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will God still blame me if i go out of my way to solve this my problem.
i begged him, i wept, i ran away from home, now heavily indebted, dont have a home, sold my hospital on top of everything.
even if nobody including god agrees with me, i know i have tried my best. i cant hold on again. my ultimate shame is imminent unless i do something radical. is it not better to look for a way out no matter how ungodly than to commit suicide. now that it is obvious that is not sympathetic to my cause despite my pleading with him….i think i will do it. dont ask me what i want to do….but please, dont blame me later. nobody is willing to help me but they will all be quick to blame me when the time comes…anyway, i hate everybody. i hate myself and i wish my wife to be is not so unlucky to have me.
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What ever has happened, it’s not your fault. As the old saying goes, sh1t happens. Suicide isn’t going to make everything go away. You need to try to solve your problems before they get to out of hand.
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Tears On The Balcony is right. :)
Try going back home. Theres no shame in making a mistake. Or asking for help.
Do not give up when you still have something to give.
Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.
It doesn’t matter how many
times you get knocked down….
It only matters how many
times you get up again.
Sometimes bad stuff happens, not because God is ignoring us, but because he’s giving us the chance to prove how strong we can be. If your life sucks right now, have faith in God that he has something better in store for you over the horizon. Suicide never solves anything - you have to live your life the best you can until God decides your time’s up. Until then, have faith and take all the chances life gives you. They’re always there, even if they’re not obvious. You can get through this :)
I’m not into the whole god thing but that’s really good advice dorianvalentine
God cannot help you if you take the situation out of His capable hands. See that’s the thing, I know you don’t need lectures right now, but this is given to you straight so that you can rise above this. Do you know the scripture verse ” Be still and know that I am God?” Well many of us are faced with situations day after day,we beg and plead and after we pray we doubt if God heard the message, and doubt if he will here… What we should have laid at the foot of Jesus feet at the cross we begin to dwell, and empower and soon we take back our troubles adding to it our own remedy to rectify the problem.
I once asked God ” I didn’t ask to be born, why am I in this situation, I did the best I could!” and He answered that the situation was due to my choice I had made, and were making… you see our solutions can’t forsee the true outcome of the things we do, we do not take into consideration someone elses actions or responses due to our actions, we are single minded creature focusing on ourselves, our wants our desires our needs… There are options for you… welfare, taking a job that you don’t want to do, but hey you like to eat those mcdonald’s burgers right? Many people refuse to take a job that’s beneath them and resort to self sacrafice such as the ways you are talking about, what’s more demeaning, working as a clerk, a janitor, moping the floors at mc d’s or selling your body for cold hard cash? The ones first mentioned may not be ideal but stay with them long enough, you’ll work your way up the corperate ladder, honestly and you and others will be able to look at you with the dignity and self respect you deserve. We all gotta start somewhere, and you need to reconsider your moral compass… life is hard for all of us, and there has to be other ways to make money, blaming God and the self pity party isn’t going to make a majic wand appear and someone say ” there there dear” Threats aren’t going to make or break your life. YOu need to be proactive and that begins with a healthy mind and outlook.
Begin to pick up the pieces of your life by starting small, take baby steps towards clearing your bills up… what’s the most important right now, food and shelter… soooo you need to perhaps start finding accomodations maybe you can rent a room for a while? Maybe you can mow lawns? wash windows? Hey those aren’t bad I know pple who started businesses from these are are successful.
Scripture also says that the money that we recieve from dishonest ways quickly departs… ( paraphrasing) It’s so very true… Love your God more than you love money, start letting it serve you, not the other way around… make money to live, to survive, not live and survive to serve money and live for it for the status symbol,so you can hold onto your things, so you can maintian your comfortable lifestyle… God allows us to go through these things for a reason, and although it’s a hard lesson, it will go better for us if we begin to learn these lessons in a timely fashion…
Babysit if you have to but by goodness never stoop so low to sacrafice yourself and who you are in Christ to get you out of a rut… Suicide isn’t the answer either… and God wouldn’t want you to leave this life like that, and he wouldn’t want you to threaten about it either… If you’d like we can pray together… there is power in prayer… GOD BLESS YOU!
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why is it that everyone always mentions god when your going through a rough time. He always has some plan for your life so you wait around for all those good things that are suppose to head your way. God doesn’t wanna see you kill yourself but he sure doesn’t mind watching you hurt. Sorry but I get really tired of hearing about a god that never seems to be there. Do you ever wonder while your mentioning god that maybe god brought you to that person so you could actually help them and rather than just telling them some invisible being was out there wanting to bring good into their life that maybe there is something more you could do that would show them instead. God can only work through humans if they do what he puts on their hearts to do. A million times I have seen god put it on his servants hearts to help someone and they didn’t for fear they may lack if they gave what he asked. Yet they were still quick to say god has something for you while they refused to give it.
Jesus needs to be in your heart and he will set you free. Its never about us. Believe with all your heart, mind and soul. My life is a constant battle, but I am grateful for all the bumps in my life cause it teaches be to be grateful, and to never give up. Its through are tough times, we become stronger. When you get tired and no longer can continue, Jesus will carry you. Have Faith enough to move mountains. Trust in him. Jesus Loves you. Try to always to do the right thing! When we trust in God all things are possible.
BirthdayCake wrote:
Yes yes he will.
Your a stupid *****.
Why are you even listening to god in the first place?
For Christ’s sake.
Gotta love the idea of an atheist saying “For Christ’s sake” :P
When you going threw a rough time, people see no way out except death. and if there far enough on edge were they think about dying alot, they have to be able to believe theres a god out there.so that when they die there ll be further from this world full of fakes and hatred and closer to god
ok well I haven’t been here r kept up with these comments it seems too personal i nature. To your queston however if your willing to die make your death count as much as you want your life to count for. Remember too when you least see it someones always watching you… kids look up and see … do you want to send the message it’s okay to quit or do you wanna be the human you were made to be.
Dude…Wake up, its life, im only 18 and i have many trials and things i have been tested by.God lOves you, God want yu to give your problem over to him. I have struggle with fear but God showed me that fear is one of the devil schemes. God will protect you and guide you. Remember you are living for God and to help bring people closer to him so just have FAITH.. i know it might be hard to believe it God and yu can’t see him, but he do exist, just believe and surrender to him with all your problems. Trials make you a stronger person. I prayed for you and remember God makes a way out of no way..Ps.read bible verse.. Ephesians 6, Timothy 1-7, and my favorite Jeremiah 29-11
dinksta wrote:
Dude…Wake up, its life, im only 18 and i have many trials and things i have been tested by.God lOves you, God want yu to give your problem over to him. I have struggle with fear but God showed me that fear is one of the devil schemes. God will protect you and guide you. Remember you are living for God and to help bring people closer to him so just have FAITH.. i know it might be hard to believe it God and yu can’t see him, but he do exist, just believe and surrender to him with all your problems. Trials make you a stronger person. I prayed for you and remember God makes a way out of no way..Ps.read bible verse.. Ephesians 6, Timothy 1-7, and my favorite Jeremiah 29-11
very true
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