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I am mental.

My conscience controls my thoughts, my everyday thoughts are judged by myself, and i question whether i am a good person.

But now its grown to something more extreme. I would never hurt anyone, never have, i have no desire to but my conscience tells me that i could hurt people or kill without a care. I try and prove to myself to make it clear that i would not do it. so i imagine myself doing such a disgusting act but because i get no GUT instinct that killing is wrong when im thinking of myself doing it, i now think that im capable and could do such an act at random, and then my conscience tells me that i would enjoy it or what ever. im scared that if it continues it will convince me!!!
but i would never do it, its insane, i fear for my sanity. when i imagine it in my mind its no big deal so i think well then u could do it really, but i couldnt!! when i hear of murders on the news it makes me so sad and scared that the world is lik ethat, but then i have to convince my self (which is crazy) that i do genuinely feel that way, and then when i just sit there thinking about it i again get no gut instinct thats its wrong, even though i know i know its wrong because of what i immediately think when i hear about it.
i want to help people not hurt them. its like somethings taking over me

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Rain37 offline Verified User (1 year, 11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (24 minutes after post)

Your inhibitions seem to be intact, which is a good sign. But if it’s really worrying you, you should talk to a counsellor about it and see if there’s anything to be concerned about. Best to catch things early :)

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (31 minutes after post)

ask a counsellor, i have weird thoughts too, but i can not say what about. think it through, get all the help you need from people you know, you know inside you would never hurt someone, so ask your self to stop thinking about killing, and focus on reality and follow you good heart because you are a good person, anyone who wants to kill is bad, but you are a good sole

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (33 minutes after post)

i say the same as the other person

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