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Self destruct

Yep right now thats what i really want to do… just explode!!!
I feel trapped and i cant find a way out :(

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Dorian offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (1 minute after post)

I’ve been there once or twice - what’s making you feel trapped?

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mazzyy offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Burnley, H2, GB | 1 year, 3 months ago (2 minutes after post)

Hi

I’ve made some mistakes.. got married to the wrong person, had kids even though i didnt want 2 :S i could go on and on… now i look back and think wft

arrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhh i feel like im going crazy

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Dorian offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (7 minutes after post)

We’ve all made mistakes, but it’s important to look forward and not back. It sounds like a corny self-help manual but it’s true.

Have you been feeling like this for long?

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mazzyy offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Burnley, H2, GB | 1 year, 3 months ago (10 minutes after post)

Just recently i’ve wanted 2 explode, everyone i know comes to me for advice and support but i’ve got no1.

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mazzyy changed the tags on this post: they were "Find, Explosion, Right Now, Feel, trapped" 1 year, 3 months ago.

Dorian offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (14 minutes after post)

Well, you’ve got me, even if I am only words on a screen :)

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Dorian offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (15 minutes after post)

What makes you think you can’t talk to your friends though?

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mazzyy offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Burnley, H2, GB | 1 year, 3 months ago (20 minutes after post)

Awww thats very sweet of u! People seem to think i’ve got this perfect life, a husband, house, children and a part-time job. But if your not happy then whats the point!

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Dorian offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (26 minutes after post)

Well, there’s always a point, and there’s usually happiness for those who know where to look for it. Have you got any hobbies?

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Sherooo offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 7 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (26 minutes after post)

sounds like you need to gain back some of your independence.
how old are your kids?

if theyre old enough to move out, i suggest you make them move out.. perhaps not make, but you see my point.
then you can claim back some of the time that you feel has been unjustly taken away from you.

but at the same time, having children is something that some people cannot have.. so you should be thankful youve been given that chance.

Maybe you could take up a part-time course? At open university?
that’ll stimulate you more.

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Dorian offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (30 minutes after post)

You could try and find some sort of hobby that includes your kids - something you all can do together to put the fun back into being a mum.

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mazzyy offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Burnley, H2, GB | 1 year, 3 months ago (31 minutes after post)

well im 28 and my kids are under 5! they’re still babies and i love them but i felt like a had to have them.. it was an arrainged marriage and i guess the kids were arrainged tooo…. lol

I think the independance is the problem… b4 i was too busy to think! My kids are both in nursery and i have time to myself and im thinking what have i done with my life??

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Sherooo offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 7 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (32 minutes after post)

right in that case then, start doing something with your life, otherwise you will self-combust.

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mazzyy offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Burnley, H2, GB | 1 year, 3 months ago (34 minutes after post)

Family says i should have another kid and i dont wanna have another baby to “fix” the problem

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Dorian offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (34 minutes after post)

Well then don’t. How many kids have you got?

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Sherooo offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 7 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (35 minutes after post)

dont then.
simple.
you’re your own person, you can do what the hell you bloody like!

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mazzyy offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Burnley, H2, GB | 1 year, 3 months ago (38 minutes after post)

Lol i wish it was that easy! i have 2 children and i think thats more than enough (for me) my family think that another child will keep me busy and the thought of having another just scares me

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Dorian offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (42 minutes after post)

It’ll keep you busy all right, but that’s not neccessarily what you need. Sheroo has a good point about taking a part-time course, especially if you want to get that feeling of having done something with your life. Have you got any qualifications at the moment?

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mazzyy offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Burnley, H2, GB | 1 year, 3 months ago (1 hour, 7 minutes after post)

i’ve thought about going back to uni on a part-time basis.. i guess i just need some direction in my life.

Thanks guys mmmmwah!

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sarahhales200 offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (1 hour, 29 minutes after post)

Lots of people get stuck in these situations…

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Dragon_Lady offline Verified User (1 year, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 5 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 3 months ago (4 hours, 55 minutes after post)

Work on reclaiming a life for yourself. Take some college courses, learn a new skill, get a hobby, buy something you’ve always wanted…. Take care of you, and you’ll be better equipped to cope with having to take care of others.

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