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I don’t know where to start.
So before you go telling me to seek help, let me explain this.
I am the son of a very wealthy cardiologist, and a lawyer/industrial real estate agent.
My older sister (36) is married with two kids, the eldest is going into 6th grade.
I graduated high school a trimester early.
I have a 3.9, with acceptance into any number of college. Including Stanford.
I declined all of the acceptances, and have been fighting strong depression since Junior year.
The depression stems because of family problems, a extremely rough break up, and being arrested for computer hacking.
I am currently surviving four year probation.
Since the incident. I have been good, and had no previous record. I was taken off house arrest, allowed to use a computer, pretty much the only… Condition is drug testing, and notification if I leave the country.
I have wanted to die since my freshmen year. I don’t want this. The money. None of it. I hate myself in so many ways, and I hide it the best I can. I used to cut, and I currently smoke light cigarettes.
The reason I am posting here. My family just got done with a cruise to Europe, and were flying to the Canary Islands from Madrid. When I got the call that the plane had been in an accident yesterday. I realized I had lost my younger step sister, brother, mother, and step-father.
Half of my family is gone, and I am the only member of the trust, and have inherited everything.
Some may say this is good, some may say this is awful. I intend to kill myself via poison. If I cannot find the chemistry. I will kill myself by jumping off a building. I have a will that I have created naming my nephew sole inheritor of the trust. Which I will know the amount within a week. I believe my step-father had roughly 11.4 M, with a 3.0 M life insurance. My mother has roughly 4.0 M, with a 5.0 M in lie insurance. I would take control over a beach house in California, and two houses in the great lakes area. The government of Spain, along with Spanair offering me a undisclosed amount for the losses. They can’t give me enough for there ******* mistakes.
This has been the last straw. If I had the option of burning the money to bring back any one of them. I would do it in a heartbeat.
I need information on the chemistry on creating a near painless poison, I want to kill myself. I don’t need help, and if I did I’d go out and get it.
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