I´m on ‘vacation’ in Europe, but I´ve lost motivation to continue.
I´ve been in Barcelona, Spain for 22 days (!!), doing NOTHING, because I am confused. I´m like, mental. I don´t want anything in this world (except maybe a girl in Colorado, but in the long run it would never work out). I went on vacation because I didn´t like my life and was feeling suicidal. Now I am sick of travelling, but I have nothing to go back to. I quit my job, moved cross country. I have no friends, just my mother who is travelling around the US trying to find where she wants to settle down. I have been looking at going to Italy next, but all the tickets are so expensive, like $180 to get to Rome from here. That might not seem like a lot, but amounts like that add up, and I´ve already spent thousands on this trip. Also, I have no return ticket. I´m just wasting all my money staying here. I´ve been thinking about joining the French Foreign Legion. There is a recruitment center in Marseilles, France. At least then I wouldn´t be confused or have to think anymore, but that would take 5 years of my life away. And 1/10 Legionnaires are killed in combat.
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I´m on ‘vacation’ in Europe, but I´ve lost motivation to continue.
I´ve been in Barcelona, Spain for 22 days (!!), doing NOTHING, because I am confused. I´m like, mental. I don´t want anything in this world (except maybe for a girl in Colorado, but it in the long run it would never work out). I went on vacation because I didn´t like my life and was feeling suicidal. Now I am sick of travelling, but I have nothing to go back to. I quit my job, moved cross country. I have no friends, just my mother who is travelling around the US trying to find where she wants to settle down. I have been looking at going to Italy next, but all the tickets are so expensive, like $180 to get to Rome from here. That might not seem like a lot, but amounts like that add up, and I´ve already spent thousands on this trip. Also, I have no return ticket. I´m just wasting all my money staying here. I´ve been thinking about joining the French Foreign Legion. There is a recruitment center in Marseilles, France. At least then I wouldn´t be confused or have to think anymore, but that would take 5 years of my life away. And 1/10 Legionnaires are killed in combat.
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