friends help: Since about late March/early April I’ve liked one of my best friends (he’s a guy, I’m a girl, by the way). - Help.com

Since about late March/early April I’ve liked one of my best friends (he’s a guy, I’m a girl, by the way).

At first we just annoyed the heck out of each other every day in math class, but now we IM and email and used to talk after school every day.

Around the last month of the school year, one of our mutual on-and-off friends noticed that I was hanging around him more, and that we talked a lot more than ever before.

And so, he started tormenting me whenever he could, calling me ‘the German Lover’ (German being my crush’s slightly unfortunate nickname). I hate that friend now, and my crush does too, because the boy also taunted him about my feelings too.
Even back then, I felt like I had destroyed their friendship, even though people have tried to convince me otherwise.

To make things even worse, my friends (that knew) keep trying to convince me that ‘the German’ likes me too.
I even believed them on occasion, but then would get hurt when something would happen to make me rethink things.

Well, on the last day of school, one of my friends told ‘the German’ how I felt about him, and I got ignored by him for part of the day, but we eventually talked again after lunch.
The same friend that told him ended up telling the boy who tormented us, along with one of ‘the German’s’ other friends.
His friend and the other boy found me after school was over, and told me that they’d told him everything, (pretty much making sure he and I would never forget). The one friend, the one that hadn’t previously been a part of it, began feeling… I don’t know… I guess sorry for me, and he offered to call ‘the German’ and tell him that they were kidding.
I declined, temporarily realizing I really didn’t care, and they left.

I still talked to ‘the German’ at least once a week for the first month and a half of summer, and we talked at one of our friend’s parties too.
He seemed to be fine about everything, and I tried to convince myself I was too.

Well, tonight was the orientation at our high school, and afterwards, they had all the students go to the gym for ‘a dance’. ‘The German’ was there, along with the boy who had tormented us, and the other friend. I tried to avoid all three, not really know if I could handle it, but I ended up telling ‘the German’ his hair looked short in the hall beforehand (with his mom right there smiling at me too). And the tormenting boy also kept true to his alias.

After the dance, we were all standing outside the school lobby, waiting for parents and stuff, when the tormenting boy calls across the patio to me.
He was also standing with most of his friends, a few of his friends’ parents, most of grade was between him and me, and ‘the German’ was standing just to his right.
He yells ‘GERMAN LOVER!’ as loud as he can. I flip him off, and people start laughing, including ‘the German’ himself (though I’m not sure whether he was laughing at the boy getting flipped the bird, or my new name).

And now I feel like I either want to apologize to ‘the German’ letting my feelings out for once and ruining every little thing, or hide in a hole away from him and his friends for the rest of the year.
I don’t even know if I really need help or not..

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