IE | 1 year, 3 months ago (51 minutes after post)

lol… does a person exist while they sleep if someone doesn’t watch? hehe

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (6 hours, 35 minutes after post)

Man, that was really good. Some people are meant to do some things, i really think you were meant to write…Keep doing it.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (10 hours, 53 minutes after post)

Awesome prose - I realy like it! Not quite stream of consciousness - but very similar.

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Ventura, CA, US | 1 year, 3 months ago (10 hours, 58 minutes after post)

dude your writing is crazy - it flows and ebbs and swirls and takes me to lands that only I could imagine - and yet it is laced with the sadness that only an old person could know

I second what heylookitsdaniel said - keep it up! maybe send some of it to some body and see if they want to publish you

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (10 hours, 59 minutes after post)

four, keep writing… maybe this is why your head hurts so much… :)

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Ballinteer, 07, IE | 1 year, 3 months ago (10 hours, 59 minutes after post)

lol Tmpy

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Wilmington, NC, US | 1 year, 3 months ago (13 hours, 36 minutes after post)

*big huggles* I feel the same way sometimes and I find that sleep usually helps, and when it doesn’t then I wait for time or space to pass and then I feel better. Is something bothering you that might be causing those feelings? *more huggles*

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (13 hours, 38 minutes after post)

Hey - fourthings - we should collaborate or something! love your pose….

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Ballinteer, 07, IE | 1 year, 3 months ago (14 hours after post)

Awww, I’ll always be yours Cami :]

*huggls Sam*

What would you like to collaborate on MJF? Sounds fun.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (14 hours, 2 minutes after post)

Sure thing - I’m writing a novella based on 1) the return of the messiah (but realy - realy not!) a bunch of psychological tests carried out on a woman by a US govermnment sponsered programme - a psychic and a lobotomised child….

Interested?

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Ballinteer, 07, IE | 1 year, 3 months ago (14 hours, 4 minutes after post)

Hmm, sounds interesting, what use would I be to you tho?

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (14 hours, 6 minutes after post)

Well - you write increadably well. I could esily see you writing a few chapters from the perspecive of several of the characters…. I realy like your writing.

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Ballinteer, 07, IE | 1 year, 3 months ago (14 hours, 8 minutes after post)

Oh, yeah that would be fun :] Maybe you could put something together for me that would give me an idea of what you want?

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US | 1 year, 3 months ago (14 hours, 10 minutes after post)

well,i liked it and you think no different from other ppl four i think it just may be a time in your life where waiting is the hardest thing to deal with all you want is to feel better,and all you need to do is give it time witch nobody likes to do,but sometimes thats what you need,feeling out of place i think can be very normal but you will see that you can slide right back in when the time is right,you a great person four its nice to see you can put your feelings out there and do it soo well…well i hope you feel better,and i hope its soon for i hate waiting and know how it feels!!i wish you the best four :)if im offbase about this post sorry lol!!

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (14 hours, 10 minutes after post)

Sure thing - wait untill I can sort it out better - but I will send you the first chapter if you like

Or I could set it up as a post

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Ballinteer, 07, IE | 1 year, 3 months ago (14 hours, 12 minutes after post)

Thank you Rebek. C:

I don’t think posting it is a good idea MJF, because then it is property of Cnet. I’ll open my email to you if I haven’t already and when you’re ready you could send me something, if that’s ok with you :]

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (14 hours, 13 minutes after post)

sure thing mate - send me your email and I will email you the first chapter….

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US | 1 year, 3 months ago (14 hours, 15 minutes after post)

anytime four your a great person just keep going,and keep putting your thought’s feeling’s and smiles out there:)

time heals more then you know! and your friends here are always there:)

*BIG HUGS*

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (14 hours, 40 minutes after post)

Hmm - for some reason your email thing doesn;t wana work - shout me your email and I’ll send over what I have so far

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (1 day, 3 hours after post)

I tend to read that which I am not supposed to… Your beer is getting warm. Hurry your but up and get over here! This is somewhere new… To me anyway. I think I will go down to Karon tomorrow and look for your family… Do they know I am around or that I exists?

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Ballinteer, 07, IE | 1 year, 3 months ago (1 day, 8 hours after post)

Yeah they do know you’re around, and they’re off the Wiset road near phuket town. I’ll be there in a week, leaving saturday next week. Lookin forward to gettin over there and meetin ya, Do you have any requests of something from Ireland? There’s not much you can get here that you can’t get elsewhere tho.

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An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (2 days, 17 hours after post)

don’t worry i looked at it and was like …passss and didn’t read it cuz it was too long…i need cliff notes of what i’m not sposed to read k!!

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AU | 1 year, 3 months ago (3 days, 8 hours after post)

Hey dude, just got back from Byron Bay. Guess we’ll talk later. *whooooooooosh!*

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (3 days, 18 hours after post)

I agree with Say lol but it looks nice hehe:D

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (4 days, 6 hours after post)

A bottle of good Irish whiskey! Well… That can be kind of pricey. A shot sized bottle?

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An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (4 days, 18 hours after post)

i’m going to use this for a start of one of my papers this sem soooooo keep it up so i don’t have to do homework….bitchhhhhhhh lol jk but really

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (1 week, 4 days after post)

Hmm making a book out of this….maybe if it was a homoerotic thriller id buy it Xd haha
but on a serious note, I know about how you feel, ive stayed up days in a row too many times. For me its more like the boundaries between whats real and what is in my mind. Vision gets shakey, inanimate ojjects suddenly start moving, and I feel filled with a hollow energy, where I need to go and do something, but I know I will lose track of it when I do start. Its an odd feeling haha.
Anyways yeah a very….eloquently put post there man ^_^

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (2 weeks, 1 day after post)

You should listen to the song “wasted” by carrie underwood.

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Ballinteer, 07, IE | 1 year, 3 months ago (2 weeks, 1 day after post)

Highly irrelevant…

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