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Every day it just seems to be getting harder.

Just waking up in the morning is a struggle, that I often fail at. In losing my best friend I’ve lost my reason for being. I’ve lost the light that used to shine inside of me. I can’t bring myself to care anymore about what other people think, or being rude, or anything. I just want to be left alone. I just want to step out of this world gracefully. I just want to stop, because I don’t know how I’m supposed to keep trudging through each minute, each day. I”m just so tired. I’m tired of going to family cookouts and leaving in tears, because it’s just too hard to even talk to my mom, or my siblings or anyone. I’m tired of crying all the time. I’m tired of this emptiness, and feeling like I’m all alone. I’m tired of people I barely know coming up to me and sharing their stories of loss, saying they understand because their grandpa died last year of cancer, or worse telling me it’s time to move on. I’m tired of my sister calling me everyday to make sure I’m okay, but when I do see her she drops the same old comments making me feel unwelcome and isolated. I’m just so tired. My soul feels tired. My body aches. I wake up every morning feeling sick to my stomach, and not ready or willing to go to work. Most days I just go so I don’t have to explain why I couldn’t get up again. I’m just so tired. I want out. I am jealous that she got to leave this place and I’m left trying to figure out how to keep going on when I don’t even feel alive anymore.

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Rotech927 offline Verified User (1 year, 11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 7 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (32 minutes after post)

We all deal with the problems of life…you, me, and everyone! The secret, don’t let it get you down. Today is the best day of your life. Be happy and don’t worry…it so shall pass…as my coach once said, ‘the sun does not shine on the same dog’s butt everyday!’ Your day is coming…could be today! Be patient and keep strong. Don’t give in…Be tuff minded and resolute my friend!

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (40 minutes after post)

What can anyone say to make you feel better? Nothing, everything will seem drab & meaningless in the face of your despair. It sounds as though you are going through a horrific grief process at and it must be utterly terrible for you, i cant even begin to understand and I doubt there are words enough to describe. Please don’t give up. I know everyone around you must seem completely useless…and they are…I can only imagine your sister doesn’t know what to say anymore.

Ignore unhelpful cliches like ‘cheer up’, i know when i’m down that kind of crap it only makes me want to jump off this mortal coil. You are going through Hell right now, dont allow people to undermine your feelings - you deserve to feel this way, it would just be awful if they consumed you.

But for you, please seek grief counselling where you are. I’m in the UK so cant suggest numbers but if you google it there will be numbers you can call right now. It wont fix it, but over time it will hopefully lift a little pressure off you by sharing. At the moment there will seem no light at the end of the tunnel, but let professionals help you. If you dont get through to the right person to listen the first time, try someone else.

Please seek help, there will be people that can and this can get better for you or at least easier to live with.

Thinking of you.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (57 minutes after post)

i am the same way and counseling dont help..
im in it and i still feel the same way

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An Unknown Location | 11 months, 1 week ago (4 months, 2 weeks after post)

I’m the very same. Can’t afford a shrink. Everyday’s the same, cant be sure why I get up in the morning. I guess the important thing is, is that I and you still get up. We still fight a losing battle just to see if things will get better, to make sure our friends aren’t just lying to us. As pointless as that sounds, at least it is a reason to keep going.

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Rotech927 offline Verified User (1 year, 11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 7 #
An Undisclosed Location | 11 months, 1 week ago (4 months, 2 weeks after post)

ZZ, understood….life never gets easier! Dealing with my mom now, she is 86 and beginning to have signs of dementia. But, as you say, we get up and keep on going. Our friendships and family makes it bearable.

Take care my friend!

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