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I moved to the US from Austria when I was nine.

Now I’m nineteen and have the strongest longing to go back. I’m a sophomore at college and even though I have a 3 or 4 good friends I feel so out of place here. When I imagine living somewhere I can’t see myself living in the USA. I try to be happy but it’s as if there is something lacking. I know how to make friends and I know how to be social but I’m slowly receding within myself and getting more and more pessimistic. Also there are these foreign exchange students from Germany who range from ages 23 to 24 and I just long to be good friends with them because I feel some sort of odd connection with them. It’s frustrating as hell. But whenever I talk to them I get even more homesick for Austria, for my language. Then I just feel that they are to old for me and that they don’t understand that the reason I want to speak to them is because it just..I don’t know. It makes me happy and at the same time incredibly depressed.

Now this isn’t the only problem. I’m also half hispanic and have been raised in a Spanish house hold. Even though I believe that I am more Hispanic in my being, I miss Austria. I guess what I’m trying to say is that
I feel completely at loss with myself. I don’t know in which culture I belong in, Austrian, Mexican, or American.

Does anyone else feel this way?

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